Spent the RM200 book voucher! RM100 on stationeries and the other RM100 on books. :)
I also bought a whiteboarddd. AND I WILL USE IT. UH HUH UH HUH
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Friday, March 23, 2012
Faham faham sendiri lah ya
I don't get it what' up with people and their issues on me studying? Saying stuffs like I'm only going to them when I'm ''free'' and when I'm not, I leave. That I'm using them.
This angers me so much.
Why can't you think that ''ohh she needs to study, she have exams, I better give her space''? Yeah, if you don't know, this is something about me.
Calling, sure. Texting sure. But if I reply late or say I have to go, TAK PAYAH lah jadi upset. So drama.
I'll get back to you when I'm dong with my exams lah.
Like for example,I had an exam today, the subject I'm VERY WEAK AT. Microbiology and Neoplasia. Both two chapts I have problem with. So I am obviously going to study hard for it right?
So if I text late or what,you don't have to go all ''lol sure. go do what u want'' on me.
1. That just ruins my mood and it'll affect my studying mood for the rest of the day/night. And trust me, this gets me VERY UPSET. I have to be in the mood to study. Don't ruin it.
2. HELLO? WHY THE DRAMA FOR? I know that you miss me, hello, I miss you too. But what, you gonna come and sit for my exam for me is it? You're going to write the paper and pass for me? You going to explain to my parents why I fail? And my exam goes on for YEARS RIGHT? it's only for a few days and that also you can't let me do it in peace.
Kay fine. To put it bluntly,
Yes, I will go facebook and all, but that's up to me on my relaxation. If I feel like texting, then I'll text. If I feel like going fb, then I'll go. Let me do what I want lah kays.
Dah lah exam stress, why the heck you adding more stress?
AND then I tell you ''I'm going to go sleep, I slept for 2 and a half hours last night..tired'' you reply me ''Right yea, sure. Later then.'' and ''go sleep. or online. whatever you want.''
What's up with that? the right yea sure. Sarcasm much?
1. I did sleep for that much okay. I don't have to lie about my sleeping time.
2. Cold much? Don't mess with someone who lacks sleep and is tired okay.
I am so pissed. I don't get people who gets angry at me for studying.
HELLO, that's my first responsibility.
Hell yea, it comes first.
Don't ruin my mood.
Oh wait, you already ruined it. Thanks.
I came back happy because exam finished and I texted you and this is what I get, stuffs that I used you.
Sigh can't do anything about your mentality la.
Whatever.
I'm going to sleep.
Sorry for the grumpy post. I just had an exhausting week. Thanks for being so ''understanding''.
oh and btw, today's microbio/neoplasia paper, CONFIRM FAIL.
go gloat and be happy about it.
This angers me so much.
Why can't you think that ''ohh she needs to study, she have exams, I better give her space''? Yeah, if you don't know, this is something about me.
When I study, I NEED my freaking space.
Calling, sure. Texting sure. But if I reply late or say I have to go, TAK PAYAH lah jadi upset. So drama.
I'll get back to you when I'm dong with my exams lah.
Like for example,I had an exam today, the subject I'm VERY WEAK AT. Microbiology and Neoplasia. Both two chapts I have problem with. So I am obviously going to study hard for it right?
So if I text late or what,you don't have to go all ''lol sure. go do what u want'' on me.
1. That just ruins my mood and it'll affect my studying mood for the rest of the day/night. And trust me, this gets me VERY UPSET. I have to be in the mood to study. Don't ruin it.
2. HELLO? WHY THE DRAMA FOR? I know that you miss me, hello, I miss you too. But what, you gonna come and sit for my exam for me is it? You're going to write the paper and pass for me? You going to explain to my parents why I fail? And my exam goes on for YEARS RIGHT? it's only for a few days and that also you can't let me do it in peace.
Kay fine. To put it bluntly,
I WANT MY SPACE WHEN IT'S NEARING EXAM OR EXAM WEEK.
