It's just a PEACEFUL rally lahhh.. ==''
What lah you ''people'' .. ==''
Stop all the nonsense lah please... ==''
-Will no longer try to reason educated-ly as there is no point.-
==''
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
''You Mean More To Me Than Anyone I've Ever Loved At All''
There's a story I love from Her Fearful Symmetry. This story is not exactly the main story, it's just there, at the background..a sub-plot. But I love it so much if I think about this book, I'd remember this first.
About Martin and Marijke.
They've been married for years. Elderly couple. Martin has OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). He refuses to step out of his apartment. All his things are in boxes. He doesn't like the sunlight so he covers the windows up with newspapers. He cleans, a lot. He would just keep scrubbing at a place for hours until he is fully satisfied that the area is clean. He wears gloves as he refuses to have skin contact with anything.
He goes around his house in a fixed manner as to avoid making a mess or leaving prints where he knew he would have to scrub for hours later on. He counts to himself when he gets nervous. Also to stick to his routine. Like when he shaves, he knows the exact seconds before he shaves the other side of his face. He times his hand movements. When something goes wrong, he gets these panic attacks.
Marijke. She couldn't take it anymore, living with him. To always watch out for him and took care of him. So one day she decides to leave. Stayed somewhere far from him, got a job and an apartment where she allowed sunlight to stream in and she had a cat.
She called every month at first but then she realised it's because she missed him, so she stopped.
He, missed her so much. He thinks about her all the time. He googled maps and asks himself ''If I were her, where would I live?'' .. and marks the places. He tried searching for her number or details..online of course. But he couldn't find her.
After more than a year of not seeing her, he started taking pills (because Julia..oh well, not important)..well yeah, Treatment pills. Now, this is hard for him because part of the disorder is refusing the treatment. But he took them.
And he started practicing.
He took off the newspapers on the window for the sunlight.
He stood at his doorway and looked down at the stairs, trying very hard to walk down, but he couldn't.
But one day he made up his mind. That he was going to find her.
He packed his things.
And off her went.
He forced himself down the stairs and out of the apartment.
When his taxi arrived, he went in and came back out breathing heavily. He was not used to it and he could feel his panic attack drawing close. After a few try, he made it in.
After the taxi, he took the train.
Then the bus.
Then another taxi.
He went pass borders.
5 hours journey.
To her place.
When he reached there, he practically ran up to her apartment, wanting to get in as fast as possible.
But once there, he realised she was not in.
He started having his panic attacks.
She came back from cycling and saw her Martin there at her doorstep, gasping for air.
She ran up to him, worried.
But he smiled and said ''I came to you, Marijke. I came to you.''
And then, she knew he loved her. Very much.
Marijke : Come on in Martin, it's getting late.
Martin : Let's have dinner.
Marijke : Sure..I'll just -
Martin : Outside. Let's eat out.
And I just couldn't stop marveling at the beauty of it. For us, it would seem easy, buses and trains.. but for him, it was like fighting dragons and dinosaurs.
But he did it. He braved through all his fears to get to her.
For all those times he had hurt her because of his OCD. The pain she had to go through for more than 30 years of taking care of him and not being happy at that.
She left thinking he wouldn't change.
But he did. And she didn't ask that of him.
Sometimes I think people hurt you not because they don't love you. It's because they don't know HOW to love you the way you want them to.
Martin & Marijke.
Sweetness. :)
About Martin and Marijke.
They've been married for years. Elderly couple. Martin has OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). He refuses to step out of his apartment. All his things are in boxes. He doesn't like the sunlight so he covers the windows up with newspapers. He cleans, a lot. He would just keep scrubbing at a place for hours until he is fully satisfied that the area is clean. He wears gloves as he refuses to have skin contact with anything.
He goes around his house in a fixed manner as to avoid making a mess or leaving prints where he knew he would have to scrub for hours later on. He counts to himself when he gets nervous. Also to stick to his routine. Like when he shaves, he knows the exact seconds before he shaves the other side of his face. He times his hand movements. When something goes wrong, he gets these panic attacks.
