Just - 25th August 2011

It's raining heavy here. I really love it when it rains. And remember when I said that the heat here in Kedah is different than the heat in KL? Well, the rain is different too.. I love it. :) You won't know what I mean 'till you come here to Kedah and experience the rain. Seriously, come. haha..

We had only one hour class today. For the first 100 students, cause we already had lab yesterday and pbl session last week. For the second 100 students, pity, up till 5 today. :P

Anyways, yesterday's game of truth & dare, really left an impact. =.='' We all couldn't look at each other without smiling, and everyone else who didn't play the game sorta notice it. We had questions where ''if you had to pick a person in aimst to do ________________'' ..and when we see the person today, we all get weirded out. =='' GILERRR haha. Then today I told them ''Let's NEVER play the game again'' ..and everyone said ''Agreeed.''

Well, yesterday after the game, I asked __ about her first time and I loved what she told me :

''I want to tell you but .. I think it's best if you go find it out yourself.. But just remember, don't rush things.. Take things as they go. At 19, it might not mean a lot to him, but it will mean everything to you.. And trust me darsh, you'll never forget your first. :)''

Oh and just fyi, I'm the kind who waits, 'till marriage. I'm all for celibacy. But I like listening to stories., especially true ones. To hear detailed accounts of their feelings, to try to imagine what it's like. According to Henrina, that's good, because it means I'm a 'normal' person..haha..

(Because in this group of mine, I seem to be one of the VERY FEW who's 'different').

Anyways, for these past two weeks, we have been singing the same song over & over again, it's sorta like our theme song I suppose..

1. Adele - Rolling in the deep
2. Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat - Lucky

And of course, because we're all going home, the ultimate theme song is

''I'm coming home, I'm coming home, tell the world that I'm coming home''

I made a list of chapters I plan to study during the one week holiday. I HAVE to, no exception. Darsh, you've procastinated enough, seriously, start gearing up or you'll be left behind. I hang out with a whole bunch of people who believes in BALANCE. Their motto ''Study when you HAVE to, have fun when you WANT to'' and it seems to work for them. Straight A's, JPA scholars, on dean's list. Yes, the entire group I hang out with. But I have this uneasy feeling that, maybe I'm not quite that type. But I should be, BALANCE is great in everything right? Yea, well, for now, I need to go all nerd 24/7, just to catch up, then maybe as time goes on, I can learn to start balancing.

OMG DID I TELL YOU HOW AWESOME THE RAIN IS IN KEDAH?

Anyways, the medical books are REALLY huge & heavy. I almost dropped to the floor when Karu handed me one to look through the other day.

Oh! And my right foot is weird. I knew I always had weird foot but never did I realise it was actually THAT bad. o.o'' I wore flats yesterday and I watched my feet while I was walking and then I saw what everyone meant (yes for the FIRST time). No wonder I kept falling and walking into things. I can't walk straight. Karu & Henrina thinks it's cute, but I was so self-conscious yesterday. Yes, about my FEET..Of all parts.. ==''

Okay I think I've crapped enough for today. Entertained much? haha.. I'm going to go have lunch now.

Oh and I've been dreaming of AIMST food for the past few days. I dreamed about walking to the counter and seeing the same food everyday and feeling sick. I find it so funny that I can even get sick of AIMST food in my dreams. =='' But I kinda see this as a good thing? In cyberjaya, the food was A-W-E-S-O-M-E, so it was no wonder I gained 12kgs in a YEAR. =.='' But here, the food, well it's okay, but there isn't much variety and sometimes the food looks weird.. so I just take a bit. I hope this goes on, because then I'd lose those 12kgs I gained in CYBER here in AIMST in no time. :D

Yes, positive thinking helps. ;)

Kay, ciao. :)

Is currently

Reading : Audrey Niffenegger's Her Fearful Symmetry


Drinking : Bliss yogurt drink Apple Peach :)


Watching : Reruns of FRIENDS :)


Waiting to watch : The Adjustment Bureau

Runaway Bride :P

A few days ago, I went to Mcd with my family and Vi. Upon entering, I noticed this group of college students were staring at me.
Mum : why are they staring at you?
Me : I don't know. Too fat maybe? - being sarcastic. my mum was lecturing me about.. ah nvmd.