Yes, I will go facebook and all, but that's up to me on my relaxation. If I feel like texting, then I'll text. If I feel like going fb, then I'll go. Let me do what I want lah kays.
Dah lah exam stress, why the heck you adding more stress?
AND then I tell you ''I'm going to go sleep, I slept for 2 and a half hours last night..tired'' you reply me ''Right yea, sure. Later then.'' and ''go sleep. or online. whatever you want.''
What's up with that? the right yea sure. Sarcasm much?
1. I did sleep for that much okay. I don't have to lie about my sleeping time.
2. Cold much? Don't mess with someone who lacks sleep and is tired okay.
I am so pissed. I don't get people who gets angry at me for studying.
HELLO, that's my first responsibility.
Hell yea, it comes first.
Don't ruin my mood.
Oh wait, you already ruined it. Thanks.
I came back happy because exam finished and I texted you and this is what I get, stuffs that I used you.
Sigh can't do anything about your mentality la.
Whatever.
I'm going to sleep.
Sorry for the grumpy post. I just had an exhausting week. Thanks for being so ''understanding''.
oh and btw, today's microbio/neoplasia paper, CONFIRM FAIL.
go gloat and be happy about it.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
SPM RESULTS OUT!
I am so very proud of Arun for achieving straight 10 A+s! That isn't something easy to do, and it is definitely not easy if you studied in RMC, what with the ragging and the marching and the intense physical activities. Not to mention the stress and all the depressing times he had to go through during his form 4.
But anyways, he did his best! and his best shows! I am so proud of him.
Arun is yes, indeed very hard working and dedicated to whatever he wants to do but one thing about him is that he make sure that he loves what he does! He'd always tell me to love what I'm doing and everything else would be fine. And from there, the interest would come, and it wouldn't feel like a burden.
And he love what he does. I remember in the beginning he found it so hard but then he motivated himself. Yeah, another thing about himself, so full of motivation.
Anyways, so very proud of him! VERYPROUD. :)
And to all my friends, I am so happy for each and everyone of them. Those who got straight As, 9As, 8As, 7As, etc. I think they're all great results! :) All I see are stars haha :)
All the best to everyone on their future! :)
But anyways, he did his best! and his best shows! I am so proud of him.
Arun is yes, indeed very hard working and dedicated to whatever he wants to do but one thing about him is that he make sure that he loves what he does! He'd always tell me to love what I'm doing and everything else would be fine. And from there, the interest would come, and it wouldn't feel like a burden.
And he love what he does. I remember in the beginning he found it so hard but then he motivated himself. Yeah, another thing about himself, so full of motivation.
Anyways, so very proud of him! VERYPROUD. :)
And to all my friends, I am so happy for each and everyone of them. Those who got straight As, 9As, 8As, 7As, etc. I think they're all great results! :) All I see are stars haha :)
All the best to everyone on their future! :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
CA3 UH HUH UH HUH
3am in the morning! still awakeee. dead sleepy. should sleep but want to study instead. but funny part, NOT STUDYING!
O.O'' its like my eyes read the notes, orbicularis oculi comes into motion! (muscle that closes the eye btw). and the minute I get off my notes, well still sleepy but the force shutting the eyes ain't there.
Ohhh and SPM results out today! Somewhere around 10.30 a.m. I am so excited and nervous for my brother. Hope everything goes well, not only for him but for Vi's bro and Vino's sis. ALLIZZZWELL.
KAYBACKTOTHENOTES!
or maybe..
to bed?
O.O'' its like my eyes read the notes, orbicularis oculi comes into motion! (muscle that closes the eye btw). and the minute I get off my notes, well still sleepy but the force shutting the eyes ain't there.
Ohhh and SPM results out today! Somewhere around 10.30 a.m. I am so excited and nervous for my brother. Hope everything goes well, not only for him but for Vi's bro and Vino's sis. ALLIZZZWELL.
KAYBACKTOTHENOTES!
or maybe..
to bed?
Monday, March 19, 2012
In my face
I've always said that your happiness should not depend on other people. It should not depend on other people and it should not depend on materialistic things. Materialistic things can go missing and people walk away.