Marijke. She couldn't take it anymore, living with him. To always watch out for him and took care of him. So one day she decides to leave. Stayed somewhere far from him, got a job and an apartment where she allowed sunlight to stream in and she had a cat.
She called every month at first but then she realised it's because she missed him, so she stopped.
He, missed her so much. He thinks about her all the time. He googled maps and asks himself ''If I were her, where would I live?'' .. and marks the places. He tried searching for her number or details..online of course. But he couldn't find her.
After more than a year of not seeing her, he started taking pills (because Julia..oh well, not important)..well yeah, Treatment pills. Now, this is hard for him because part of the disorder is refusing the treatment. But he took them.
And he started practicing.
He took off the newspapers on the window for the sunlight.
He stood at his doorway and looked down at the stairs, trying very hard to walk down, but he couldn't.
But one day he made up his mind. That he was going to find her.
He packed his things.
And off her went.
He forced himself down the stairs and out of the apartment.
When his taxi arrived, he went in and came back out breathing heavily. He was not used to it and he could feel his panic attack drawing close. After a few try, he made it in.
After the taxi, he took the train.
Then the bus.
Then another taxi.
He went pass borders.
5 hours journey.
To her place.
When he reached there, he practically ran up to her apartment, wanting to get in as fast as possible.
But once there, he realised she was not in.
He started having his panic attacks.
She came back from cycling and saw her Martin there at her doorstep, gasping for air.
She ran up to him, worried.
But he smiled and said ''I came to you, Marijke. I came to you.''
And then, she knew he loved her. Very much.
Marijke : Come on in Martin, it's getting late.
Martin : Let's have dinner.
Marijke : Sure..I'll just -
Martin : Outside. Let's eat out.
And I just couldn't stop marveling at the beauty of it. For us, it would seem easy, buses and trains.. but for him, it was like fighting dragons and dinosaurs.
But he did it. He braved through all his fears to get to her.
For all those times he had hurt her because of his OCD. The pain she had to go through for more than 30 years of taking care of him and not being happy at that.
She left thinking he wouldn't change.
But he did. And she didn't ask that of him.
Sometimes I think people hurt you not because they don't love you. It's because they don't know HOW to love you the way you want them to.
Martin & Marijke.
Sweetness. :)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Nobody.
I always get so absorbed into books. I spent the entire day reading today. Sat by the window beside the piano and read. I don't usually sit there because I preferred my leather couch. Even on a hot day, the leather couch would feel cold.
But today I went over to the window. And sat there, listened to the water running in the fountain and I read.
I remembered today, for a while, I closed the book and began thinking about the characters. I thought for so long when I finally looked at the clock, an hour and a half had passed by.
And when I get so absorbed into books, I get absorbed into the characters' emotions as well. This novel I'm currently reading centers around death, love and longing. And how everyone just yearns to get away. It's sorta a depressing book with a secret beneath all the lies.
Before I read this book, I checked the reviews online. I always liked doing that. To expect what lies ahead so I won't be disappointed. The reviews were bad. Many said they were let down, it was boring.. and compared to Audrey's The Time Traveller's Wife, this is rather disappointing.
Her Fearful Symmetry.
But I don't feel it's boring at all.
Maybe it's because I understand the characters. Deeply at that.
To have loved and lost. And to yearn.
But also, I wonder, to have lost someone he loved for years. Someone who had became a part of him. So when she's gone, how does he move on exactly? To always feel like there's a part of you missing. Restless, tired. Feeling like wanting the feeling gone but nothing to do about it. People speak about ''accepting lost and moving on'' but how do they know exactly how does one feel?
Perhaps you can get over someone you loved once before, what's there to say it would be the same for someone else?
I think, love, everyone loves, yes.
But no one, loves the same.
So I've been going around the house feeling depressed.
Good news, I'm coming to an end. haha..
Will blog about the story soon. Well, maybe.
But I think maybe not.
I'd just rather not think about it.
But today I went over to the window. And sat there, listened to the water running in the fountain and I read.
I remembered today, for a while, I closed the book and began thinking about the characters. I thought for so long when I finally looked at the clock, an hour and a half had passed by.
