Meet our christmas tree!

Haha yeah I know =.='' We were actually planning on getting a christmas tree for so long, to make our room more ''chrismassy''. But well.. Karu went drinking the other day and she got these two cards, and she made a 3D stick out kinda thing. Cool huh?

O.o''
Well, at least something, right? :)

Leave some morphine at my door

Its almost 1am Tuesday morning. And I'm excited.
Hev's asleep on skype and I'm doing my assignment.

I'm STARVING.

I keep glancing at Henrina at the other side of the room. She has her hair tied up in a bun that is sticking out at the TOP of her head. And she's singing and smiling to herself, at the laptop screen.

Karunya's behind me, in serious concentration. She's doing her assignments and watching How I Met Your Mother. But the look on her face, makes it seem like she's watching some war movie. O.o''

I'm HUNGRY. :(

There's bread in the cupboard but I'm lazy to go over there to get some. Yes, continue starving or eat right? Dilemma dilemma.
Actually, not a dilemma. It's called being a PIG.

I'm excited for Friday. Going home! For christmas!

That's all I keep thinking about. I plan to FINISH the assignment tonight (TONS TO DO :/) and finish biochem tomorrow! And start on patho , pack on thursday and friday, FLY HOME. :)

ANDDD I'm excitedd.
It's christmas.

:O
I shouldn't be so excited right? Have high expectations only to be disappointed o.o''
Sigh.

Oh well, I'll just be happy that I'm going home then. :)

I'm craving for McD. :O
Henny & I both actually.

We've been saying these past few weeks that we're gonna go get McD. But 'till today, we've only been just SAYING it. o.o''
FAIL. :p

HUNGRY :(

Kay darsh stop crapping and go back to work.

:o

HEY YOU READING THIS.
Hello. :)
(random) haha

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game

Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down

I'm through accepting limits
'cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know

Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity

If the world really ends

in 2012.

Imagine it happening.

What do you do? Tell your mum & dad you love them? Hug your brothers and sisters? Kneel down in prayer?

I think I'd freeze. I'd probably just stand there and cry.

I dreamt about this many times. And every time, I just freeze. I wanted to express the way I feel, let important people know how much I love them or how much I'm sorry for the hurt and the pain I've caused.
But I've never been able to do that, especially not with my family. I don't open up or share, no one does. It just goes plain awkward.

With people too. It's so hard to tell someone I love them or that I miss them. I usually muster all my strength in me that I can, and say it. Except for all the 'loves!' on facebook, that's just following the norm of the society. No, not about me blending in, but to not make anyone else uncomfortable.

I know I am getting better, I do work on it. Try harder. Because I don't want this part of me to stay the same. I want to be able to hug freely, express freely. I am already on the road to that.

But I was always afraid that just because I don't say it, does not mean I don't love. I just always wished they would know. Perhaps through signs. But even THAT I'm bad at. I can probably just go be a robot.

But what if they don't know? What if somewhere along the way, they missed the signs?

In my dreams, I'd tell myself, Darsh, say it! Tell them, it's now or never. But I never did say anything. I would always just freeze, and break down crying silently and as I feel the end coming near,

all I do is close my eyes.

Special

"Wait, I have a question for you.. Answer it, and it's back to fireworks and rockets red glare.

Answer it right, and I'll forget the last 145 years I've spent missing you.

I'll forget how much I love you,

I'll forget everything and we can start over.

This can be our defining moment.

Because we have the time..

That's the beauty of eternity."

-Damon Salvatore to Katherine.

I'm sorry but I had to do this.

Hello there, it's not Darshini Mahendan here.

I am Vivian Tan Bo Yee, her best friend in the whole wide world, who has just hacked into her blog, to tell her this ;

I love you so very much! You are one amazing best friend, and I am very, very grateful to have you in my life. :
You are precious, and I love you just the way you are. Remember that. :)

And oh, your password is sooo very predictable. So, change it before someone else figures it out. :P

-More pictures, when you are back here! :)

-vi-

Things that are currently on my mind

From least important to most :

- I don't like certain people's mentality where they're still in this small bubble that ..well, it's just plain SEXIST. Gender bias. And when you reason with them expecting a educational interesting discussion, all you get is crap. crap crap crap crap. O.o'' And then it's like they don't get the point because they don't listen, egoistic much.

- Need to go grocery shopping! :O Need to get shampoo, conditioner, FOOD, hair-tie (cause I lost mine and have been using Chimp's hairclip) ..so many things to buy.

- Thinking of going to watch Mayakam Yenna or something? Mum said to go watch. She NEVER asks me to go watch movies. Well, okay that's an overstatement. =.= She seldom does it. So I'm kinda curious about this. But I can't cause
(i) Exams are coming up
(ii) Henrina don't watch tamil movies, Karu going KL, Darsh already watched
(iii) EXAMS.

- Grace. Is she really out of my life for real? Is this it?

- Christmas :)

-Can't wait to go back home!! LIKE I WANT TO GO HOME RIGHT NOW.

-EXAMS :( :(

- Sigh hev. I'm sorry.