There are people who can one day wake up and realise you're not worth it anymore. There are people whom you trust but they always doubt you and hurt you in the process. There are people who lie, cheat and bitch about you behind your back. There are people who prioritise and you're not even on the list, even though they're on yours.
And these are the people whom you love.
You can't control what they do or how they think because that is not within your power. What you can control is yourself.
You should learn to be independent. That you can go anywhere in the world alone, have nobody and still be contented with yourself.
It's called inner peace.
If your happiness depends on other people, if you're the kind of person who is happy when someone's around and sad when someone's not there with you, then you will never be happy.
Like me.
There are people who can one day wake up and realise you're not worth it anymore. There are people whom you trust but they always doubt you and hurt you in the process. There are people who lie, cheat and bitch about you behind your back. There are people who prioritise and you're not even on the list, even though they're on yours.
And these are the people whom you love.
You can't control what they do or how they think because that is not within your power. What you can control is yourself.
You should learn to be independent. That you can go anywhere in the world alone, have nobody and still be contented with yourself.
It's called inner peace.
If your happiness depends on other people, if you're the kind of person who is happy when someone's around and sad when someone's not there with you, then you will never be happy.
Like me.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
CA3
It's next week. Now it's 10.57pm Thursday night. Will be Friday in an hour. And then two days to exams.
I'm not ready. But I can't concentrate and study. Instead I feel so relaxed.
Why? And how come?
I've been memorising Anatomy since 8pm just now and I'm still in the first page. All I've got is that :
Rectus sheath. One on each side of the linea alba. It has three formations, above the costal margin, between the costal margin and the arcuate line and below the arcuate line. Above the costal margin, anteriorly the external oblique is located. Posteriorly, is the rectus muscle, which is directly on the ribs and the costal cartilages. Between the costal margin and the arcuate line, the anterior wall is made up by the fusion of the external oblique aponeurosis and the anterior lamella of the internal oblique. The posterior wall is made up by the fusion of the posterior lamella of the internal oblique and the transverse abdominis.
Anddd..that's it. I haven't even completed the Rectus sheath. It's just a freaking sheath. And there's so much to describle. I haven't even finish the formation, and there's muscles, innervvations, arteries and clinical aspects. LIKE WHATTT? -.- And so many others to go.
Anatomy is on Tuesday. Biochem & Pharmaco is on Monday. I've still few chapts of Biochem & Pharmaco to go, and lots of memorising. And yet I'm online and feel sleepy like a lot, all the time.
:(
I'm not ready. But I can't concentrate and study. Instead I feel so relaxed.
Why? And how come?
I've been memorising Anatomy since 8pm just now and I'm still in the first page. All I've got is that :
Rectus sheath. One on each side of the linea alba. It has three formations, above the costal margin, between the costal margin and the arcuate line and below the arcuate line. Above the costal margin, anteriorly the external oblique is located. Posteriorly, is the rectus muscle, which is directly on the ribs and the costal cartilages. Between the costal margin and the arcuate line, the anterior wall is made up by the fusion of the external oblique aponeurosis and the anterior lamella of the internal oblique. The posterior wall is made up by the fusion of the posterior lamella of the internal oblique and the transverse abdominis.
Anddd..that's it. I haven't even completed the Rectus sheath. It's just a freaking sheath. And there's so much to describle. I haven't even finish the formation, and there's muscles, innervvations, arteries and clinical aspects. LIKE WHATTT? -.- And so many others to go.
Anatomy is on Tuesday. Biochem & Pharmaco is on Monday. I've still few chapts of Biochem & Pharmaco to go, and lots of memorising. And yet I'm online and feel sleepy like a lot, all the time.
