Some experiences scars you for life.
And you know from the dreams you have, and the fear you feel whenever you think about it.
Most of my scarred experiences were all from the year I was in CUCMS.
Before this, all this time I kept thinking about wanting to go back there and I shouldn't have left.
But yesterday, after having that conversation with Vino, and she asked me if I'm happy over here..
It sorta hit me..
Maybe it was a good thing that I left after all.
Since I came here, I've been feeling homesick. Cyber sick.
I guess it's because I spent the whole year making CUCMS my home, and towards the end it, after all those painful experiences, it did become my home.
But when I think about it, AIMST accepted me easily. I didn't have to try, I already felt at home when I first came here.
Maybe it's time to let go.
I am no longer a CUCMS-ian, I suppose.
I am an AIMST-er.
And happy about it. :)
Hope it shows the same in my results. GAHHHHH. T.T
SO DREADING THE RESULTS OF CA2. =.=''
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Saturday, January 14, 2012
Friday, November 25, 2011
Awesomeness.. :)
Today after the symposium, we all decided to go to the park benches above the cafeteria. We all, as in..Divv, Jo, Henny and I. :)
We sat there, talking and after a while, we started singing.
Like crazy.
It didn't matter that we were out of tune or that we didn't know the words.
Then Lishaa joined us and we went for dinner. And then we took a long walk around AIMST. Singing. Well, Divv and Lishaa was talking.
Henny, Jo and I, we were singing. Walking together. At first it was all depressing songs, songs from experiences.
And funny thing?
Jo, Henny & I, all sorta share the same story.
About something.
And all the songs we sang, I could tell,
it was more than just singing..
We were pouring out our emotions.
After a while of singing those songs, we decided to change, and start singing Christmas songs.
Since well, it IS nearing Christmas after all. :)
Haha, ''On the first day of christmas'' was so fun :) And then we sang Do Re Mi, and Divv and Lishaa joined us,
we were singing like we were drunk
and there were echos of our voices around campus.
It was awesome :)
To just sing because..just because.
It doesn't matter if you're good, or bad, or sang out of tune,
it doesn't matter if you sang the wrong words, or if you didn't know the words..
What matters is that we were all singing,
happily.
Together.
:)
Yes, should do this more often. Looking forward to it.
My battery died on the way back though.
So imagine my happiness when I came back to my apartment to find Hev waiting for me on skype.
:)
We sat there, talking and after a while, we started singing.
Like crazy.
It didn't matter that we were out of tune or that we didn't know the words.
Then Lishaa joined us and we went for dinner. And then we took a long walk around AIMST. Singing. Well, Divv and Lishaa was talking.
Henny, Jo and I, we were singing. Walking together. At first it was all depressing songs, songs from experiences.
And funny thing?
Jo, Henny & I, all sorta share the same story.
About something.
And all the songs we sang, I could tell,
it was more than just singing..
We were pouring out our emotions.
After a while of singing those songs, we decided to change, and start singing Christmas songs.
Since well, it IS nearing Christmas after all. :)
Haha, ''On the first day of christmas'' was so fun :) And then we sang Do Re Mi, and Divv and Lishaa joined us,
we were singing like we were drunk
and there were echos of our voices around campus.
It was awesome :)
To just sing because..just because.
It doesn't matter if you're good, or bad, or sang out of tune,
it doesn't matter if you sang the wrong words, or if you didn't know the words..
What matters is that we were all singing,
happily.
Together.
:)
Yes, should do this more often. Looking forward to it.
My battery died on the way back though.
So imagine my happiness when I came back to my apartment to find Hev waiting for me on skype.
:)
Monday, November 21, 2011
My visit to cyber :)
This was WEEKS ago.
E33AB :) Fatin & Taranya weren't there, but awhh I miss them :'(
Hahaha, everyone's hands around me :P *SYOKSENDIRIMOMENT* :)
Cute ain't it? :) :) (Yasmin, Meera, Husna)
The girls :)
Met two new members of the family. Teeba (from AIMST) & Kalnisha.. They're so sweet. :)
The girls :)
Met two new members of the family. Teeba (from AIMST) & Kalnisha.. They're so sweet. :)
Everyone :') Priyaa & Renee ain't in the picture. Didn't get to meet up with Renee that day. sigh.
Vino & I. :)
Vino & I. :)
Was planning to blog about this for so long but then, with the sucky net and everything, couldn't. So aimst line is back and here they are. :)
I miss cyberjaya soo much. :'( I love aimst already, but still, there's always a part of me that still call cyber HOME.
I still write cyber's ID here in aimst.. when they ask for the id number, I always write FD, then scratch that off, followed by my aimst ID number.
And when people ask which apartment I'm from, I go EE3AB, then I remember, ''no wait, haha, it's C3B'' ..
-What's up with 3s and Bs? O.o'' haha
Oh well, I can have more than one home anyways, right? :)
I miss cyberjaya soo much. :'( I love aimst already, but still, there's always a part of me that still call cyber HOME.
I still write cyber's ID here in aimst.. when they ask for the id number, I always write FD, then scratch that off, followed by my aimst ID number.
And when people ask which apartment I'm from, I go EE3AB, then I remember, ''no wait, haha, it's C3B'' ..
-What's up with 3s and Bs? O.o'' haha
Oh well, I can have more than one home anyways, right? :)
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Holidays
I'm ecstatic.
That it's the holidays.
I've been waiting to come home for SO LONG.
Like SO LONG.
During my exam week, I lived every day countdown-ing to Friday. Pity hev, he's my victim.
(the week before)
''Hev, guess what?''
''What?''
''Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday FRIDAY!!''
(the next monday)
''Hev, guess what?''
''What?''
''Tuesday Wednesday Thursday FRIDAY!''
(the next day)
''Hev, guess what?''
''What?''
''Wednesday Thursday FRIDAY!!!''
(the following day)
Hev ''Ehh bi, guess what?''
Me '' What? ''
Hev '' Thursday FRIDAY!!''
Haha :) And then, the unexpected happened. Mum called and turns out, they got the days mixed up. That instead of going home on friday, I'd go home on Saturday..and stay a day in Kedah. I cried, a lot, mostly because I can't believe my own parents would get the dates mixed up after my CONSTANT reminders about 21st October 2011.
But then, change of plans because I would be left alone in AIMST (since everyone, LITERALLY everyone, went home on that day afternoon). I followed my uncle and his two girls to PENANG, stay with them (he has some conference) and follow them back to KL the next day.
And I'd say, it was an AWESOME beginning to my holidays.
It seriously was.
Because of the two angels.
The minute my mum said his daughters will be there, I was all YES! OKAY! SURE! ..though still down, but what's the point right?
And yeah, awesome beginning.
That it's the holidays.
I've been waiting to come home for SO LONG.
Like SO LONG.
During my exam week, I lived every day countdown-ing to Friday. Pity hev, he's my victim.
(the week before)
''Hev, guess what?''
''What?''
''Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday FRIDAY!!''
(the next monday)
''Hev, guess what?''
''What?''
''Tuesday Wednesday Thursday FRIDAY!''
(the next day)
''Hev, guess what?''
''What?''
''Wednesday Thursday FRIDAY!!!''
(the following day)
Hev ''Ehh bi, guess what?''
Me '' What? ''
Hev '' Thursday FRIDAY!!''
Haha :) And then, the unexpected happened. Mum called and turns out, they got the days mixed up. That instead of going home on friday, I'd go home on Saturday..and stay a day in Kedah. I cried, a lot, mostly because I can't believe my own parents would get the dates mixed up after my CONSTANT reminders about 21st October 2011.
But then, change of plans because I would be left alone in AIMST (since everyone, LITERALLY everyone, went home on that day afternoon). I followed my uncle and his two girls to PENANG, stay with them (he has some conference) and follow them back to KL the next day.
And I'd say, it was an AWESOME beginning to my holidays.
It seriously was.
Because of the two angels.
My babies. :)
The minute my mum said his daughters will be there, I was all YES! OKAY! SURE! ..though still down, but what's the point right?
And yeah, awesome beginning.
Kaushalya skyping with Hev waaayy past her bedtime. See the excitement and the sleepiness on her face? haha :)
Khaush playing with my fingers on the way home.
The best part of the ride? She slept on me, my arm over her shoulders. She slept while playing with my hand, so for the next hour, she was just clutching my hand, softly.
It was raining outside.
:)
Khaush playing with my fingers on the way home.
The best part of the ride? She slept on me, my arm over her shoulders. She slept while playing with my hand, so for the next hour, she was just clutching my hand, softly.
It was raining outside.
:)
Taken in the hotel room. Was skyping again when Harshini pulled open the curtains and the light was gorgeous. :) Then they went to the window admiring the light, and I thought it looked beautiful. So I took out my phone and asked them to do random poses and I took this picture.
They attempted to be 'models' but instead, all I can think about when I look at this picture is
Freedom.
Light.
Flying.
Dreams.
High.
They attempted to be 'models' but instead, all I can think about when I look at this picture is
Freedom.
Light.
Flying.
Dreams.
High.
I reached home happy. Turns out staying up north one day extra, reaching home late one day later, was not such a waste after all.
And this upcoming week are full of plans to meet up with loved ones.
I've a feeling this is going to be such an awesome week. :)
Oh yeah, I've homework.
Screw that assignment lahhhh. :)
Ha. ha. I wish. Of course I'll do it.
Just, not yet.
CYBER TOMORROW!
With him. :)
And this upcoming week are full of plans to meet up with loved ones.
I've a feeling this is going to be such an awesome week. :)
Oh yeah, I've homework.
Screw that assignment lahhhh. :)
Ha. ha. I wish. Of course I'll do it.
