I miss my best friend. She is angry at me all the time that sometimes I don't know what to do to fix things.

How I feel everyday

''How does it feel like not having a best friend?'', she asked me

But I'm Angry Too

Every soldier in a battlefield has their own way of dealing with the enemy. Some choose to run into it straight, full charge ready to attack. Some choose to stay silent and attack when no one's looking. Some choose deception, distract the enemy and attack him when he isn't paying attention. In fact, some do not like attacking at all. Some would choose negotiating to come at a solution. But nonetheless, everyone has their own way.

There are lots of arguments in my family. Ever since I was a kid. And my reaction to it when face with a problem, I walk away. And that is me until now.

When someone gets upset with me, either with something I did or didn't do, I just sigh..and not do anything about it. I don't console them, I don't tell them they're right or they're wrong. I just keep silent and see what happens. Maybe this is some sort of fort to save myself from getting hurt. Or perhaps this is some kind of a tactic, so that I don't get angrier and yell, say things I will regret in the future. Maybe this isn't a protection for me, but a protection for everyone else.

I'm only like that with people I'm close to. To people I'm not that close to, I explain. The silent treatment is what I learned from my family freuds, and I use this on anyone that I care about.

It's just like that.

If you're angry at me I am just going to let you stay angry.

Until this is forgotten and we get to move on and go back to normal.
But then again, if you choose to hold on to your anger, that's your choice.

Like I said, we all have our own way of dealing with things.

We were bored

So we made this video. It is actually..haha, well, VERY lame. :P This was uploaded like, months ago but then I remembered that I haven't blog about it yet. o.o But now I'm damn malas laaa. :P So here, IF you want to watch it, go aheadddd. :P haha

Click here to waste 8 minutes of YOUR life :P

And then we cut a whole watermelon. Had fun doing that too. 

The world should be careful when we're bored laa. Haha and THIS is just the stuffs we post on net ;) We've tons that we didn't. 

But that's a secret I'll never tell. ;)

xoxo

The world can analyze, size you up and throw you on the scales.

They can do their best to rate you and put you on their charts.
Then back it up with scientific smarts.

But honestly, there's more to what you're worth than what their human eyes evaluate.

Sexy's my name ;)

Okay the post has NOTHING to do with the post title. The song is just catchy, that's all ;)

Anyways, had a conversation with someone on name and virtues. 

I don't know how it got there. Oh, yeah, I think it was when he asked me about 'Adela'. And I told him it was my christian name. He then said he feels that a name holds a great importance and it gives the individual a sense of direction. Like his name, he feels he has a a lot to live up to.

I told him that personally, I feel sure, a name is important but it does not limit your capabilities and it does not dictate your choices. Even if you have a name that may not seem for some 'purpose', it does not matter so much. You have to make the effort to achieve whatever it is you want for yourself in your life. 

He says that a name will give an individual an impression that he is worth it, and then it will affect his choices.

Sure, I guess, but isn't it better to not let anything affect your choices? Not a name, not popularity (it's no count for merits), not anything but on your own decisions. That you list out your pros and cons and think critically on it. 

A name with a sense of direction is nice. A name given as a tribute to a famous individual is nice. A name named after a saint is great. 

But that does not mean it dictates your choices. What's in a name, stays in a name. Unless you practice the values and virtues the name holds in your life, your name is just a name. An identity but you decide the person you want to be. The name does not decide for you. 

Then, funny thing haha.. Was on facebook 'till late last night too, and my batch mate chatted with me. Asked me how come I've the name 'Adela'. And I said it's my christian name. Which surprised him (as usual), he didn't know I was a christian. I was about to go off when he said ''Wait! Want to know what my name means?''.. Random much? haha.. I said sure.. And he said 'Terpuji'.. and he puts the smiley :D .. Check out the kid so excited about his name. Haha, I asked him ''Want to know what Darshini means?''.. he said ''Sure''. And I said ''It means the one who blesses. And because you chatted with me, I hereby bless you''. :) 

Him : Thank you so much for your blessings OHHH GREAT ADELAA.

Me : You're welcome Yang Terpuji.

Haha, funny conversation. :)

Sorry been busy!

Studying and crapping and living etc.. nothing much going on except..
GOT A NEW PHONE!! TA-DA. YES I SPOILED THE OLD ONE. THIS IS ME :( but yeahhh this one i definitely wont spoil for sure!! :)

Yeshhh samsung galaxy S2.

Because I LOVE IT, ITS SO AWESOME!!

And also if i do anything to this one, I vow to communicate using cans and wires. ;)

KAHHHDAHHHUPDATED.
Have a good day people.

Medical student, busy busy :)

Byee!

Dip dyed hair

Wanna try it :)

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Haven't blog in a long while.

Nothing much going on now though. Everyday it's just classes, hospital visits for Biostats.. later on we've to head to the lecture theater to watch the movie 'Sicko'.

Just came back to AIMST from my break at home. Didn't enjoy the break. I didn't feel at home. Kept getting lectured about me. I guess I'm suppose to accept that because it's about improving myself right? But home don't feel like home anymore when you're not accepted for who you are, and when you're constantly being reminded to change into the person they want you to be. There's hols next week too, for the Tamil New Year. From Tuesday straight 'till Sunday. Not going home.

Watched the 'Moonu' movie last week. When the movie started, something told me I wouldn't like it. But I forced myself, because I haven't watch a 'good' tamil movie in a long time. Plus, I've this habit of analyzing every movies, and rating it. This time however, I told myself I wouldn't analyze this movie. That I'd just take whatever crap they give me and enjoy it nonetheless.

And surprisingly, I loved the movie. It was sad, emo, and the whole Bipolar Disorder thing didn't show enough credibility, but I just put all that aside. No analyzing remember? So yeah. It was good. :) I guess I still like movies in which the main character dies. In this movie, the guy committed suicide.

And then.. hmm.. Nothing much I guess. It's all about studying for the exams now.