A friend of mine posted a video on facebook and I watched it. It was really good. And well, food for thought :

What if I told you Jesus came to abolish religion?
What if I told you voting Republican really wasn’t his mission?
What if I told you Republican doesn’t automatically mean Christian,
and just because you call some people blind doesn’t automatically give you vision.

I mean if religion is so great, why is it starting so many wars?
Why does it build huge churches but fails to feed the poor?
Tells single moms God doesn’t love them if they’d ever had a divorce,
but in the Old Testament, God actually calls religious people whores.

Religion might preach grace, but another thing they practice,
tend to ridicule God’s people, they did it to John the Baptist.
They can’t fix their problems and so they just mask it,
not realizing religion is like spraying perfume on a casket.

See the problem with religion is that it never gets to the core.
It’s just behavior modification like a long list of chores.
Like let’s dress up the outside make it look nice and neat,
but it’s funny – that’s what they used to do to mummies, while the corpse rots underneath.

Now I ain’t judging, I’m just saying quit putting on a fake look,
because there’s a problem if people only know that you’re a Christian by your Facebook
I mean in every other aspect of your life you know that logics are worthy.
It’s like saying you play for the Lakers just because you bought a jersey.

See this was me too, but no one seemed to be on to me.
Acting like a church kid while addicted to pornography.
You see on Sunday I’d go to church but Saturday getting faded,
acting if I was simply created to just have sex and get wasted.

See I’ve spent my whole life building this façade of neatness
But now that I know Jesus, I boast in my weakness.
Because if grace is water, then the church should be an ocean.
It’s not a museum for good people; it’s a hospital for the broken.

Which means I don’t have to hide my failure, I don’t have to hide my sin.
Because it doesn’t depend on me, it depends on Him.
See because when I was God’s enemy, and certainly not a fan,
He looked down and said "I want that man".

Which was why Jesus hated religion, and for it he called them fools.
Don’t you see so much better than just following some rules?
Now let me clarify, I love the church, I love the bible, and yes I believe in sin.
But if Jesus came to your church, would they actually let Him in?

See remember He was called a glutton and a drunkard by religious men,
but the Son of God never supports self-righteousness, not now, not then.
Now back to the point, one thing is vital to mention,
how Jesus and religion are on opposite sides of the spectrum.

See one’s the work of God, but one’s a man made invention,
see one is the cure, but the other is the infection.
See because, religion says do, Jesus says done,
religion says 'slave', Jesus says 'son'.

Religion puts you in bondage, while Jesus sets you free.
Religion makes you blind, but Jesus makes you see.

And that’s why religion and Jesus are two different claims.
Religion is man searching for God. Christianity is God searching for man.
Which is why salvation is freely mine, and forgiveness is my own,
not based on my merits, but Jesus’ obedience alone.

Because He took the crown of thorns and the blood dripped down His face,
He took what we all deserved, I guess that’s why you call it grace.
And while being murdered, He yelled “Father forgive them. They know not what they do.”
Because while He was dangling on that cross, He was thinking of you.

And He absorbed all your sin and He buried it in the tomb.
Which is why I’m kneeling at the cross saying “C’mon, there’s room.”
So for religion, no I hate it, in fact I literally resent it,
because when Jesus said, “It is finished,” I believe He meant it.

Hello 2012 :)

Meet our christmas tree!

Haha yeah I know =.='' We were actually planning on getting a christmas tree for so long, to make our room more ''chrismassy''. But well.. Karu went drinking the other day and she got these two cards, and she made a 3D stick out kinda thing. Cool huh?

O.o''
Well, at least something, right? :)

Leave some morphine at my door

Its almost 1am Tuesday morning. And I'm excited.
Hev's asleep on skype and I'm doing my assignment.

I'm STARVING.

I keep glancing at Henrina at the other side of the room. She has her hair tied up in a bun that is sticking out at the TOP of her head. And she's singing and smiling to herself, at the laptop screen.

Karunya's behind me, in serious concentration. She's doing her assignments and watching How I Met Your Mother. But the look on her face, makes it seem like she's watching some war movie. O.o''

I'm HUNGRY. :(

There's bread in the cupboard but I'm lazy to go over there to get some. Yes, continue starving or eat right? Dilemma dilemma.
Actually, not a dilemma. It's called being a PIG.