Just, not yet.
CYBER TOMORROW!
With him. :)
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Stuck In Reverse
Falling in love with Coldplay. Have them on shuffle the entire day today. I remember someone who was once important in my life, he was a huge fan of Coldplay, but it's funny that I chose to fall in love with Coldplay NOW. At this very moment.
Sometimes life's like that. :)
Sometimes life's like that. :)
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
It's like GOSSIP GIRL IN AIMST!
DRAMA. DRAMA. DRAMA.
The fun, the fights, the rumors, the gossips, the heartbreaks, the tears, the friendship, the laughters.
It's crazy.
And it scares me, that studies are right now not the main focus of my life.
No, it really is. It is the main focus, it's the distractions I guess.
And getting into dramas, are not the kind of person I am.
Its a totally different environment, that's for sure.
I can honestly tell you, that you guys will love watching us. THAT's how DRAMATIC we are. I don't think I'm dramatic though, but hanging out with dramatic people sorta get you there, don't you think? Like Jenny & Dan, and how they got involved.
I can't blog about what's going on/happened because
1) Too public
2) I'll let Gossip Girl do her job ;)
Yes, we have a ''gossipgirl'' in our bunch too. And yes, she has a blog. Good luck finding it. ;)
A part of me is happy, because at the end of this journey, the beginning of another, I can look back at this and see much more..more than books and notes and exams.
''you know you love me,
xoxo, gossip girl. ;)''
The fun, the fights, the rumors, the gossips, the heartbreaks, the tears, the friendship, the laughters.
It's crazy.
And it scares me, that studies are right now not the main focus of my life.
No, it really is. It is the main focus, it's the distractions I guess.
And getting into dramas, are not the kind of person I am.
Its a totally different environment, that's for sure.
I can honestly tell you, that you guys will love watching us. THAT's how DRAMATIC we are. I don't think I'm dramatic though, but hanging out with dramatic people sorta get you there, don't you think? Like Jenny & Dan, and how they got involved.
I can't blog about what's going on/happened because
1) Too public
2) I'll let Gossip Girl do her job ;)
Yes, we have a ''gossipgirl'' in our bunch too. And yes, she has a blog. Good luck finding it. ;)
A part of me is happy, because at the end of this journey, the beginning of another, I can look back at this and see much more..more than books and notes and exams.
''you know you love me,
xoxo, gossip girl. ;)''
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Just - 25th August 2011
It's raining heavy here. I really love it when it rains. And remember when I said that the heat here in Kedah is different than the heat in KL? Well, the rain is different too.. I love it. :) You won't know what I mean 'till you come here to Kedah and experience the rain. Seriously, come. haha..
We had only one hour class today. For the first 100 students, cause we already had lab yesterday and pbl session last week. For the second 100 students, pity, up till 5 today. :P
Anyways, yesterday's game of truth & dare, really left an impact. =.='' We all couldn't look at each other without smiling, and everyone else who didn't play the game sorta notice it. We had questions where ''if you had to pick a person in aimst to do ________________'' ..and when we see the person today, we all get weirded out. =='' GILERRR haha. Then today I told them ''Let's NEVER play the game again'' ..and everyone said ''Agreeed.''
Well, yesterday after the game, I asked __ about her first time and I loved what she told me :
Oh and just fyi, I'm the kind who waits, 'till marriage. I'm all for celibacy. But I like listening to stories., especially true ones. To hear detailed accounts of their feelings, to try to imagine what it's like. According to Henrina, that's good, because it means I'm a 'normal' person..haha..
(Because in this group of mine, I seem to be one of the VERY FEW who's 'different').
Anyways, for these past two weeks, we have been singing the same song over & over again, it's sorta like our theme song I suppose..
1. Adele - Rolling in the deep
2. Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat - Lucky
And of course, because we're all going home, the ultimate theme song is
We had only one hour class today. For the first 100 students, cause we already had lab yesterday and pbl session last week. For the second 100 students, pity, up till 5 today. :P
Anyways, yesterday's game of truth & dare, really left an impact. =.='' We all couldn't look at each other without smiling, and everyone else who didn't play the game sorta notice it. We had questions where ''if you had to pick a person in aimst to do ________________'' ..and when we see the person today, we all get weirded out. =='' GILERRR haha. Then today I told them ''Let's NEVER play the game again'' ..and everyone said ''Agreeed.''
Well, yesterday after the game, I asked __ about her first time and I loved what she told me :
''I want to tell you but .. I think it's best if you go find it out yourself.. But just remember, don't rush things.. Take things as they go. At 19, it might not mean a lot to him, but it will mean everything to you.. And trust me darsh, you'll never forget your first. :)''
Oh and just fyi, I'm the kind who waits, 'till marriage. I'm all for celibacy. But I like listening to stories., especially true ones. To hear detailed accounts of their feelings, to try to imagine what it's like. According to Henrina, that's good, because it means I'm a 'normal' person..haha..
(Because in this group of mine, I seem to be one of the VERY FEW who's 'different').
Anyways, for these past two weeks, we have been singing the same song over & over again, it's sorta like our theme song I suppose..
1. Adele - Rolling in the deep
2. Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat - Lucky
And of course, because we're all going home, the ultimate theme song is
''I'm coming home, I'm coming home, tell the world that I'm coming home''
I made a list of chapters I plan to study during the one week holiday. I HAVE to, no exception. Darsh, you've procastinated enough, seriously, start gearing up or you'll be left behind. I hang out with a whole bunch of people who believes in BALANCE. Their motto ''Study when you HAVE to, have fun when you WANT to'' and it seems to work for them. Straight A's, JPA scholars, on dean's list. Yes, the entire group I hang out with. But I have this uneasy feeling that, maybe I'm not quite that type. But I should be, BALANCE is great in everything right? Yea, well, for now, I need to go all nerd 24/7, just to catch up, then maybe as time goes on, I can learn to start balancing.
OMG DID I TELL YOU HOW AWESOME THE RAIN IS IN KEDAH?
Anyways, the medical books are REALLY huge & heavy. I almost dropped to the floor when Karu handed me one to look through the other day.
Oh! And my right foot is weird. I knew I always had weird foot but never did I realise it was actually THAT bad. o.o'' I wore flats yesterday and I watched my feet while I was walking and then I saw what everyone meant (yes for the FIRST time). No wonder I kept falling and walking into things. I can't walk straight. Karu & Henrina thinks it's cute, but I was so self-conscious yesterday. Yes, about my FEET..Of all parts.. ==''
Okay I think I've crapped enough for today. Entertained much? haha.. I'm going to go have lunch now.
Oh and I've been dreaming of AIMST food for the past few days. I dreamed about walking to the counter and seeing the same food everyday and feeling sick. I find it so funny that I can even get sick of AIMST food in my dreams. =='' But I kinda see this as a good thing? In cyberjaya, the food was A-W-E-S-O-M-E, so it was no wonder I gained 12kgs in a YEAR. =.='' But here, the food, well it's okay, but there isn't much variety and sometimes the food looks weird.. so I just take a bit. I hope this goes on, because then I'd lose those 12kgs I gained in CYBER here in AIMST in no time. :D
Yes, positive thinking helps. ;)
Kay, ciao. :)
OMG DID I TELL YOU HOW AWESOME THE RAIN IS IN KEDAH?
Anyways, the medical books are REALLY huge & heavy. I almost dropped to the floor when Karu handed me one to look through the other day.
Oh! And my right foot is weird. I knew I always had weird foot but never did I realise it was actually THAT bad. o.o'' I wore flats yesterday and I watched my feet while I was walking and then I saw what everyone meant (yes for the FIRST time). No wonder I kept falling and walking into things. I can't walk straight. Karu & Henrina thinks it's cute, but I was so self-conscious yesterday. Yes, about my FEET..Of all parts.. ==''
Okay I think I've crapped enough for today. Entertained much? haha.. I'm going to go have lunch now.
Oh and I've been dreaming of AIMST food for the past few days. I dreamed about walking to the counter and seeing the same food everyday and feeling sick. I find it so funny that I can even get sick of AIMST food in my dreams. =='' But I kinda see this as a good thing? In cyberjaya, the food was A-W-E-S-O-M-E, so it was no wonder I gained 12kgs in a YEAR. =.='' But here, the food, well it's okay, but there isn't much variety and sometimes the food looks weird.. so I just take a bit. I hope this goes on, because then I'd lose those 12kgs I gained in CYBER here in AIMST in no time. :D
Yes, positive thinking helps. ;)
Kay, ciao. :)
Tonight .=.=''
What's up with me and nights?
Anyways...
We didn't feel like studying today so we just walked around campus talking. Then we sat somewhere and played Truth or Dare. But because we were so lazy to do DARES we sorta just played TRUTHS anyways.
And I was taken on a ride.
I guess I was still in my little bubble, sorta 'away' from the current world. So when I have friends my age, or of different age talking about their personal experiences in life, at first I was curious. But then I got scared. Why, I don't know, but just really scared.
Questions like ''How many times....?''' with answers like ''20 on average?'' ..and questions like ''how long...?'' with answers like ''this long (demonstrates)''. When the question ''how long'' was asked I literally thought it was something like ''How long was your first kiss?'' ..but instead it was a whole other meaning. Questions about bj's and 'most extreme'..
The questions were sorta of the same theme but ranges over..well, waayyy over my imagination.
My curiousity level kept increasing but then at a certain point, I wanted the information to stop. Everyone turned to me and asked me if I was okay, and that they knew they shouldn't have had me exposed to this, but they thought that it was about time, being 19 and all.
But really? Do I REALLY want to know?