And when I get so absorbed into books, I get absorbed into the characters' emotions as well. This novel I'm currently reading centers around death, love and longing. And how everyone just yearns to get away. It's sorta a depressing book with a secret beneath all the lies.
Before I read this book, I checked the reviews online. I always liked doing that. To expect what lies ahead so I won't be disappointed. The reviews were bad. Many said they were let down, it was boring.. and compared to Audrey's The Time Traveller's Wife, this is rather disappointing.
Her Fearful Symmetry.
But I don't feel it's boring at all.
Maybe it's because I understand the characters. Deeply at that.
To have loved and lost. And to yearn.
But also, I wonder, to have lost someone he loved for years. Someone who had became a part of him. So when she's gone, how does he move on exactly? To always feel like there's a part of you missing. Restless, tired. Feeling like wanting the feeling gone but nothing to do about it. People speak about ''accepting lost and moving on'' but how do they know exactly how does one feel?
Perhaps you can get over someone you loved once before, what's there to say it would be the same for someone else?
I think, love, everyone loves, yes.
But no one, loves the same.
So I've been going around the house feeling depressed.
Good news, I'm coming to an end. haha..
Will blog about the story soon. Well, maybe.
But I think maybe not.
I'd just rather not think about it.
28th June 2011
Happy Birthday!
Oi mangkuk Vinosha Nedunchelian! Today you turn 19. :) And no, it's SO NOT OLD lah. Chill. :) You're only old if you think you are. Plus, I believe every age has their adventures, ya' know? You've adventured the past 18 years of your life and now you will know what it's like being 19. And this stays the same when you're 50. :P Hahaha
Anyways, this blog post id dedicated to you on your special day. Know that I love you lots. You.. and a bunch of other sakais made my journey in CUCMS a very interesting one and I thank you for that. I'm thankful and very grateful to have met you in my life. Although you scared me at first :P
We first met on the first day of orientation during the registration. Remember? I sat beside you.
Me : Hi.. I'm Darshini :) *helds out hand*
You : I'm Vinosha. *no smile*
Me : Err.. Linosha?
You : Vi-nosha
Me : We-no-sha?
You : *angry voice - points at name on file* VI! NO-SHA.
Me : ..okay... :/
*conversation ends there* hahaha
Anyways, I've nothing much to tell cause everything I've already posted on your facebook wall. No, not the 'vomit blood' part, the other part. :P
You know me.. I'm very akward when it comes to feelings and emotions. I just don't know how to convey them right. :/ So if I post you many posts on facebook with my own words saying lovey-dovey stuffs, then rest assured, I mean them. :)
You're a freaking awesome person. Yes, you have this shell on the outside that on first impression people think you're serious and you don't take anything as funny. But only few of us know what you're like on the inside. That you joke with a serious face, and I find that hilarious! No expression girl. Definitely one of a kind. :P And I love that you're so loyal. You never meant anything bad to happen to anyone and you stick with them through thick and thin. You really listen to all my craps and bullshits (advice and lectures) and I can see you trying to put them into work. You worry, you think about everyone and you take things seriously, though not as serious as me. :P Oh wait, except for a few part.
Like that time I showed you the finger and you got emo and angry :
Hahaha.. hilarious. :) I just do these kind of things to annoy you. :p To see your awesome reaction.
All these little things makes you special in your very own way. And you're very special to me too. :) Eventhough we just met months ago, I look forward to getting to know you more and more. :) Despite this CUCMS prob. Kayyy don't want to talk about that haha.. And about the little quirks of yours .. *cough* ego *cough* jealousy *cough* .. it's always something to work on..as I have to work on mine. ;) That's what being friends is about. No matter what happens, through thick or thin, we'll be there for each other. And to accept and love each other for everything they are and everything they're not.
I guess I'm considered very lucky to have a handful of these friends. I know a few people who yearns to have a best friend, like how I have a FEW great ones. :) So yeah, psst, about your bday prezzie, I can only give it to you the next time I see you. And mind you, its $$ .. I don't want you go throwing it around here and there or I'll SMACK you hard. :P haha :) :)
Love you girl. Wish you tons of happiness and love and joy and kindness and blessings in your life. I hope you have a great life and when you're 90, you can look back at your journey and not have any regrets.