:(
Sunday, March 11, 2012
When I have a baby
I'm going to take soo many pics and videos !! I'm even going to turn this blog into like,my baby's blog.. :)
To capture every single memory! :)
To capture every single memory! :)
Saturday, March 10, 2012
When You Find Yourself Brad Paisley
When you find yourself
In some far off place
And it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly
You're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself
When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settlin' down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself
Where you go through life
So sure of where you’re headin'
And you wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that’s when you find yourself
When you meet the one
That you've been waitin' for
And she's everything that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for some one else
And then you find yourself
That’s when you find yourself
When we go through life
So sure of where we're headin'
And we wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself
Friday, March 9, 2012
John Mayer - Say What You Need To Say
Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations
Say what you need to say [x8]
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .
Say what you need to say [x8]
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations
Say what you need to say [x8]
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .
Say what you need to say [x8]
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say
To you :)
Hey. I've been pretty horrible myself. I'm sorry.
And you've done everything right. I guess yeah you've hurt me, but I've done the same too. We're even.
But we just swallow each other with so much love that we're okay.
I think we're the perfect example of best friends.
Because I love you so much.
And I know you love me so much too. THAT you can't deny. ;)
I miss you like crazy. Can't wait to see you.
Till' then, try not to scold me kays :( Damn hurting. :(
And I'll try to..err..be cuter? hahaha :D
:)
And you've done everything right. I guess yeah you've hurt me, but I've done the same too. We're even.
But we just swallow each other with so much love that we're okay.
I think we're the perfect example of best friends.
Because I love you so much.
And I know you love me so much too. THAT you can't deny. ;)
I miss you like crazy. Can't wait to see you.
Till' then, try not to scold me kays :( Damn hurting. :(
And I'll try to..err..be cuter? hahaha :D
:)
Awhh :)
Actually it'll be that way. Once you've tasted the best, you can't find anything better. :P
And hey, I'm sorry that I haven't been keeping in touch. I just had a lot of things going on, things that I just need to sort out. By myself. It's about time I start being independent and stop relying on people kan?
And change your number to a DIGI number please? then we can text. Get Super Buddies digi 010 number. It will be less than RM20. Trust me, it's worth it. :)
There are three ways to look at it :
1. I think it's great that you have your walls up, because then you'll know who would go all the way to break them down/climb over them to reach to you.
2. But then again, maybe you should explore more and learn social skills. Mix with people and mingle freely with the crowd.
3. BUT then again, I think it's great that you enjoy solitude too. I'd like to have that, being on my own and being comfortable with no other company but myself. That's true peace. To go anywhere in the world and be alright, because you enjoy your own company. I don't have that, I yearn for that. The moment I'm alone, I feel lost and panic easily.
I'm sorry that I can't help you in any way. I'm very much working on myself too at the moment. I can't be giving you advices when I'm failing on taking them myself. I just, haven't been on the right mind lately.
But I'm getting there.
And you get DIGI.
And after my exams, we can have the talks we use to have back then.
I miss you too. :)
And hey, I'm sorry that I haven't been keeping in touch. I just had a lot of things going on, things that I just need to sort out. By myself. It's about time I start being independent and stop relying on people kan?
And change your number to a DIGI number please? then we can text. Get Super Buddies digi 010 number. It will be less than RM20. Trust me, it's worth it. :)
There are three ways to look at it :
1. I think it's great that you have your walls up, because then you'll know who would go all the way to break them down/climb over them to reach to you.
2. But then again, maybe you should explore more and learn social skills. Mix with people and mingle freely with the crowd.
3. BUT then again, I think it's great that you enjoy solitude too. I'd like to have that, being on my own and being comfortable with no other company but myself. That's true peace. To go anywhere in the world and be alright, because you enjoy your own company. I don't have that, I yearn for that. The moment I'm alone, I feel lost and panic easily.
I'm sorry that I can't help you in any way. I'm very much working on myself too at the moment. I can't be giving you advices when I'm failing on taking them myself. I just, haven't been on the right mind lately.
But I'm getting there.
And you get DIGI.
And after my exams, we can have the talks we use to have back then.
I miss you too. :)
It doesn't matter how you do it,
as long as you do it.
About God.
There are people who will tell you that the way you do it is wrong.