Everyone decided to stop playing as my face got expressionless and when I wasn't laughing anymore. On the way back, _____ & _______ kept asking me if I was okay and if I still see them in the same way as before.
I do I do, I don't judge people. But it's just, this is a whole different environment I'm in, with different people with experiences that makes them who they are. And I'm hanging out with them, which in time, will make me a different person too.
So why do I feel like crying so much?
I feel like a kid waking up one day and discovering that Santa doesn't exist.
And I can't seem to figure out why.
WHY? SERIOUSLY WHY?
OMG DRAMA much?
Or am I missing something?
Anyways...
We didn't feel like studying today so we just walked around campus talking. Then we sat somewhere and played Truth or Dare. But because we were so lazy to do DARES we sorta just played TRUTHS anyways.
And I was taken on a ride.
I guess I was still in my little bubble, sorta 'away' from the current world. So when I have friends my age, or of different age talking about their personal experiences in life, at first I was curious. But then I got scared. Why, I don't know, but just really scared.
Questions like ''How many times....?''' with answers like ''20 on average?'' ..and questions like ''how long...?'' with answers like ''this long (demonstrates)''. When the question ''how long'' was asked I literally thought it was something like ''How long was your first kiss?'' ..but instead it was a whole other meaning. Questions about bj's and 'most extreme'..
The questions were sorta of the same theme but ranges over..well, waayyy over my imagination.
My curiousity level kept increasing but then at a certain point, I wanted the information to stop. Everyone turned to me and asked me if I was okay, and that they knew they shouldn't have had me exposed to this, but they thought that it was about time, being 19 and all.
But really? Do I REALLY want to know?
Everyone decided to stop playing as my face got expressionless and when I wasn't laughing anymore. On the way back, _____ & _______ kept asking me if I was okay and if I still see them in the same way as before.
I do I do, I don't judge people. But it's just, this is a whole different environment I'm in, with different people with experiences that makes them who they are. And I'm hanging out with them, which in time, will make me a different person too.
So why do I feel like crying so much?
I feel like a kid waking up one day and discovering that Santa doesn't exist.
And I can't seem to figure out why.
WHY? SERIOUSLY WHY?
OMG DRAMA much?
Or am I missing something?
Friday, August 12, 2011
Okay
It's 3a.m in the morning, I just came back from.. okay, long story.
Aimst so far has been good. The campus is beautiful. It really gives you the mood to study because
1. There's nothing ELSE to do around here.
2. The entire campus is study-friendly. With the tables and benches EVERYWHERE.
3. The atmosphere. EDUCATION is EVERYWHERE.
One of the things that made my days at aimst good so far are the people I've met.
I think I was kinda lucky, it's because of Thiva.
Thiva transferred to AIMST with me from CUCMS. And he got a room with two guys, Divv and Sasvin. So when I hang out with Thiva a lot, who hangs out with these two guys a lot, who hangs out with a huge group since FOREVER, I was sorta brought in.
And my apartment is EMPTY. I'm rooming with seniors who are now on their break. They will be back next week (I think). All their stuffs are here though. I'm guessing my roomates are ambitious and hardworking peeps cause' I sorta saw their notes. Noo, I was not going through their stuffs, it was just on their table (caught my eye). There's another girl with me though, Karunya. She's older than me (sshh I won't say what age though haha) but yeah, we're pretty close I guess. We hang out together all the time.
We're the total opposite. She's outspoken, has pierced tongue, gone clubbing..(I think you get the picture). I on the other hand.. am me.
Just 5days so far and I've already been given the title 'Blonde'. It first started when the group asked me questions and I kept answering something else. Oh, also when I thought Ashvinia's hazel eyes were real when in fact, they were contacts. And when Ash asked me why I thought her eyes were real, I said ''Because they matches your hair!'' ..and she was like ''MY HAIR IS DYED!'' .. =='' Yea, I know, blonde much. Not that I'm into stereotyping but..I'm stereotyping MYSELF, so I guess that's okay.haha..
Everyone is VERY outspoken over here. I'm the quiet one. And I guess that makes me the tag along. But I DO try, and I have to give credit to myself for that. Though at times I feel like I'm being fake. Because the real me would not have said THAT at THAT moment but, I'm venturing out of my comfort zone. So I'll give myself a break.
Tonight we went out for a movie, walked around the mall, took pictures with an ipad in an APPLE store and asked them questions about the BLUETOOTH cause we actually wanted to save the pictures in our phone. But was not working. == Then watched the APES movie (I don't know the title ==) ..Then went to a .. well, bistro?club? I don't know. o.o'' But yeah.. I didn't stay long, just walked in, walked out. It was loud, lights flashing everywhere, smells of beer and cigarettes. Not my kinda scene. Everyone was used to it, in fact, they enjoy it but it was Thiva's and my first time. No comments. ==
They wanna go back there tomorrow but I'm kinda thinking twice. If I don't go, I'd have to stay back alone and I don't want THAT. O.o''
Then we came back.
So ta-da!
I guess, overall, AIMST is kinda cool.
So far.
Classes starts next week and I heard THAT's gonna be hell.
But no matter what, I won't forget my goals, the REASON I'm here in the first place.
Everything else, comes second.
I'm proud my priorities are in check. I hope they stays thatway.
I'll make them stay.
I realise this post is kinda draggy and crapping but..
Haha whatever :P
I miss my family..and my bros, though it's soo hard to admit it. :P
I miss VIVIAN TAN BO YEE .. :(
I miss HOME.
But a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.
Going home for the RAYA HOLS. :D
Cheh, barely a week here and I already bought bus ticket to go to KL.
On the 26th :P
Yayy :)
Aimst so far has been good. The campus is beautiful. It really gives you the mood to study because
1. There's nothing ELSE to do around here.
2. The entire campus is study-friendly. With the tables and benches EVERYWHERE.
3. The atmosphere. EDUCATION is EVERYWHERE.
One of the things that made my days at aimst good so far are the people I've met.
I think I was kinda lucky, it's because of Thiva.
Thiva transferred to AIMST with me from CUCMS. And he got a room with two guys, Divv and Sasvin. So when I hang out with Thiva a lot, who hangs out with these two guys a lot, who hangs out with a huge group since FOREVER, I was sorta brought in.
And my apartment is EMPTY. I'm rooming with seniors who are now on their break. They will be back next week (I think). All their stuffs are here though. I'm guessing my roomates are ambitious and hardworking peeps cause' I sorta saw their notes. Noo, I was not going through their stuffs, it was just on their table (caught my eye). There's another girl with me though, Karunya. She's older than me (sshh I won't say what age though haha) but yeah, we're pretty close I guess. We hang out together all the time.
We're the total opposite. She's outspoken, has pierced tongue, gone clubbing..(I think you get the picture). I on the other hand.. am me.
Just 5days so far and I've already been given the title 'Blonde'. It first started when the group asked me questions and I kept answering something else. Oh, also when I thought Ashvinia's hazel eyes were real when in fact, they were contacts. And when Ash asked me why I thought her eyes were real, I said ''Because they matches your hair!'' ..and she was like ''MY HAIR IS DYED!'' .. =='' Yea, I know, blonde much. Not that I'm into stereotyping but..I'm stereotyping MYSELF, so I guess that's okay.haha..
Everyone is VERY outspoken over here. I'm the quiet one. And I guess that makes me the tag along. But I DO try, and I have to give credit to myself for that. Though at times I feel like I'm being fake. Because the real me would not have said THAT at THAT moment but, I'm venturing out of my comfort zone. So I'll give myself a break.
Tonight we went out for a movie, walked around the mall, took pictures with an ipad in an APPLE store and asked them questions about the BLUETOOTH cause we actually wanted to save the pictures in our phone. But was not working. == Then watched the APES movie (I don't know the title ==) ..Then went to a .. well, bistro?club? I don't know. o.o'' But yeah.. I didn't stay long, just walked in, walked out. It was loud, lights flashing everywhere, smells of beer and cigarettes. Not my kinda scene. Everyone was used to it, in fact, they enjoy it but it was Thiva's and my first time. No comments. ==
They wanna go back there tomorrow but I'm kinda thinking twice. If I don't go, I'd have to stay back alone and I don't want THAT. O.o''
Then we came back.
So ta-da!
I guess, overall, AIMST is kinda cool.
So far.
Classes starts next week and I heard THAT's gonna be hell.
But no matter what, I won't forget my goals, the REASON I'm here in the first place.
Everything else, comes second.
I'm proud my priorities are in check. I hope they stays thatway.
I'll make them stay.
I realise this post is kinda draggy and crapping but..
Haha whatever :P
I miss my family..and my bros, though it's soo hard to admit it. :P
I miss VIVIAN TAN BO YEE .. :(
I miss HOME.
But a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.
Going home for the RAYA HOLS. :D
Cheh, barely a week here and I already bought bus ticket to go to KL.
On the 26th :P
Yayy :)
Friday, August 5, 2011
*Gasps*
I just realised I will be leaving for Kedah in TWO days.
Will be starting at a new college in THREE days.
And I still haven't packed!
I find it very hard to breathe right now.
The nerves are kicking in.
As expected.
DON'T. WANNA. LEAVE. :(
Monday, August 1, 2011
I am a HORRIBLE best friend
Got told off by Grace & Vi TWO days in a row. ==''
I'm sorry.
For making you feel I don't care.
For always taking and not giving.
For not putting myself in your shoes and thinking about the consequences of my words and actions.
For hurting you and making you feel bad.
It's kinda funny how these two problems have nothing to do with each other, but yet, still, I did the same mistakes twice.
But I'm tired of apologising already. I can never win with you guys. Not that it is a competition but still.
