VIVIAN TAN BO YEE

You're my best friend in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD -I feel like a 6year old O.o'' haha

But it's true. I'm sorry I've been hurting you with my 'awesome' time-management, my sleepyness, always saying the wrong things at the wrong time. If I'm you, I'd get so annoyed. I don't even know how you put up with me.

You're so strong. You have a horrible best friend and yet, you're always there for her. You're amazing, you know that?

I'm going to try to be awesome-er too. Awesome like you.
I don't want to hurt you anymore and make you feel sad all the time.
I won't want to constantly feel bad when we fight all the time.
I DON'T want to fight all the time.

I'm going to try to be better.
I can't promise you that the change would be immediately, cause everything takes time, right?
This too, takes time.

Bear with me on this okay?

I love you, like freaking a lot. :)
Can't wait to see you on tuesday, we have SO MUCH to catch up on.

And we'll be doing this for many more years to come.
I can promise you THAT. :)

''I miss the past form of you'' - REPLY

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I'm sorry for the very late reply..had exams and stuffs.

And hey, that girl is so not lost at all. It's still in me. I'm still me. It's just, change as in, yes you're right, adapting to the new environment.

You know how they say that when you mix with a certain group of people, as time passes, you sorta have similar characteristics..like them? I guess it's the same with me too. And I can tell, some are sorta good. I've gained self confidence, I can carry out conversations without feeling all insecure.. these people helped (is helping) me let go and start over. I hang out with them a lot, and I can see myself having the similar traits.

Before this, I was sorta down about it. I felt like I'm letting go of myself, and being someone else. But then, now I'm starting to like the person I am. This is me, getting out of my shell, trying out new things, stepping out of my comfort zone.. And you know how rarely that happens. I'm usually just comfortable with a small group of people and fearing everything that is unfamiliar. But things are changing.

You say you admire the person i was back then. And I'm guessing it's those traits you've told me about. Hey, I still have those traits. It just, I may have wavered off here and there, but I'm still me.

And I'm never letting me go.
I'm never letting you go.

I don't walk out of people's lives, despite what some might think. I have my reasons for doing the things I do. They may not be the RIGHT reasons, but trust me, they are reasons in your favour. It's always in other people's favour when it comes to me. Once I love someone, I love. And that doesn't stop. No matter what happens.

Even when people change.
Even when people leave.
Even when people hurt me,
humiliate me,
curse me,
use me..

I don't stop. I always wish I can change that part about myself, that I can stop easy, or move on easy, but I'm not like that.
And this applies to you too.
In this case, I left, I would like to say I left not by choice, but that would be lying. I did leave by choice, however it's due to circumstances.
But that doesn't mean you're not important anymore.
That doesn't mean I don't love you.

It just means there's distance between us, and we gotta work harder in keeping contact, that's all.
And since I'm gonna meet you tomorrow, I think we're doing just fine.

You'll see me tomorrow.
The brand new me.
Which is a mixture of the old me, and a few changes here and there.
I hope you like it.

Let me know. :)

I said

''I'm sorry I'm difficult''

He said,

''Well baby, nothing good comes easy''

I know I have huge trust issues, but with you, it's easy.
And I don't even wonder why.

Next week

Exam week.

Not ready. I can't seem to remember my facts, and because there's a lot, I get more confused. The workload is piling up, and before I know it, I'm overwhelmed.

But I'll be heading back to KL on Friday. :)

Today Karunya said that she wants FRIDAY to come fast but that would mean CA would come fast too. Then I told her ''it's like they're playing with our minds, aren't they?'' ..haha..

Time is running fast. I just finished my critical review on Euthanasia, and it's already 12.15 a.m. I won't say what time I started :/ There's a secret recipe cake waiting for me in the fridge and the question : ''To eat..or not to eat'' is playing on my mind. I should go print the lab manual for all four of us , for our lab tomorrow. The printer's ready and everything, but I don't feel like printing. I don't feel like getting off my bed. I'm also really thirsty now. Darsh Darsh, seriously, drink water. I want to, but the water bottle is wayyyy over there.

No, it's not lazyness talking (not THIS time). Everyone is concentrating on getting their critical review done that the room is really quiet. I like this feeling. And I'm afraid if I moved a little, whether to get the cake, to print the manuals, or to drink water, I'd disrupt the silence.

..

Okay, silence is disrupted.
Off I go.

You're pretty awesome with your guitar.

Just thought of letting ya know that. :)

p/s Blogging this when you're playing..

:P

Youtube much?

Hahaha, I always find the comments on youtube hilarious! Some comments that is. Some are just, kinda rude but..ignore those=.= The cute ones are what makes me happy :)



Haha :)

Stuck In Reverse

Falling in love with Coldplay. Have them on shuffle the entire day today. I remember someone who was once important in my life, he was a huge fan of Coldplay, but it's funny that I chose to fall in love with Coldplay NOW. At this very moment.

Sometimes life's like that. :)

We were free like water, flowing down under the warmth of the sun

4th October 2011, 2.32 a.m :)


''And as we lie, beneath the stars,
we realise how small we are,
if they could love like you and me,
imagine what the world could be''

I was holding on to you, like someone broken,
and you told me..

'Just let me hold you while you're falling apart..
just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me'

Hey,thanks for letting me fall on you.
You make my 'everyday' beautiful..
Who'd knew we would be an 'us' ? .. :)

ps : Yesterday just keeps replaying over and over on my mind. It waskinda perfect. :)



pps : So can't believe you slept early tonight! grr.. But hey, a part of me is happy that you fell asleep .. so then you wouldn't be awake to keep me up so late. :P Kidding.. :) Goodnight, love.

Random

Everything worth having...

Comes with trials worth withstanding.

Anyways...

You can clearly see what I'm missing right now. :(