They may say things like ''she talks to God like He's some kind of a hippy'' or ''she knows nothing about the Bible'' just because you don't recite Bible verses every day of your life.
Don't let them bother you.
You can talk to Him any way you're comfortable with. :)
Because not everyone is born into a religious family (though that is very ideal :) ). Everyone is born into different situations and while some find it right to kneel and pray, others may find it uncomfortable.
I think you can best talk to Him when it's quiet and when you're alone. That is when you can truly get in touch with your feelings and thoughts and listen to Him reaching out to you.
But the way I do it? I like talking to Him every part of my day. I can be walking back to my apartment, looking at the beautiful sky and say ''Ohhh heyy, check out Your art today, it's beautiful. :) '' . And when something embarassing happens to me, I say out loud, ''God is laughinggg..sighh''. And I mean it. I include him on every emotion I feel, that way I feel like He is constantly watching me.
I don't open in prayer because I never close it. And I'm comfortable that way. There are times when I sit quietly and pray. But I talk to him every other part of the day too.
I know of people who didn't know how to talk to God and Jesus because they grew up not having prayed any one day of their lives. So the priest said, to put a chair facing them, and talk to the chair as if Jesus is there, sitting down and listening. Worked like a charm.
So you stick to your own way.
If you feel comfortable blogging to God, writing letters to Him, talking to Him or even talking to Him through a chair, do it.
Don't let people tell you it's wrong and that their way is right.
Because well, I know Him.
And yes,
it really doesn't matter how you reach out to Him..
as long as you do. :)
About God.
There are people who will tell you that the way you do it is wrong.
They may say things like ''she talks to God like He's some kind of a hippy'' or ''she knows nothing about the Bible'' just because you don't recite Bible verses every day of your life.
Don't let them bother you.
You can talk to Him any way you're comfortable with. :)
Because not everyone is born into a religious family (though that is very ideal :) ). Everyone is born into different situations and while some find it right to kneel and pray, others may find it uncomfortable.
I think you can best talk to Him when it's quiet and when you're alone. That is when you can truly get in touch with your feelings and thoughts and listen to Him reaching out to you.
But the way I do it? I like talking to Him every part of my day. I can be walking back to my apartment, looking at the beautiful sky and say ''Ohhh heyy, check out Your art today, it's beautiful. :) '' . And when something embarassing happens to me, I say out loud, ''God is laughinggg..sighh''. And I mean it. I include him on every emotion I feel, that way I feel like He is constantly watching me.
I don't open in prayer because I never close it. And I'm comfortable that way. There are times when I sit quietly and pray. But I talk to him every other part of the day too.
I know of people who didn't know how to talk to God and Jesus because they grew up not having prayed any one day of their lives. So the priest said, to put a chair facing them, and talk to the chair as if Jesus is there, sitting down and listening. Worked like a charm.
So you stick to your own way.
If you feel comfortable blogging to God, writing letters to Him, talking to Him or even talking to Him through a chair, do it.
Don't let people tell you it's wrong and that their way is right.
Because well, I know Him.
And yes,
it really doesn't matter how you reach out to Him..
as long as you do. :)
People Throw Rocks At Things That Shine
A lot of things have been going on I guess, and I have been occupied. Either with my studies, my thoughts, my emotions, my daily activities. Most of my time goes to studying and thinking. Thinking about everything.
I am not a strong person, and no matter how many times I repeat to myself that I am, I know I am not there yet. I would love to stand up and tell people what I really think about them, because..well, if they can do that to me, why do I still worry about hurting their feelings?
The FACT is I am better. And that I know. Because the fact that I care and still feel, I know that I've reached maturity and understanding, rather than all the immature people who calls themselves mature. More like blinding themselves.
My opinion.
Well anyways, I just wanted to blog one last post about everything that has happened and the very valuable lessons that I have learned.
1. People can be nice to you on the outside and be nasty behind your back.
I should really work on my people perception. Honestly, I believe people easily. I always said that we should give people the benefit of the doubt, but after what happened, I've realised that I don't JUST give people the benefit of the doubt, I perceive them as doing all the goodness. In my head, I'm always justifying them. *shrug* Shouldn't do that kan? haha.