No regrets that you didn't say the things you should've said.
Regrets that you should've loved when you had the time.
No regrets that you should've accomplished what you dreamed your whole life.
No regrets. :) So live, be happy, be appreciative, be thankful, with everything.
Yes yes I know. ESSAY! :p
Oi mangkuk Vinosha Nedunchelian! Today you turn 19. :) And no, it's SO NOT OLD lah. Chill. :) You're only old if you think you are. Plus, I believe every age has their adventures, ya' know? You've adventured the past 18 years of your life and now you will know what it's like being 19. And this stays the same when you're 50. :P Hahaha
Anyways, this blog post id dedicated to you on your special day. Know that I love you lots. You.. and a bunch of other sakais made my journey in CUCMS a very interesting one and I thank you for that. I'm thankful and very grateful to have met you in my life. Although you scared me at first :P
We first met on the first day of orientation during the registration. Remember? I sat beside you.
Me : Hi.. I'm Darshini :) *helds out hand*
You : I'm Vinosha. *no smile*
Me : Err.. Linosha?
You : Vi-nosha
Me : We-no-sha?
You : *angry voice - points at name on file* VI! NO-SHA.
Me : ..okay... :/
*conversation ends there* hahaha
Anyways, I've nothing much to tell cause everything I've already posted on your facebook wall. No, not the 'vomit blood' part, the other part. :P
You know me.. I'm very akward when it comes to feelings and emotions. I just don't know how to convey them right. :/ So if I post you many posts on facebook with my own words saying lovey-dovey stuffs, then rest assured, I mean them. :)
You're a freaking awesome person. Yes, you have this shell on the outside that on first impression people think you're serious and you don't take anything as funny. But only few of us know what you're like on the inside. That you joke with a serious face, and I find that hilarious! No expression girl. Definitely one of a kind. :P And I love that you're so loyal. You never meant anything bad to happen to anyone and you stick with them through thick and thin. You really listen to all my craps and bullshits (advice and lectures) and I can see you trying to put them into work. You worry, you think about everyone and you take things seriously, though not as serious as me. :P Oh wait, except for a few part.
Like that time I showed you the finger and you got emo and angry :
''No one has ever showed me the middle finger before! :/''
Hahaha.. hilarious. :) I just do these kind of things to annoy you. :p To see your awesome reaction.
All these little things makes you special in your very own way. And you're very special to me too. :) Eventhough we just met months ago, I look forward to getting to know you more and more. :) Despite this CUCMS prob. Kayyy don't want to talk about that haha.. And about the little quirks of yours .. *cough* ego *cough* jealousy *cough* .. it's always something to work on..as I have to work on mine. ;) That's what being friends is about. No matter what happens, through thick or thin, we'll be there for each other. And to accept and love each other for everything they are and everything they're not.
I guess I'm considered very lucky to have a handful of these friends. I know a few people who yearns to have a best friend, like how I have a FEW great ones. :) So yeah, psst, about your bday prezzie, I can only give it to you the next time I see you. And mind you, its $$ .. I don't want you go throwing it around here and there or I'll SMACK you hard. :P haha :) :)
Love you girl. Wish you tons of happiness and love and joy and kindness and blessings in your life. I hope you have a great life and when you're 90, you can look back at your journey and not have any regrets.
No regrets that you didn't say the things you should've said.
Regrets that you should've loved when you had the time.
No regrets that you should've accomplished what you dreamed your whole life.
No regrets. :) So live, be happy, be appreciative, be thankful, with everything.
Yes yes I know. ESSAY! :p
VINOSHA NEDUNCHELIAN
28th June 1992
Turns 19th today.
I love you. :)
28th June 1992
Turns 19th today.
I love you. :)
Monday, June 27, 2011
Just. Yeap. :)
Past few weeks has been GREAT! :D
Won't blog about it cause you might get jealous ;D hahaha :)
Okay, it's not that. It's just me being lazy. Oh well. :P
College searching so far has been awesome.
Kay well, not so. :/ Ppl are refusing to accept my HORRIBLE results.
All A's but a C in Physics.
