Life is funny

I have a friend.
We hang out in a big group, poke fun at each other,
crack jokes,
tease each other like crazy.

But at nights, we talk.
About lots of things. Things that are deep.
About life, about relationships,
about us.

And I'm not sure what impression I leave on him,
but he helped me understand lots of things.
Things that I had trouble coping with,
dealing with,
but now I'm starting to understand.

I hope I've helped him too though.

He said yesterday

''Life is kinda funny. Sometimes you'll meet people in your life to help you clear stuffs up.''

To help you deal with things,
to help you see,
to help you understand.

And I guess, I understand now.

Letting go, forgetting, forgiving.

Healing.

Bittersweetness.

''Drifting off to see the world''

Goodbye hurts the most when people leave without saying them

There is a reason for everyone you meet in your life.
A reason why they are there in the first place.

Sometimes people are meant to meet, fall in love but not meant to be together.
To leave at a point, to go on separate paths.

Lessons to be learned, feelings to be felt.
Memories to be made, and remembered.
Or let go.

I don't know the rules that were meant to be followed.
I don't know the lessons that I was suppose to learn.

But I do know that I am grateful.
That it happened,
when it happened.
That you mattered,
when everything mattered.

When you're part of someone's life for so long,
mattered for so long,
it becomes a part of you.

Well, a part of me.
And I don't know if that part of me will always be there.

I want to let go,
to say a proper goodbye,
to talk about things,
things that were said,
things that were unsaid.

''If saying goodbye hurts so much, why do we say goodbye? Because it hurts so much more to keep holding on to something that isn't there. Like you're hanging off a ledge and someone is jumping up and down on your hands but you still can't let go. Like when you're little and you're being tickled...you shout for it to stop because it's torture, but then you go back for more, because somehow being tickled makes you feel safe and special.

Holding on is like that...but the torture is painful...and it doesn't make you smile. That's why we're supposed to say goodbye. That's why we're meant to let go''

And I want to let go.

30th April 2011

An aunt of mine just passed away. Didn't really knew her. All I remember was that my grandma always mentioned her whenever I get sick.

''You don't take care of yourself, you're going to get worst! Like you know, your aunt____ .......''

Yeah, I usually block out the lecture. ==

But yesterday when I found out, I wondered if it was to do with her sickness. And indeed, it did.

She always had difficulty in breathing, especially when she eats or drinks something that she shouldn't. Like me.

However, one morning, she woke up, and she could not breathe.

She left behind an infant. A baby girl, of just a few months old.

I think I've got to start taking care of myself.

May her soul rest in peace.

EXAMS. DONE. OVER. GONE.

Byebye :)

HELLO HOLIDAYS!

Housebunnies :)

A day when we had exams the next day and because of feeling so stressed up, Meera made us up and we had a photoshoot of our own. :)
Taranya was in her room, she didn't want to join us, haha.. Said we were 'KIDS'.

What sucked was that we all can't be in a picture because we need someone to hold the camera. :/

This journey here in this apartment has been, interesting. Tons of ups and downs. We started out with 8 girls in the apartment, and now, towards the end of foundation, 5 of us left. Two moved out, one moved to another college.. and yeah. I feel like this is a lesson. A lesson God wants us to learn. Just us. And that was why Youwannia moved out. Sobha moved out. Because E-33-AB teaches a lesson which was not meant for them. A lesson was meant for the 5 of us.

I won't deny, they have been times we felt like hitting and screaming at each other. And then we work out our differences, and end up hugging and taking pics, haha. Now thinking about it, if I had end up in an apartment where everyone had the same characters, the same fashion sense, the same religion, I wouldn't have learned anything. I would not have grow and mature. Heck, I'd still be the same person when I moved here. Learning from differences. We sticked together through thick and thin.

The thing is, it's okay if you're hot tempered, if you're annoying, if you can't stop singing when you're studying. What matters is that you're true. I'd pick an annoying true friend over a sweet fake friend any day. :)
Oh, and also, growing together, improving to be a better person.

This will be ending this sunday when we give our keys up. It's been one heck of a ride girls. :)
E-33-AB rocks. :)
Love you girls. Haha, we'll always be housebunnies.

Yasmin, Husna, Meera, Taranya.

And also you Fatin. Even though you're not here with us till the end of foundation, you're still a housebunny.

When you hang out with a group of people most of the time, you tend to have their characteristics, and they tend to have yours. Things you've said before, you may now hear it from someone else. In fact, I realise I'm starting to laugh like Husna.. :P In the end, I'll be walking out of here with each and everyone of you in me.

And thus, the story of these five different girls who build an AMAZING friendship..will be buried in the walls of apartment E-33-AB forever.

:)

'' Some of you might wonder what it's like to have a broken heart. For me, it's something like this ;
it makes you lose confidence in trusting someone..and it makes you not wanting to have a relationship..ever again''

New beginnings?

Today we heard news. About our friends who decided to leave due to..certain events. Anyways..it's going to be hard. We're loosing another two of our housemates (and friends) ..and then..left four of us in this apartment. I'm going to miss them.

I hope and pray that they'll find happiness and awesome friends in the new place when they'll be able to pursue their dream. I pray they keep their courage and hope, unscarred by anything hurtful that has happened in the past. I pray they are successful in whatever they do. I hope we're not forgotten, I pray we're remembered.

But mostly, I pray ..that this relationship ..our relationship..doesn't change. Hopefully, they grow stronger? ..''Distance makes the heart grow fonder''.. I hope it's applicable in this case.

I wish them all the best. No tears from me..I've never cried at anything happy I think.. because everything here happens for a reason. Make the best out of everything..and if everyone ends up happy, why cry about it..? :)

We'll meet again.. hopefully at weddings, parties and births...I dread the funerals. ==''
But that's life. Unexpected. A teacher. Full of bittersweet moments. We're blessed. To have met and know each other.

Dedicated to Fatin and Meera.
Love you two. :) Take care.