2. People are nice to you only if you're not in their way of getting something they want.
Uh huh. There are people whom you would never have imagined, to use you in that way. And then justifying their actions by pointing out many other's mistakes. It's a fallacy really, arguing about those who are arguing rather than the argument itself. For people like that, it is VERY hard to talk sense into them. Because they are always going to find ways to prove you wrong, even if you're right. You just gotta learn to walk away sometimes. Because you can only help a person so far, they gotta help themselves too.
3. People exaggerate because they love drama.
I suppose from watching all the series, they'd like to implement Gossip Girl and Desperate Housewives into real life. Hey, no doubt, it makes life interesting, but pointless dramas get you nowhere. It exhausts you. Mentally, emotionally, and it also takes up a lot of your time. When people try to stir up something with you, just walk away. You don't need the drama, and the people, well, think about it. Thoroughly.
4. Do not classify people into two groups : the good and the bad. It doesn't work that way.
It really doesn't. The 'good' you know now can do bad things and the 'bad' you know now can do good things. It may surprise you. The latter is a good surprise, the former, well, not so much. Learned that the hard way. People whom you once considered 'best friends' can use you and throw your years of friendship away for a guy they know on facebook for a month. Those who goes around preaching about God and reciting Bible verses can go around bitching about people and saying pointless nasty things, without any proof. Anyone can say they have the right to their own opinions, but I think it is their opinions that make them who they are. See what kind of thoughts lies in their heads, and you know the people they really are.
Do not classify people into two groups, rather classify people into choices. People can make good choices and bad choices. And it's okay. As long as they one day learn from their mistakes.
5. You can only be responsible for what you say and not for what others understand.
So choose your words wisely. And if the other party does not understand no matter how many times you explain it to them, then well, there's nothing you can do about it. Smile and walk away.
6. Don't let people's opinions about you get to you.
As long as you know who you are and the things you do, as long as you know your values and you stick by them, you're fine. People throw rocks at things that shine.
7. Note the people who stand by your side, and the people who walk away.
And appreciate the ones who stay. Love them and let them know that they are indeed very important. Tell them that they make you happy, that they brighten up your days. Tell them everyday, and if they forget, remind them.
8. No matter what happens, you can always turn to God.
Some might say He doesn't respond but you have to listen closely and hear him out. You can hear Him in the quietness of the day or while reading His word. You can always find comfort when you talk to Him, because even when the world is against you or you're down on your knees, just tell yourself 'God Knows'. God knows everything. He knows your strength and your weaknesses, He knows you and all of you. He sees. I've also come to learned that sure, I might have a strong drive to stand up for justice and the weak, stand up for those who have no say and those who are scared to speak up..but sometimes, you can't make much of a difference. And at a time when you feel that the cause you're fighting for is letting you down, you just need to remind yourself that the only one you should be standing up for is God. All the other goodness and values comes in the package.
''For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. To set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.''
And above all, I've learned to honestly, forgive, forget and let go. Only the strong can do that, and this is why I say I'm weak. But I'm working on it. :)
And yea, people throw rocks at things that shine.
Honest, people who doesn't have me in their lives, it's their loss. I go to sleep every night knowing that for sure. It's not bragging but I know my capabilities. I know how much I love and how much I care. Throughout these messes, I've learned a lot on my gifts. My spirit, passion, love, care and my strength for those who I love.
I can honestly tell you that you can't find another person like me out there. For all those who really truly know me, they'd agree.
No, not bragging. I just try to be the best person I possibly can and I never stop trying.
I've learned from these life lessons. I can only pray that they've learned too. :)
And with this,
With the messes they brought and their leaving,
I close this chapter of my book.
And I'm never going to open them again.
:)
I am not a strong person, and no matter how many times I repeat to myself that I am, I know I am not there yet. I would love to stand up and tell people what I really think about them, because..well, if they can do that to me, why do I still worry about hurting their feelings?