I'm excited for Friday. Going home! For christmas!

That's all I keep thinking about. I plan to FINISH the assignment tonight (TONS TO DO :/) and finish biochem tomorrow! And start on patho , pack on thursday and friday, FLY HOME. :)

ANDDD I'm excitedd.
It's christmas.

:O
I shouldn't be so excited right? Have high expectations only to be disappointed o.o''
Sigh.

Oh well, I'll just be happy that I'm going home then. :)

I'm craving for McD. :O
Henny & I both actually.

We've been saying these past few weeks that we're gonna go get McD. But 'till today, we've only been just SAYING it. o.o''
FAIL. :p

HUNGRY :(

Kay darsh stop crapping and go back to work.

:o

HEY YOU READING THIS.
Hello. :)
(random) haha

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game

Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down

I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know

Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity

If the world really ends

in 2012.

Imagine it happening.

What do you do? Tell your mum & dad you love them? Hug your brothers and sisters? Kneel down in prayer?

I think I'd freeze. I'd probably just stand there and cry.

I dreamt about this many times. And every time, I just freeze. I wanted to express the way I feel, let important people know how much I love them or how much I'm sorry for the hurt and the pain I've caused.
But I've never been able to do that, especially not with my family. I don't open up or share, no one does. It just goes plain awkward.

With people too. It's so hard to tell someone I love them or that I miss them. I usually muster all my strength in me that I can, and say it. Except for all the 'loves!' on facebook, that's just following the norm of the society. No, not about me blending in, but to not make anyone else uncomfortable.

I know I am getting better, I do work on it. Try harder. Because I don't want this part of me to stay the same. I want to be able to hug freely, express freely. I am already on the road to that.

But I was always afraid that just because I don't say it, does not mean I don't love. I just always wished they would know. Perhaps through signs. But even THAT I'm bad at. I can probably just go be a robot.

But what if they don't know? What if somewhere along the way, they missed the signs?

In my dreams, I'd tell myself, Darsh, say it! Tell them, it's now or never. But I never did say anything. I would always just freeze, and break down crying silently and as I feel the end coming near,

all I do is close my eyes.

Special

"Wait, I have a question for you.. Answer it, and it's back to fireworks and rockets red glare.

Answer it right, and I'll forget the last 145 years I've spent missing you.

I'll forget how much I love you,

I'll forget everything and we can start over.

This can be our defining moment.

Because we have the time..

That's the beauty of eternity."

-Damon Salvatore to Katherine.

I'm sorry but I had to do this.

Hello there, it's not Darshini Mahendan here.

I am Vivian Tan Bo Yee, her best friend in the whole wide world, who has just hacked into her blog, to tell her this ;

I love you so very much! You are one amazing best friend, and I am very, very grateful to have you in my life. :
You are precious, and I love you just the way you are. Remember that. :)

And oh, your password is sooo very predictable. So, change it before someone else figures it out. :P

-More pictures, when you are back here! :)

-vi-

Things that are currently on my mind

From least important to most :

- I don't like certain people's mentality where they're still in this small bubble that ..well, it's just plain SEXIST. Gender bias. And when you reason with them expecting a educational interesting discussion, all you get is crap. crap crap crap crap. O.o'' And then it's like they don't get the point because they don't listen, egoistic much.

- Need to go grocery shopping! :O Need to get shampoo, conditioner, FOOD, hair-tie (cause I lost mine and have been using Chimp's hairclip) ..so many things to buy.

- Thinking of going to watch Mayakam Yenna or something? Mum said to go watch. She NEVER asks me to go watch movies. Well, okay that's an overstatement. =.= She seldom does it. So I'm kinda curious about this. But I can't cause
(i) Exams are coming up
(ii) Henrina don't watch tamil movies, Karu going KL, Darsh already watched
(iii) EXAMS.

- Grace. Is she really out of my life for real? Is this it?

- Christmas :)

-Can't wait to go back home!! LIKE I WANT TO GO HOME RIGHT NOW.

-EXAMS :( :(

- Sigh hev. I'm sorry.