Anyways, we sat opposite them and throughout the entire time I was eating, I realised they kept trying to get my attention. This guy, especially. And when I refused to look, I heard his friends go ''She's not looking''. At first I thought I was um..thinking too much but then, I knew I wasn't wrong.

When it was time to go, my dad headed out to the car first and I heard his friends go ''They're leaving! get her number!'' .. When I got up from my seat, that guy got up and started walking towards me.

And guess what I did? I ran out. ==''
Well, not run exactly, I half-walk half-ran. Leaving vi and the rest of my family behind me. I glanced behind and he sorta had his hand up in mid-air asking me to stop but I increased my speed and got into the car.

On the phone, Grace asked if I was insane. Why did I run?
I said I was scared?
She : Scared of what? You were in public. He couldn't have hurt you anyways. You could've just given him your number!
Me : No, not that. I was scared of telling him no.

She then went on to scold me about how he could've been the guy I would marry. =='' Mangkuk grace.
Vi didn't believe me though. She said I saw this in my head. :P haha..

Anyways, I was scared because ..I just realised why actually.
1. I was confused on my decision. Would I give? would I not?
2. If I choose not to, how would I turn him down?
3. If I choose to, what would happen?

I guess I was afraid to make the decision. So I chose the easiest way out.
To not put myself in the situation where I would be force to make the decision.
I chose to run.

Durians ; to eat or not to eat?

I love all fruits.
I may dislike some vegetables, I don't like fish (except if they're cooked Chinese styled) but fruits, I love ALL fruits.
It's like, I can eat fruits foreverrrrr.. :)

I'd go to the grocery and head over to the fruits section. Just stand there and take in their sweet smell. I've done that many times, with my eyes closed. Only to open them to find people starring at me strangely. My mum then said I can star in my own comedy show since I'm so weird.

Anyways, was eating durians a few days ago when I thought to myself, that I love durians. I love the taste and I especially love the smell. :) But then, I remembered that many don't like the fruit because of the smell, that it smells bad. I couldn't understand why. How can one not like durians when they smell so sweet?

I then spent the next few minutes concentrating on DISLIKING the smell. I wanted to see from their point of view, to see how can Durians turn them away. I stared and I smelled.. *yes weird* but after a few minutes (maybe seconds lah..don't tell me I was staring at them so long ==), nothing came to me. I still think durians smelled nice.

But then, later that evening when I came back from the park, I walked into the house and the house smelled bad. I didn't like the smell, and I was trying to figure out what was that smell when I realise, I was smelling the durians! ..

I got so excited. Like, I forced myself to see durians from another point of view, and it worked! ..It just hit me in the face, without myself trying, and for a few minutes I thought durian smelled bad. After hanging out for a while in my house though, the feeling disappeared and my house was sweet-smelling again.

Now when I eat durians, I keep snapping back and forth. For the first few seconds I think it smells great, but then all of a sudden, I'll smell something else.

The point is..I could look at one thing, and see both sides to it. I could see why some like durians while others hate it. And I understand.
Sometimes we can't see why certain people behaves that way or reacts to a certain situation the way they do because we don't see the point of it. We don't see the reason as to what they decide upon. We just stick to our own beliefs and reasoning because it's already been made up in your head.

Like when I love durians.

Even when others explain it to you, or reason it out, you just don't see it and you may dismiss their opinions as ''they're wrong''.

Like when others told me they dislike the fruit.

It's only when you step into their shoes and see from their point of view, you can actually understand their point all along. And maybe, who knows, find out you're wrong.

I forced myself to see the fruit from another's perspective and with willpower, I did. And now I understand.
I hope everyone has that willpower.
Not just for durians, no :P But ..well, for everything.

Since young, my grandpa has always been reminding me ..

''Seek first to understand, then to be understood''.
That is why God gave us two ears and one mouth. ;)


My relationship with durians are now somewhat rather confusing =='' haha.

(yes, I'm that bored at home :P)