The FACT is I am better. And that I know. Because the fact that I care and still feel, I know that I've reached maturity and understanding, rather than all the immature people who calls themselves mature. More like blinding themselves.
My opinion.
Well anyways, I just wanted to blog one last post about everything that has happened and the very valuable lessons that I have learned.
1. People can be nice to you on the outside and be nasty behind your back.
I should really work on my people perception. Honestly, I believe people easily. I always said that we should give people the benefit of the doubt, but after what happened, I've realised that I don't JUST give people the benefit of the doubt, I perceive them as doing all the goodness. In my head, I'm always justifying them. *shrug* Shouldn't do that kan? haha.
2. People are nice to you only if you're not in their way of getting something they want.
Uh huh. There are people whom you would never have imagined, to use you in that way. And then justifying their actions by pointing out many other's mistakes. It's a fallacy really, arguing about those who are arguing rather than the argument itself. For people like that, it is VERY hard to talk sense into them. Because they are always going to find ways to prove you wrong, even if you're right. You just gotta learn to walk away sometimes. Because you can only help a person so far, they gotta help themselves too.
3. People exaggerate because they love drama.
I suppose from watching all the series, they'd like to implement Gossip Girl and Desperate Housewives into real life. Hey, no doubt, it makes life interesting, but pointless dramas get you nowhere. It exhausts you. Mentally, emotionally, and it also takes up a lot of your time. When people try to stir up something with you, just walk away. You don't need the drama, and the people, well, think about it. Thoroughly.
4. Do not classify people into two groups : the good and the bad. It doesn't work that way.
It really doesn't. The 'good' you know now can do bad things and the 'bad' you know now can do good things. It may surprise you. The latter is a good surprise, the former, well, not so much. Learned that the hard way. People whom you once considered 'best friends' can use you and throw your years of friendship away for a guy they know on facebook for a month. Those who goes around preaching about God and reciting Bible verses can go around bitching about people and saying pointless nasty things, without any proof. Anyone can say they have the right to their own opinions, but I think it is their opinions that make them who they are. See what kind of thoughts lies in their heads, and you know the people they really are.
Do not classify people into two groups, rather classify people into choices. People can make good choices and bad choices. And it's okay. As long as they one day learn from their mistakes.
5. You can only be responsible for what you say and not for what others understand.
So choose your words wisely. And if the other party does not understand no matter how many times you explain it to them, then well, there's nothing you can do about it. Smile and walk away.
6. Don't let people's opinions about you get to you.
As long as you know who you are and the things you do, as long as you know your values and you stick by them, you're fine. People throw rocks at things that shine.
7. Note the people who stand by your side, and the people who walk away.
And appreciate the ones who stay. Love them and let them know that they are indeed very important. Tell them that they make you happy, that they brighten up your days. Tell them everyday, and if they forget, remind them.
8. No matter what happens, you can always turn to God.
Some might say He doesn't respond but you have to listen closely and hear him out. You can hear Him in the quietness of the day or while reading His word. You can always find comfort when you talk to Him, because even when the world is against you or you're down on your knees, just tell yourself 'God Knows'. God knows everything. He knows your strength and your weaknesses, He knows you and all of you. He sees. I've also come to learned that sure, I might have a strong drive to stand up for justice and the weak, stand up for those who have no say and those who are scared to speak up..but sometimes, you can't make much of a difference. And at a time when you feel that the cause you're fighting for is letting you down, you just need to remind yourself that the only one you should be standing up for is God. All the other goodness and values comes in the package.
''For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. To set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.''
And above all, I've learned to honestly, forgive, forget and let go. Only the strong can do that, and this is why I say I'm weak. But I'm working on it. :)
And yea, people throw rocks at things that shine.
Honest, people who doesn't have me in their lives, it's their loss. I go to sleep every night knowing that for sure. It's not bragging but I know my capabilities. I know how much I love and how much I care. Throughout these messes, I've learned a lot on my gifts. My spirit, passion, love, care and my strength for those who I love.