Maybe it's because I just get so tired and I want to stop, so the only way I get out of it is by saying sorry.
Or maybe it's because I am wrong.
Either way, I'm tired.
I'm leaving to Kedah in a few days and you two will probably not hear from me in a long time.
So please just stop all this bullshit because I don't have the energy.
Yes, I'm horrible.
Yes, I'm sorry.
Yes, I'll work on that.
Can we move on now?
Or should I go book a marching band or a skyscraper?
I can't you know. I'm broke.
ps : The best thing about BESTFRIENDS, is that you can have a MILLION arguments at the WORST places about SO MANY THINGS, but at the end of the day, nothing changes.
I'm sorry.
For making you feel I don't care.
For always taking and not giving.
For not putting myself in your shoes and thinking about the consequences of my words and actions.
For hurting you and making you feel bad.
It's kinda funny how these two problems have nothing to do with each other, but yet, still, I did the same mistakes twice.
But I'm tired of apologising already. I can never win with you guys. Not that it is a competition but still.
Maybe it's because I just get so tired and I want to stop, so the only way I get out of it is by saying sorry.
Or maybe it's because I am wrong.
Either way, I'm tired.
I'm leaving to Kedah in a few days and you two will probably not hear from me in a long time.
So please just stop all this bullshit because I don't have the energy.
Yes, I'm horrible.
Yes, I'm sorry.
Yes, I'll work on that.
Can we move on now?
Or should I go book a marching band or a skyscraper?
I can't you know. I'm broke.
ps : The best thing about BESTFRIENDS, is that you can have a MILLION arguments at the WORST places about SO MANY THINGS, but at the end of the day, nothing changes.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Just.
Just random pictures in my phone. :)
Arvindra sleeping. Interesting to watch. And disturb ;)
Arun, blurring out seriously. One of a kind talent haha..
Arvindra sleeping. Interesting to watch. And disturb ;)
Kumar mama's newborn baby, Kirshanth. :) Aww he's so adorable. :) He was staring DIRECTLY at me with that blur expression when I took that picture..haha..
The party packs I made for Arvind's birthday. With the short notice, I had to make do with everything I had in the house, and that is A4 papers, pens, glitters and ribbons. Look's pretty decent eh? haha :)
A baby I met at a dinner party. OMG he's so cute. I call him SUMO :) Cause well, he looks like one :))) Andd instead of being throwing punches, he likes to give kisses :) Aww.. :)
One of my fav photos of Arvind. Acting cute in the hotel pool :P That blue thingy helps him float. He's afraid of the water.
At a dinner. I had to babysit like around 10 kids. This is one picture before they took my handphone and ran around posing as if it's America's Next Top Model.
Was watching Oprah at my grandparents when Abishek took this picture. It was one of those depressing episodes about abuse. :(
A baby I met at a dinner party. OMG he's so cute. I call him SUMO :) Cause well, he looks like one :))) Andd instead of being throwing punches, he likes to give kisses :) Aww.. :)
One of my fav photos of Arvind. Acting cute in the hotel pool :P That blue thingy helps him float. He's afraid of the water.
At a dinner. I had to babysit like around 10 kids. This is one picture before they took my handphone and ran around posing as if it's America's Next Top Model.
Was watching Oprah at my grandparents when Abishek took this picture. It was one of those depressing episodes about abuse. :(Friday, July 22, 2011
Gah.
Aimst won.
Leaving for Kedah in two weeks.
1. TAK NAK.
2. Damn.
3. TAKKK NAKKK.
4. Sigh
5. Okay :(
Gonna miss CUCMS.
Ughhhhh :( .. But I have to do my best for my parents.
And I will be ready, in time.
Think positive! :) :) :)
Ugh.
Leaving for Kedah in two weeks.
1. TAK NAK.
2. Damn.
3. TAKKK NAKKK.
4. Sigh
5. Okay :(
Gonna miss CUCMS.
Ughhhhh :( .. But I have to do my best for my parents.
And I will be ready, in time.
Think positive! :) :) :)
Ugh.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Wake Me Up.
Dreamed something weird last night. And I'm going to drone on and on about it, so you can stop reading now if you want to :D
I dreamed that my college was having a carnival, except it was at my old school. My really OLD primary school, SK Seri Mega. All my college friends were there and we were all having fun, you know, the usual crazyness :)
At the end of the day we get to go on a ride, a HUGE ROLLER-COASTER, on top of the hill (at the back of Seri Mega school's field, there's a hill that is covered with greens). So after the carnival, we all hiked up the hill to head towards the roller-coaster?
(okay yes, I know some parts does not make sense :)
On the way up, we saw an empty chinese temple. But we ignored it and went higher up. I felt odd about the temple but ignored it, thinking about the roller-coaster. We finally reached the top and there was nothing there. So we decided to hike back down to the temple and ask anyone there.
When we entered the temple grounds, I was surprised, in a not good way. I dreamed about this temple, like 10 years ago, back when I was still living in Puchong. This temple is not a temple for the Gods, more like the temple for satan, or the pathway to hell or something. And they steal souls, until the people cease to disappear.
The last time I dreamed about this temple, I dreamed that my family went there for sightseeing, and they disappeared. Many people were killed and stuffs. But I managed to convinced them to let my family and I go, as long as we don't tell this to anyone. And in return, I had to promise them something.
I was befriended a little girl on my trip and I had to give her up. Because she was young, she had more 'life years' and energy in her, that they could make use of. I agreed.
And we left the temple, watching everyone disappearing.
Watching the girl being left behind.
I woke up from that dream feeling so guilty, I was depressed for DAYS.
Anyways, back to last night's dream, I was back to the same temple. Except, in my previous dream, the temple was full of people. But in this dream, the temple was empty. Other than the detailed characteristics, it looks like it had aged. Like 10 years.
I said to everyone ''I bet this is not it, let's go'' but Mero said let's just go check it out. She and Priyaa led the group towards a corner place where there was a souvenir shop. Izuddin said ''Eee mcm ada hantu je'' .. and everyone told him to shut up. I kept quiet trying to think if this was the same place, if it was going to happen again.
When we entered the souvenir shop, it was surprisingly new. Inside, there were three people. Two of them were the exact people from my previous dream! .. When I walked in, they smiled at me, as if they knew me from before, but quickly turned to my friends and asked them ''How may I help you?'' .. Fashli asked for the entrance to the roller-coaster and the guy said its through here but we have to wait for a while.
Priyaa then found a cool toy camera (??) and started playing around with it. Everyone started filling around the shop, looking at things to buy. Vino asked me why I look so weird but I said nothing.
As I look around the shop, it started to get weird. I kept getting flashes. For a while it would seem like my friends were browsing around and marvelling at all the things in the shop but the next thing, I'd see an empty shop, with my friends holding nothing but fully believing that they were holding something. The flashes kept going on and off for so long, I realised it was because I knew the truth, that this place is not real, and we had to get out of here, fast.
I turned and saw Mr.Shahril, working there. He smiled and told me there was nothing to worry about. I thought to myself, they're probably digging at our memory, trying to find a leader, a teacher that we trust easily, and found him. Because why on earth would Mr.Shahril be working at the Chinese temple? ..It made no sense. He just smiled at me and never took his eyes off me.
I told everyone ''Hey, let's go out for a second! We can look around!'' cheerfully and lead them out. Once out, I told them ''Let's get out of here, we can come back later with out lecturers or something :D'' .. Youwannia asked me what's wrong and why do I look so worried. I tried to hide it because I remembered, I was not suppose to say anything. That was as promised before.
I then said ''No, it's just this wait may take long so why not we go and get our lecturers or something? It will be more fun! :D'' ..Mero said she's lazy to go all the way back down and then come back up. Meera said the same thing too, and then she said 'JOM MASUK BALIK! SHOPPINGGG'' .. and practically half of the crowd went back in.
I turned around and saw a girl, standing, watching, from at the other end of the temple. I asked my friends ''Can you see her?'' and they all went '' um....who?'' ..
I started arguing and I can tell they got fed up. Taranya finally told me that if I want to, I can go call the lecturers myself. =='' And they stomp back in. Angrily. Annoyed. I couldn't tell. I was too worried I guess.
Vino and Renee told me they would follow me down if I want. I looked around and when I saw the girl again, the one whose soul I exchanged for my own and my family, I said ''Okay''.
On our way down, I kept turning back to see if the temple was there. It was, alright.
Till we reached the office, but when we came back out, it wasn't.
The entry to the roller-coaster was on some other side.
There was no route to a temple.
There was no temple.
The next day, the papers reported of more than 20 people went missing.
Without a trace.
Grrr.. I couldn't wake up today morning because I was so sleepy.
Dreams like this exhaust me.
And it amazes me, that I can still dream of the same thing more than 10 years later. The temple, the people, the details, were all so accurate.
Consciously, all this has long been forgotten.
But subconsciously, I guess the brain keeps track of everything..
Even weird dreams.
OMG GUILTY FEELING MUCH ==''
I dreamed that my college was having a carnival, except it was at my old school. My really OLD primary school, SK Seri Mega. All my college friends were there and we were all having fun, you know, the usual crazyness :)
At the end of the day we get to go on a ride, a HUGE ROLLER-COASTER, on top of the hill (at the back of Seri Mega school's field, there's a hill that is covered with greens). So after the carnival, we all hiked up the hill to head towards the roller-coaster?
(okay yes, I know some parts does not make sense :)
On the way up, we saw an empty chinese temple. But we ignored it and went higher up. I felt odd about the temple but ignored it, thinking about the roller-coaster. We finally reached the top and there was nothing there. So we decided to hike back down to the temple and ask anyone there.
When we entered the temple grounds, I was surprised, in a not good way. I dreamed about this temple, like 10 years ago, back when I was still living in Puchong. This temple is not a temple for the Gods, more like the temple for satan, or the pathway to hell or something. And they steal souls, until the people cease to disappear.
The last time I dreamed about this temple, I dreamed that my family went there for sightseeing, and they disappeared. Many people were killed and stuffs. But I managed to convinced them to let my family and I go, as long as we don't tell this to anyone. And in return, I had to promise them something.
I was befriended a little girl on my trip and I had to give her up. Because she was young, she had more 'life years' and energy in her, that they could make use of. I agreed.
And we left the temple, watching everyone disappearing.
Watching the girl being left behind.
I woke up from that dream feeling so guilty, I was depressed for DAYS.
Anyways, back to last night's dream, I was back to the same temple. Except, in my previous dream, the temple was full of people. But in this dream, the temple was empty. Other than the detailed characteristics, it looks like it had aged. Like 10 years.
I said to everyone ''I bet this is not it, let's go'' but Mero said let's just go check it out. She and Priyaa led the group towards a corner place where there was a souvenir shop. Izuddin said ''Eee mcm ada hantu je'' .. and everyone told him to shut up. I kept quiet trying to think if this was the same place, if it was going to happen again.
When we entered the souvenir shop, it was surprisingly new. Inside, there were three people. Two of them were the exact people from my previous dream! .. When I walked in, they smiled at me, as if they knew me from before, but quickly turned to my friends and asked them ''How may I help you?'' .. Fashli asked for the entrance to the roller-coaster and the guy said its through here but we have to wait for a while.
Priyaa then found a cool toy camera (??) and started playing around with it. Everyone started filling around the shop, looking at things to buy. Vino asked me why I look so weird but I said nothing.
As I look around the shop, it started to get weird. I kept getting flashes. For a while it would seem like my friends were browsing around and marvelling at all the things in the shop but the next thing, I'd see an empty shop, with my friends holding nothing but fully believing that they were holding something. The flashes kept going on and off for so long, I realised it was because I knew the truth, that this place is not real, and we had to get out of here, fast.
I turned and saw Mr.Shahril, working there. He smiled and told me there was nothing to worry about. I thought to myself, they're probably digging at our memory, trying to find a leader, a teacher that we trust easily, and found him. Because why on earth would Mr.Shahril be working at the Chinese temple? ..It made no sense. He just smiled at me and never took his eyes off me.
I told everyone ''Hey, let's go out for a second! We can look around!'' cheerfully and lead them out. Once out, I told them ''Let's get out of here, we can come back later with out lecturers or something :D'' .. Youwannia asked me what's wrong and why do I look so worried. I tried to hide it because I remembered, I was not suppose to say anything. That was as promised before.
I then said ''No, it's just this wait may take long so why not we go and get our lecturers or something? It will be more fun! :D'' ..Mero said she's lazy to go all the way back down and then come back up. Meera said the same thing too, and then she said 'JOM MASUK BALIK! SHOPPINGGG'' .. and practically half of the crowd went back in.
I turned around and saw a girl, standing, watching, from at the other end of the temple. I asked my friends ''Can you see her?'' and they all went '' um....who?'' ..
I started arguing and I can tell they got fed up. Taranya finally told me that if I want to, I can go call the lecturers myself. =='' And they stomp back in. Angrily. Annoyed. I couldn't tell. I was too worried I guess.
Vino and Renee told me they would follow me down if I want. I looked around and when I saw the girl again, the one whose soul I exchanged for my own and my family, I said ''Okay''.
On our way down, I kept turning back to see if the temple was there. It was, alright.
Till we reached the office, but when we came back out, it wasn't.
The entry to the roller-coaster was on some other side.
There was no route to a temple.
There was no temple.
The next day, the papers reported of more than 20 people went missing.
Without a trace.
Grrr.. I couldn't wake up today morning because I was so sleepy.
Dreams like this exhaust me.
And it amazes me, that I can still dream of the same thing more than 10 years later. The temple, the people, the details, were all so accurate.
Consciously, all this has long been forgotten.
But subconsciously, I guess the brain keeps track of everything..
Even weird dreams.
OMG GUILTY FEELING MUCH ==''
Sunday, July 17, 2011
OMG
Watched the final Harry Potter movie and it was FANTASTIC! LOVED IT TO THE BITS WITH ALL OF THE PIECES OF MY HEART!!
And I didn't cry. I guess I lost all those tears crying for WEEKS after I finished reading the final Harry Potter book all those years ago. Now it's just heartwarming for me.
It literally defined my teenage life.
Lining up at 5am in the morning for the book release, being the first in line, then reading it on the bus to school and back to home. Falling in love with the story all over again. Crying to Grace when she tells me to get over it, it's not real. =='' We were such kids == haha
My first Harry Potter book was when I was in Sri Lanka. I didn't bring any novels with me on the trip and was sulking off, angry at mum cause she didn't let me bring any of my books. She then went to a girl (few years older than me) who was also on the tour with us and asked her if she had any story books. She did. She brought along her entire Harry Potter collection. She lent me one and I read.
And I fell in love. I was in Sri Lanka and I refused to put the book down. It went with me to all places, to the tea shops, the diamond shops, the hotel, the restaurants, the city. The book was in my hand. But the girl had to leave early (she was on a week's tour, I was on the 10days package). I prayed hoping she'd forget the book (I'm so evil == haha). One night dad overheard me praying and the next day, he brought me to the bookshop and there, I bought a Harry Potter book. :)
A few weeks later, I was on a trip to Australia. There, I met this couple, auntie Monica and her husband. They were book freaks :) Their house is completely filled with books! till the ceilings! all stocked up :) .. And they found out I was a book maniac too, so they took me to all the bookshops in town. One day, aunt Monica's husband did a wonderful thing. He pulled me to the side and whispered to me
Him : Can you keep a secret?
Me : Um... yes?
Him : This is the first time in my life I don't know how to spend my book vouchers.
Me : Oh? ..Do you need my help finding any books? *looks around*
Him : *laugh* .. Oh no. I just thought I'd give them to you. *holds out vouchers*
Me : ... *stares at the vouchers*
Him : Go on, take it.
Me : But..what am I to do with these? ..It's okay, I don't need them..
Him : You're actually doing ME a favour. If you don't use them, they'd go to waste.
Me : *unconvinced*
Him : You can pick ANY books you want.. and how many you want, it's up to you. :)
I went straight to the Harry Potter series and took a book. He then said I should take more than one, so I took another one. He insisted I get the entire series but I lied and said ''No it's okay. I've already read them.'' ..
He and aunt Monica told me to wait outside while they settle the book voucher thing. But I saw them paying for it with their own money. Later I found out by taking a peek at the vouchers ..that they are for Biographies.
My next few Harry Potter books I got from Nepal and Malaysia. Gifts from my dad and grandma. :)
I then had the entire collection. From different countries, gifts from different people. The books are worn out, from all the carrying around. But for me, it just shows how much I love them. I love them 'till they're not in good condition. =='' hahaha
When I look at my books, they not only tell me the stories, but the places I've been and the kind people I've met. I've always looked forward to the series and I'd go to harry potter websites using the school's internet.
I guess I am, indeed, one HUGE Harry Potter freak. :) And I love it.
Many people posted on facebook that they feel like crying because it's over. But to me, it's not over. It's still alive, inside of me. And I don't regret anything about it. :)
And I didn't cry. I guess I lost all those tears crying for WEEKS after I finished reading the final Harry Potter book all those years ago. Now it's just heartwarming for me.
It literally defined my teenage life.
Lining up at 5am in the morning for the book release, being the first in line, then reading it on the bus to school and back to home. Falling in love with the story all over again. Crying to Grace when she tells me to get over it, it's not real. =='' We were such kids == haha
My first Harry Potter book was when I was in Sri Lanka. I didn't bring any novels with me on the trip and was sulking off, angry at mum cause she didn't let me bring any of my books. She then went to a girl (few years older than me) who was also on the tour with us and asked her if she had any story books. She did. She brought along her entire Harry Potter collection. She lent me one and I read.
And I fell in love. I was in Sri Lanka and I refused to put the book down. It went with me to all places, to the tea shops, the diamond shops, the hotel, the restaurants, the city. The book was in my hand. But the girl had to leave early (she was on a week's tour, I was on the 10days package). I prayed hoping she'd forget the book (I'm so evil == haha). One night dad overheard me praying and the next day, he brought me to the bookshop and there, I bought a Harry Potter book. :)
A few weeks later, I was on a trip to Australia. There, I met this couple, auntie Monica and her husband. They were book freaks :) Their house is completely filled with books! till the ceilings! all stocked up :) .. And they found out I was a book maniac too, so they took me to all the bookshops in town. One day, aunt Monica's husband did a wonderful thing. He pulled me to the side and whispered to me
Him : Can you keep a secret?
Me : Um... yes?
Him : This is the first time in my life I don't know how to spend my book vouchers.
Me : Oh? ..Do you need my help finding any books? *looks around*
Him : *laugh* .. Oh no. I just thought I'd give them to you. *holds out vouchers*
Me : ... *stares at the vouchers*
Him : Go on, take it.
Me : But..what am I to do with these? ..It's okay, I don't need them..
Him : You're actually doing ME a favour. If you don't use them, they'd go to waste.
Me : *unconvinced*
Him : You can pick ANY books you want.. and how many you want, it's up to you. :)
I went straight to the Harry Potter series and took a book. He then said I should take more than one, so I took another one. He insisted I get the entire series but I lied and said ''No it's okay. I've already read them.'' ..