I can honestly tell you that you can't find another person like me out there. For all those who really truly know me, they'd agree.
No, not bragging. I just try to be the best person I possibly can and I never stop trying.
I've learned from these life lessons. I can only pray that they've learned too. :)
And with this,
With the messes they brought and their leaving,
I close this chapter of my book.
And I'm never going to open them again.
:)
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Thursday, March 1, 2012
It's okay
Don't be afraid of changes.
Always remember, God will never take anything away from you without the intention of replacing it with something much better. :)
Always remember, God will never take anything away from you without the intention of replacing it with something much better. :)
Overrated much?
It was cultural night last night. Thought would've spent the night enjoying the performances and all but talk about things going bad. o.o Drama comes when it's least expected eh?
Well running around, worrying etc..then we all finally ended up in the GRAND HALL of AIMST. And then during one of the performances, one of the guy had a seizure and everyone thought it was part of the performance. And then there were screaming and the lights came on and everyone stood up, questioning ''ARE THEY FOR REAL??'' ..the boy had to go to the hospital but he was alright. It was a mild seizure due to the blinking lights.
Oh! The lights were gorgeous! :) I just kept staring at the lights and Darsh asked me ''Who are you checking out?'' .. O.o'' I was like ''Um..the lights?'' hahaha..
And then there was another performance..this guy was singing and he accidently put his leg on the spotlight and broke it. O.o And the music stopped and he went off the stage. Everyone clapped yea but it was kinda cuteee. hahaha couldn't help laughinggg at his cuteness!
And then the lucky draw! And that's when we realised we all lost our tickets. So much for not keeping them right? =.='' So every number they announced that no one came up we were like ''OMGGGGG IT'S US!!!'' It was like a real heart attack moment.. Crazy much haha.. And noo there was only ONE number that no one came up to claim anything. Could be us. One day I'll be telling my kids on how we ALMOST won the lucky draw. The EPIC part was after all the heart attack and the lucky draw ended, Henny turned to me and was like 'Nahhh it's all a bunch of numbers and prizes, it's nothing la'' .. hahahaha.
So the day ended with ..us sleeping. And not waking up for class the next day and missing a test. Going for lunch and coming back up to clean our room only to give up halfway and pay some people to clean the room for us. We're pigs like that.
Presentation tomorrow. Didn't change the topic from Autism to Peer pressure because..well *shrug* Haha :)
Well running around, worrying etc..then we all finally ended up in the GRAND HALL of AIMST. And then during one of the performances, one of the guy had a seizure and everyone thought it was part of the performance. And then there were screaming and the lights came on and everyone stood up, questioning ''ARE THEY FOR REAL??'' ..the boy had to go to the hospital but he was alright. It was a mild seizure due to the blinking lights.
Oh! The lights were gorgeous! :) I just kept staring at the lights and Darsh asked me ''Who are you checking out?'' .. O.o'' I was like ''Um..the lights?'' hahaha..
And then there was another performance..this guy was singing and he accidently put his leg on the spotlight and broke it. O.o And the music stopped and he went off the stage. Everyone clapped yea but it was kinda cuteee. hahaha couldn't help laughinggg at his cuteness!
And then the lucky draw! And that's when we realised we all lost our tickets. So much for not keeping them right? =.='' So every number they announced that no one came up we were like ''OMGGGGG IT'S US!!!'' It was like a real heart attack moment.. Crazy much haha.. And noo there was only ONE number that no one came up to claim anything. Could be us. One day I'll be telling my kids on how we ALMOST won the lucky draw. The EPIC part was after all the heart attack and the lucky draw ended, Henny turned to me and was like 'Nahhh it's all a bunch of numbers and prizes, it's nothing la'' .. hahahaha.
So the day ended with ..us sleeping. And not waking up for class the next day and missing a test. Going for lunch and coming back up to clean our room only to give up halfway and pay some people to clean the room for us. We're pigs like that.
Presentation tomorrow. Didn't change the topic from Autism to Peer pressure because..well *shrug* Haha :)
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