He and aunt Monica told me to wait outside while they settle the book voucher thing. But I saw them paying for it with their own money. Later I found out by taking a peek at the vouchers ..that they are for Biographies.
My next few Harry Potter books I got from Nepal and Malaysia. Gifts from my dad and grandma. :)
I then had the entire collection. From different countries, gifts from different people. The books are worn out, from all the carrying around. But for me, it just shows how much I love them. I love them 'till they're not in good condition. =='' hahaha
When I look at my books, they not only tell me the stories, but the places I've been and the kind people I've met. I've always looked forward to the series and I'd go to harry potter websites using the school's internet.
I guess I am, indeed, one HUGE Harry Potter freak. :) And I love it.
Many people posted on facebook that they feel like crying because it's over. But to me, it's not over. It's still alive, inside of me. And I don't regret anything about it. :)
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Hallelujah To The Lamb
Yesterday Arun got confirmed. Along with 32 other youngsters. Awhh, they all looked so beautiful yesterday, with their confidence and they're thirst for Him. They shone with light. His light. :)
It was splendid. Made me miss MY confirmation. :) Mine was very memorable to me.
I studied in my sunday school since I was 8 years old. And I was always the quiet one. My class was always divided, right side GIRLS, left side boys. The teachers tried to get us to intergrate but we were always BOYS vs. GIRLS.
And my class was not fond of me. I'm not sure if it was pure hatred or jealousy. You see, I sort of speak with an accent since I was young. Got that from all my immitation of DISNEY characters. Anyways, my sunday school teachers loved to ask me to read stuffs. A passage from the Bible, a story from the text book. And I always noticed eyes rolling at each other. They thought I was faking it. But I wasn't.
Anyways, growing up, I always felt unaccepted. I opened myself to a few people. At first Camelia.. and when Camelia moved, it was Patricia. I never got along with anyone else, and I know no one else even bothered. Nonetheless, I loved going for sunday classes. I loved the teachers, I loved the classes, I loved learning about Him, about Jesus, about the scriptures. Makes me feel different. Loved.
Anyways, it wasn't until our CONFIRMATION CAMP that we all became a family. We sang, shared, worship, and talked stories into the night. And when it was heart sharing session, I got up there and told them how I felt. Hurt, unaccepted, misjudged, unloved.. and it was because of them that I didn't like attending mass at church because I always felt their eyes on my every move. .. I cried like crazy. And I made everyone cry too. And after that, everyone came and hugged me and told me ''You've got a friend in me'' :)
That was when the walls broke and we were happy. We weren't boys vs. girls anymore, we were all brothers and sisters. What was sad about it was that we got close at the last month of our sunday school.
Uncle Brian & Aunty Leela (our teachers) and Father Clarence were very impressed by the turn-out and said that from now onward, every confirmation class will have two camps. One at the beginning of the year and one at the end. :)
On the day of our Confirmation, I felt every wonderful feeling on earth. Happy. Content. Because I was accepted. Because I was loved. Because I felt Him.
I felt the Holy Spirit and I remember there was this warmth in me the minute we sang our theme worship, I knew I did not imagine it.
I felt a change in me, and I'm sure right there at that moment, Jesus was present. There was this light for a moment and I felt everything around me sorta faded, for a few minutes. But then I snapped back but I knew it. I remember exchanging glances with Katrina and we were like '' :)'' .. haha..
When we received our certificates, we were all cheering, jumping up and down. More like newly confirmed monkeys haha.. :) I felt like I was about to cry because sunday school was over for me. But at the same time, I was very..very happy. :)
Back to Arun's confirmation, their theme worship was wonderful. :) And we all did a wonderful job singing it. :)
Lord I stand in the midst of a multitude
Of those from every tribe and tongue
We are your people on earth
Redeemed by your blood
Rescued from death by your love
There are no words
Good enough to thank you
There are no words
To express my praise
But I will lift up my voice
And sing from my heart
With all of my strength
Hallelujah(x3) to the Lamb
Hallelujah(x2) by the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue Every tribe Every people Every land
Giving Glory
Giving honour
Giving praise unto the lamb of God
Lord we stand by grace in your presence
Cleansed by the blood of the Lamb
We are your children called by your name
Humbly we bow and we pray
Release your power to work in us and through us
Till we are changed to be more like you
Then all the nations will see your glory revealed and worship you
Hallelujah(x3) to the Lamb
Hallelujah(x2) by the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue Every tribe Every people Every land
Giving Glory
Giving honour
Giving praise unto the lamb of God
Every knee shall bow
And every tongue confess that you are Lord of all, Lord of all
Hallelujah(x3) to the Lamb
Hallelujah(x2) by the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue Every tribe Every people Every land
Giving Glory
Giving honour
Giving praise unto the lamb of God
Arun's confirmation class theme was
''We are your children, called by your name'' .. :)
Congratulations Arun! :)
It was splendid. Made me miss MY confirmation. :) Mine was very memorable to me.
I studied in my sunday school since I was 8 years old. And I was always the quiet one. My class was always divided, right side GIRLS, left side boys. The teachers tried to get us to intergrate but we were always BOYS vs. GIRLS.
And my class was not fond of me. I'm not sure if it was pure hatred or jealousy. You see, I sort of speak with an accent since I was young. Got that from all my immitation of DISNEY characters. Anyways, my sunday school teachers loved to ask me to read stuffs. A passage from the Bible, a story from the text book. And I always noticed eyes rolling at each other. They thought I was faking it. But I wasn't.
Anyways, growing up, I always felt unaccepted. I opened myself to a few people. At first Camelia.. and when Camelia moved, it was Patricia. I never got along with anyone else, and I know no one else even bothered. Nonetheless, I loved going for sunday classes. I loved the teachers, I loved the classes, I loved learning about Him, about Jesus, about the scriptures. Makes me feel different. Loved.
Anyways, it wasn't until our CONFIRMATION CAMP that we all became a family. We sang, shared, worship, and talked stories into the night. And when it was heart sharing session, I got up there and told them how I felt. Hurt, unaccepted, misjudged, unloved.. and it was because of them that I didn't like attending mass at church because I always felt their eyes on my every move. .. I cried like crazy. And I made everyone cry too. And after that, everyone came and hugged me and told me ''You've got a friend in me'' :)
That was when the walls broke and we were happy. We weren't boys vs. girls anymore, we were all brothers and sisters. What was sad about it was that we got close at the last month of our sunday school.
Uncle Brian & Aunty Leela (our teachers) and Father Clarence were very impressed by the turn-out and said that from now onward, every confirmation class will have two camps. One at the beginning of the year and one at the end. :)
On the day of our Confirmation, I felt every wonderful feeling on earth. Happy. Content. Because I was accepted. Because I was loved. Because I felt Him.
I felt the Holy Spirit and I remember there was this warmth in me the minute we sang our theme worship, I knew I did not imagine it.
I felt a change in me, and I'm sure right there at that moment, Jesus was present. There was this light for a moment and I felt everything around me sorta faded, for a few minutes. But then I snapped back but I knew it. I remember exchanging glances with Katrina and we were like '' :)'' .. haha..
When we received our certificates, we were all cheering, jumping up and down. More like newly confirmed monkeys haha.. :) I felt like I was about to cry because sunday school was over for me. But at the same time, I was very..very happy. :)
Back to Arun's confirmation, their theme worship was wonderful. :) And we all did a wonderful job singing it. :)
Lord I stand in the midst of a multitude
Of those from every tribe and tongue
We are your people on earth
Redeemed by your blood
Rescued from death by your love
There are no words
Good enough to thank you
There are no words
To express my praise
But I will lift up my voice
And sing from my heart
With all of my strength
Hallelujah(x3) to the Lamb
Hallelujah(x2) by the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue Every tribe Every people Every land
Giving Glory
Giving honour
Giving praise unto the lamb of God
Lord we stand by grace in your presence
Cleansed by the blood of the Lamb
We are your children called by your name
Humbly we bow and we pray
Release your power to work in us and through us
Till we are changed to be more like you
Then all the nations will see your glory revealed and worship you
Hallelujah(x3) to the Lamb
Hallelujah(x2) by the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue Every tribe Every people Every land
Giving Glory
Giving honour
Giving praise unto the lamb of God
Every knee shall bow
And every tongue confess that you are Lord of all, Lord of all
Hallelujah(x3) to the Lamb
Hallelujah(x2) by the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue Every tribe Every people Every land
Giving Glory
Giving honour
Giving praise unto the lamb of God
Arun's confirmation class theme was
''We are your children, called by your name'' .. :)
Congratulations Arun! :)
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
''You Mean More To Me Than Anyone I've Ever Loved At All''
There's a story I love from Her Fearful Symmetry. This story is not exactly the main story, it's just there, at the background..a sub-plot. But I love it so much if I think about this book, I'd remember this first.
About Martin and Marijke.
They've been married for years. Elderly couple. Martin has OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). He refuses to step out of his apartment. All his things are in boxes. He doesn't like the sunlight so he covers the windows up with newspapers. He cleans, a lot. He would just keep scrubbing at a place for hours until he is fully satisfied that the area is clean. He wears gloves as he refuses to have skin contact with anything.
He goes around his house in a fixed manner as to avoid making a mess or leaving prints where he knew he would have to scrub for hours later on. He counts to himself when he gets nervous. Also to stick to his routine. Like when he shaves, he knows the exact seconds before he shaves the other side of his face. He times his hand movements. When something goes wrong, he gets these panic attacks.
Marijke. She couldn't take it anymore, living with him. To always watch out for him and took care of him. So one day she decides to leave. Stayed somewhere far from him, got a job and an apartment where she allowed sunlight to stream in and she had a cat.
She called every month at first but then she realised it's because she missed him, so she stopped.
He, missed her so much. He thinks about her all the time. He googled maps and asks himself ''If I were her, where would I live?'' .. and marks the places. He tried searching for her number or details..online of course. But he couldn't find her.
After more than a year of not seeing her, he started taking pills (because Julia..oh well, not important)..well yeah, Treatment pills. Now, this is hard for him because part of the disorder is refusing the treatment. But he took them.
And he started practicing.
He took off the newspapers on the window for the sunlight.
He stood at his doorway and looked down at the stairs, trying very hard to walk down, but he couldn't.
But one day he made up his mind. That he was going to find her.
He packed his things.
And off her went.
He forced himself down the stairs and out of the apartment.
When his taxi arrived, he went in and came back out breathing heavily. He was not used to it and he could feel his panic attack drawing close. After a few try, he made it in.
After the taxi, he took the train.
Then the bus.
Then another taxi.
He went pass borders.
5 hours journey.
To her place.
When he reached there, he practically ran up to her apartment, wanting to get in as fast as possible.
But once there, he realised she was not in.
He started having his panic attacks.
She came back from cycling and saw her Martin there at her doorstep, gasping for air.
She ran up to him, worried.
But he smiled and said ''I came to you, Marijke. I came to you.''
And then, she knew he loved her. Very much.
Marijke : Come on in Martin, it's getting late.
Martin : Let's have dinner.
Marijke : Sure..I'll just -
Martin : Outside. Let's eat out.
And I just couldn't stop marveling at the beauty of it. For us, it would seem easy, buses and trains.. but for him, it was like fighting dragons and dinosaurs.
But he did it. He braved through all his fears to get to her.
For all those times he had hurt her because of his OCD. The pain she had to go through for more than 30 years of taking care of him and not being happy at that.
She left thinking he wouldn't change.
But he did. And she didn't ask that of him.
Sometimes I think people hurt you not because they don't love you. It's because they don't know HOW to love you the way you want them to.
Martin & Marijke.
Sweetness. :)
About Martin and Marijke.
They've been married for years. Elderly couple. Martin has OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). He refuses to step out of his apartment. All his things are in boxes. He doesn't like the sunlight so he covers the windows up with newspapers. He cleans, a lot. He would just keep scrubbing at a place for hours until he is fully satisfied that the area is clean. He wears gloves as he refuses to have skin contact with anything.
He goes around his house in a fixed manner as to avoid making a mess or leaving prints where he knew he would have to scrub for hours later on. He counts to himself when he gets nervous. Also to stick to his routine. Like when he shaves, he knows the exact seconds before he shaves the other side of his face. He times his hand movements. When something goes wrong, he gets these panic attacks.
Marijke. She couldn't take it anymore, living with him. To always watch out for him and took care of him. So one day she decides to leave. Stayed somewhere far from him, got a job and an apartment where she allowed sunlight to stream in and she had a cat.
She called every month at first but then she realised it's because she missed him, so she stopped.
He, missed her so much. He thinks about her all the time. He googled maps and asks himself ''If I were her, where would I live?'' .. and marks the places. He tried searching for her number or details..online of course. But he couldn't find her.
After more than a year of not seeing her, he started taking pills (because Julia..oh well, not important)..well yeah, Treatment pills. Now, this is hard for him because part of the disorder is refusing the treatment. But he took them.
And he started practicing.
He took off the newspapers on the window for the sunlight.
He stood at his doorway and looked down at the stairs, trying very hard to walk down, but he couldn't.
But one day he made up his mind. That he was going to find her.
He packed his things.
And off her went.
He forced himself down the stairs and out of the apartment.
When his taxi arrived, he went in and came back out breathing heavily. He was not used to it and he could feel his panic attack drawing close. After a few try, he made it in.
After the taxi, he took the train.
Then the bus.
Then another taxi.
He went pass borders.
5 hours journey.
To her place.
When he reached there, he practically ran up to her apartment, wanting to get in as fast as possible.
But once there, he realised she was not in.
He started having his panic attacks.
She came back from cycling and saw her Martin there at her doorstep, gasping for air.
She ran up to him, worried.
But he smiled and said ''I came to you, Marijke. I came to you.''
And then, she knew he loved her. Very much.
Marijke : Come on in Martin, it's getting late.
Martin : Let's have dinner.
Marijke : Sure..I'll just -
Martin : Outside. Let's eat out.
And I just couldn't stop marveling at the beauty of it. For us, it would seem easy, buses and trains.. but for him, it was like fighting dragons and dinosaurs.
But he did it. He braved through all his fears to get to her.
For all those times he had hurt her because of his OCD. The pain she had to go through for more than 30 years of taking care of him and not being happy at that.
She left thinking he wouldn't change.
But he did. And she didn't ask that of him.
Sometimes I think people hurt you not because they don't love you. It's because they don't know HOW to love you the way you want them to.
Martin & Marijke.
Sweetness. :)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
A Game Called Life
Just started watching a series about a woman who finds out she has cancer. Melanoma, stage 4, to be exact. And there are no treatments that can cure her disease.
She has a friendenemy relationship with her condition. A part of her accepts that she is dying and chooses to live life doing everything she wants while another part of her is angry that it is happening to her.
Just watched a few episodes and I'm already in love with it. It's boring if you're that kind of person who's all action and romantic comedy but I find myself learning a lot. To appreciate, to live, to love. Because we are all dying. It's just, her time is running out much faster than the rest of us.
Cathy Jamison: If you were ready to go, did you ever think about just going?
Marlene: Think about it all the time, but I just keep waking up.
Cathy Jamison and how she finds humour and happiness in her life, despite the fact that she has less than a year to live.
:)
Can't wait for the next epi. Love it. :)
She has a friendenemy relationship with her condition. A part of her accepts that she is dying and chooses to live life doing everything she wants while another part of her is angry that it is happening to her.
Just watched a few episodes and I'm already in love with it. It's boring if you're that kind of person who's all action and romantic comedy but I find myself learning a lot. To appreciate, to live, to love. Because we are all dying. It's just, her time is running out much faster than the rest of us.
Cathy Jamison: If you were ready to go, did you ever think about just going?
Marlene: Think about it all the time, but I just keep waking up.
The Big C
Cathy Jamison and how she finds humour and happiness in her life, despite the fact that she has less than a year to live.
:)
Can't wait for the next epi. Love it. :)
Sunday, June 19, 2011
CUCMS dilemma
Today morning I headed out to CUCMS to get answers, or at least an explanation as to what is currently going on. Sat down with Dr.Basir and my grandparents and he explained thoroughly. And please keep in mind this is what I was told and I will try to sort this information is the easiest way to comprehend. Here, I'll start from the beginning :
The problem started when the Medical faculty accepted a total number of 236 students for batch 2010 when they were only allowed to take in 150students ( extra 86 students ). When news got out, CUCMS had their license revoked. However, they managed to appeal and got accredited. The batch of medical graduates that CUCMS just produced is recognised.
However, crime and punishment. CUCMS has to pay for the mistake they made. So now, CUCMS have to be accredited EVERY year for ..well, as long as MMC think is necessary. So every year they will come down and survey and then give the green light, or the red light. Also, MMC does not want CUCMS to have an MBBS intake this year, seeing as they were irresponsible and careless the last time. CUCMS is currently appealing for that though.
So now, the question is.. what are we to do next?
Plan A : Wait for CUCMS to get the green light for MBBS intake this year.
1. Will CUCMS get the green light?
Dr.Basir said they are hoping to get a favourable response although there have been indication that that is most likely. Though an indication is not enough, it should be in black & white. Yes, we want to know NOW, CUCMS wants to know NOW however.. it's the response from the MMC that we are waiting for. Without their answer, CUCMS can't tell us anything.
2. When will we get the response?
Dr.Basir said most probably next month. They're trying their best to get an answer A.S.A.P so that we can make the next move.
3. If all is well..
We continue into the medicine faculty in CUCMS provided that our results fits the criteria (I'll touch on this later).
So..what if CUCMS gets the red light instead?
That would be Plan B.
Plan B : We'd be transferred to other respectable ACCREDITED medical institutions.
1. How is that to happen?
CUCMS themselves will arrange for us to be transferred to other accredited universities. However, this is also 'kind of' restricted because other universities would ask of a higher cgpa and also, in our cases, physics. But as promised, CUCMS will do their best to get us into the best colleges for our circumstances.
If we don't want to wait and would rather instead take matters into our own hands
Plan C : We choose to leave CUCMS and head over to other medical institutions.
1. This is something we can do instead of letting everything solved on its own. Research on other medical institutions and move there. Here are the accredited colleges :
-Universiti Malaya
-Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
-Universiti Sains Malaysia
-Universiti Malaysia Sarawak
-Universiti Putra Malaysia
-Penang Medical College
-Universiti Perubatan Antarabangsa
-Universiti Islam Antarabangsa
-Mangalore University/ Manipal Academy of Higher Education
-Royal College of Medicine Perak (MBBS-Malaya Programme)
-Asian Institute of Medicine, Science and Technology
-Universiti Teknologi Mara
-Universiti Malaysia Sabah
-Alliance College of Medical Sciences
-Monash University Sunway Campus
-UCSI University
As you've noticed I took CUCMS out of the list.
Alright, so before I go on, first, what does it mean by 'accredited'.
Accredited, means acknowledged and recognised by the government.
So what if you studied in a non-accredited medical institution?
- You can still practice medicine. However, when you graduated, you have to sit for another exam to be given the licensed to practice medicine. So why worry you ask? Because this test is designed to fail students. It will be very tough and very hard. As you know, there have been many reports on the drastic increase of the doctors in Malaysia and it is alarming as the ratio shows that there are more doctors to patients. So it wouldn't be surprising if many fails this license exam, as the exam itself is designed to control the number of doctors to practice in Malaysia.
Okay, on another note :
Recently, MMC just set a minimum criteria and qualification for entry into the medical programme. And that it is said that there should be a minimum B for all four science subjects : Chemistry, Biology, Physics and Maths. And we all know which subject we're having problem with. Damn you physics haha =='' Okay well, anyways, according to Dr.Basir, everyone in Malaysia is appealing against this, that instead of all FOUR, perhaps a THREE out of four would do. They are appealing because
1. It causes too much constraint and stress on students to achieve high grades on ALL science subjects.
2. There are many students who have already completed their pre-med following the previous requirements. This causes difficulties on entering the medicine faculty.
3. There are many IPTAs & other medical institutions where physics are not one of the courses being offered. What happens there?
If everyone in Malaysia is appealing to the MMC about this, well, most likely it would be granted. Though no promises.
We will be informed (through letter or a phone call) about further changes.. like if CUCMS medical faculty is accredited for our batch or is not, or where we will be placed.
So..
If you're wondering what I'm going to do..
I am going to research about other ACCREDITED medical schools, to find a better one than CUCMS, if not as good, that suits me.
If that fails, I will look for ACCREDITED medical schools with an August intake. I will give CUCMS time but not that much.
But no matter what, I would not go into non-accredited medical schools unless of course, if worst comes to worst.
If you don't find these answers satisfying, well, there is nothing else we can do. Because this is everything they (CUCMS) know.
I hope I explained well. :/ If it's confusing or anything, ask me and I'll try to explain better.
Remember, we're all in this together.
Well, all the best to you guys. :)
The problem started when the Medical faculty accepted a total number of 236 students for batch 2010 when they were only allowed to take in 150students ( extra 86 students ). When news got out, CUCMS had their license revoked. However, they managed to appeal and got accredited. The batch of medical graduates that CUCMS just produced is recognised.
However, crime and punishment. CUCMS has to pay for the mistake they made. So now, CUCMS have to be accredited EVERY year for ..well, as long as MMC think is necessary. So every year they will come down and survey and then give the green light, or the red light. Also, MMC does not want CUCMS to have an MBBS intake this year, seeing as they were irresponsible and careless the last time. CUCMS is currently appealing for that though.
So now, the question is.. what are we to do next?
Plan A : Wait for CUCMS to get the green light for MBBS intake this year.
1. Will CUCMS get the green light?
Dr.Basir said they are hoping to get a favourable response although there have been indication that that is most likely. Though an indication is not enough, it should be in black & white. Yes, we want to know NOW, CUCMS wants to know NOW however.. it's the response from the MMC that we are waiting for. Without their answer, CUCMS can't tell us anything.
2. When will we get the response?
Dr.Basir said most probably next month. They're trying their best to get an answer A.S.A.P so that we can make the next move.
3. If all is well..
We continue into the medicine faculty in CUCMS provided that our results fits the criteria (I'll touch on this later).
So..what if CUCMS gets the red light instead?
That would be Plan B.
Plan B : We'd be transferred to other respectable ACCREDITED medical institutions.
1. How is that to happen?
CUCMS themselves will arrange for us to be transferred to other accredited universities. However, this is also 'kind of' restricted because other universities would ask of a higher cgpa and also, in our cases, physics. But as promised, CUCMS will do their best to get us into the best colleges for our circumstances.
If we don't want to wait and would rather instead take matters into our own hands
Plan C : We choose to leave CUCMS and head over to other medical institutions.
1. This is something we can do instead of letting everything solved on its own. Research on other medical institutions and move there. Here are the accredited colleges :
-Universiti Malaya
-Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
-Universiti Sains Malaysia
-Universiti Malaysia Sarawak
-Universiti Putra Malaysia
-Penang Medical College
-Universiti Perubatan Antarabangsa
-Universiti Islam Antarabangsa
-Mangalore University/ Manipal Academy of Higher Education
-Royal College of Medicine Perak (MBBS-Malaya Programme)
-Asian Institute of Medicine, Science and Technology
-Universiti Teknologi Mara
-Universiti Malaysia Sabah
-Alliance College of Medical Sciences
-Monash University Sunway Campus
-UCSI University
As you've noticed I took CUCMS out of the list.
Alright, so before I go on, first, what does it mean by 'accredited'.
Accredited, means acknowledged and recognised by the government.
So what if you studied in a non-accredited medical institution?
- You can still practice medicine. However, when you graduated, you have to sit for another exam to be given the licensed to practice medicine. So why worry you ask? Because this test is designed to fail students. It will be very tough and very hard. As you know, there have been many reports on the drastic increase of the doctors in Malaysia and it is alarming as the ratio shows that there are more doctors to patients. So it wouldn't be surprising if many fails this license exam, as the exam itself is designed to control the number of doctors to practice in Malaysia.
Okay, on another note :
Recently, MMC just set a minimum criteria and qualification for entry into the medical programme. And that it is said that there should be a minimum B for all four science subjects : Chemistry, Biology, Physics and Maths. And we all know which subject we're having problem with. Damn you physics haha =='' Okay well, anyways, according to Dr.Basir, everyone in Malaysia is appealing against this, that instead of all FOUR, perhaps a THREE out of four would do. They are appealing because
1. It causes too much constraint and stress on students to achieve high grades on ALL science subjects.
2. There are many students who have already completed their pre-med following the previous requirements. This causes difficulties on entering the medicine faculty.
3. There are many IPTAs & other medical institutions where physics are not one of the courses being offered. What happens there?
If everyone in Malaysia is appealing to the MMC about this, well, most likely it would be granted. Though no promises.
We will be informed (through letter or a phone call) about further changes.. like if CUCMS medical faculty is accredited for our batch or is not, or where we will be placed.
So..
If you're wondering what I'm going to do..
I am going to research about other ACCREDITED medical schools, to find a better one than CUCMS, if not as good, that suits me.
If that fails, I will look for ACCREDITED medical schools with an August intake. I will give CUCMS time but not that much.
But no matter what, I would not go into non-accredited medical schools unless of course, if worst comes to worst.
If you don't find these answers satisfying, well, there is nothing else we can do. Because this is everything they (CUCMS) know.
I hope I explained well. :/ If it's confusing or anything, ask me and I'll try to explain better.
Remember, we're all in this together.
Well, all the best to you guys. :)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Attack of the FROGS :(
My weird dreams are back. I used to have them like every night since I can remember but then it stopped for a while, when the holidays started. But yeah, they're back.
Last night I dreamed about Pudu Girl's School. And how much I miss it. :(
And then I dreamed about...about..FROGS! .. :/ And well, have I told you the story when I accidently found a frog in my shoe and then I was phobia of frogs and shoes for more than a year? I wouldn't even TOUCH my shoes. My kakak / Grace had to help me put them on whenever I go out/ at school. Well, until now I still check my shoes. But FROGS??!!! NOOOO WAAAYYYY.. I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE ANOTHER FROG EVER AGAINNNNNN T.T
I still remembered how I held the frog and pulled it out from my shoe.. YUCK YUCK YUCK T.T
Last night I dreamed my roomate (??) loved frogs and she had a few. She brought them with her wherever she goes and the frogs would just stare, and SMILE at me. o.o
Like this :
YUCK YUCK OMG ..I even have trouble looking at the picture..
takkk nakkkk :/
Anyways ..
In my dream, the frogs started hopping at me on MY bed.
I screamed, and I woke up..and realised I was screaming out loud .. ==''
My dad came out of his room and ask me ''what happened?''
Sleepily I said
''FROGS!!! :('' and I slept back. ==''
I remember my heart beating so fast I felt like it would EXPLODE.
I DON'T LIKE FROGS.
AND TOADS.
Me faking a smile :/ ..
:/
Though yes, they're GOD CREATIONS AND I LOVE THEM FROM THAT PERSPECTIVE BUT
I TAKKK NAKKKK :/
Wish I don't dream of them, ever again.
Last night I dreamed about Pudu Girl's School. And how much I miss it. :(
And then I dreamed about...about..FROGS! .. :/ And well, have I told you the story when I accidently found a frog in my shoe and then I was phobia of frogs and shoes for more than a year? I wouldn't even TOUCH my shoes. My kakak / Grace had to help me put them on whenever I go out/ at school. Well, until now I still check my shoes. But FROGS??!!! NOOOO WAAAYYYY.. I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE ANOTHER FROG EVER AGAINNNNNN T.T
I still remembered how I held the frog and pulled it out from my shoe.. YUCK YUCK YUCK T.T
Last night I dreamed my roomate (??) loved frogs and she had a few. She brought them with her wherever she goes and the frogs would just stare, and SMILE at me. o.o
Like this :
YUCK YUCK OMG ..I even have trouble looking at the picture..
takkk nakkkk :/
Anyways ..
In my dream, the frogs started hopping at me on MY bed.
I screamed, and I woke up..and realised I was screaming out loud .. ==''
My dad came out of his room and ask me ''what happened?''
Sleepily I said
''FROGS!!! :('' and I slept back. ==''
I remember my heart beating so fast I felt like it would EXPLODE.
I DON'T LIKE FROGS.
AND TOADS.
Me faking a smile :/ ..:/
Though yes, they're GOD CREATIONS AND I LOVE THEM FROM THAT PERSPECTIVE BUT
I TAKKK NAKKKK :/
Wish I don't dream of them, ever again.
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