Yes HORRIBLE. :/
haha..that's sarcasm.
So anyways, going to go back to college to repeat Physics.
To get an A there, and then have straight A's.
But I doub't it. PHYSICS? A?? With DR.AZAH teaching? :/
Oh well, must try right? :) haha
Was browsing through my folders and I realised, I have a lot of kids pics in there. Babies esp. Everywhere I go, when I see kids, I snap pictures. They say if you start seeing kids everywhere, it's because you're ready for one. If that's true, that means I'm ready for one since I was 5 :P haha..
Anyways, here's one adorable boy .. Aww, it was night so couldn't get a clear pic with my 'awesome' camera.. :) But you can see his gorgeous smile. :) Sweetie.
:)
Won't blog about it cause you might get jealous ;D hahaha :)
Okay, it's not that. It's just me being lazy. Oh well. :P
College searching so far has been awesome.
Kay well, not so. :/ Ppl are refusing to accept my HORRIBLE results.
All A's but a C in Physics.
Yes HORRIBLE. :/
haha..that's sarcasm.
So anyways, going to go back to college to repeat Physics.
To get an A there, and then have straight A's.
But I doub't it. PHYSICS? A?? With DR.AZAH teaching? :/
Oh well, must try right? :) haha
Was browsing through my folders and I realised, I have a lot of kids pics in there. Babies esp. Everywhere I go, when I see kids, I snap pictures. They say if you start seeing kids everywhere, it's because you're ready for one. If that's true, that means I'm ready for one since I was 5 :P haha..
Anyways, here's one adorable boy .. Aww, it was night so couldn't get a clear pic with my 'awesome' camera.. :) But you can see his gorgeous smile. :) Sweetie.
Child's innocence. :)
:)
Friday, June 24, 2011
Amirul Zaki
Was chatting with him on facebook. After so long. Missed him a lot.
That is .. until.. :
=='' Gee.. thanks Mirul, thanks a lot. :( HAHAHA :D
But I tried to turn things around :
;)
That is .. until.. :
=='' Gee.. thanks Mirul, thanks a lot. :( HAHAHA :D
But I tried to turn things around :
;)
My weird mother
My grandma was telling me about the time when my mother had a serious condition at the age of 5.
One day, she just couldn't pull her tongue BACK into her mouth.
Yeap.
Her tongue just hang there for more than two hours. ==''
Everyone starts panicking.
Grandma brought my mother to the clinic.
The doctor tried to coax her into doing anything to pull her tongue back in.
But failed.
After many attempts, the doctor asked the nurse to go to a nearby shop and buy an ice-cream. o.o
When the nurse gave my mother the ice-cream, my mother took one lick and immediately her tongue went back in.
Grandma paid RM20 for the 'Doctor advice'.
My mother, and her genius attempt at getting an ice-cream.
That was what I thought at first.
Until my mother said she really couldn't pull her tongue back in. O.o''
Okay, that is ..insane.
Hahaha..
One day, she just couldn't pull her tongue BACK into her mouth.
Yeap.
Her tongue just hang there for more than two hours. ==''
Everyone starts panicking.
Grandma brought my mother to the clinic.
The doctor tried to coax her into doing anything to pull her tongue back in.
But failed.
After many attempts, the doctor asked the nurse to go to a nearby shop and buy an ice-cream. o.o
When the nurse gave my mother the ice-cream, my mother took one lick and immediately her tongue went back in.
Grandma paid RM20 for the 'Doctor advice'.
My mother, and her genius attempt at getting an ice-cream.
That was what I thought at first.
Until my mother said she really couldn't pull her tongue back in. O.o''
Okay, that is ..insane.
Hahaha..
Them.
I love how I can spend time with these girls are not feel like I have to change anything about myself. Sure, when I hang out with people as gorgeous and perfect as them, a part of me would feel imperfect. But they never make me feel like I need to change anything about myself.
I never felt like I take things too seriously. That I'm too uptight. That I've a big mouth which I can shut up. That sometimes I get too sarcastic. That I always lecture about values and proper atiquettes.
With them, I never thought I had to get in fashion or eat right to loose weight. I can just be myself, and I know they love me for it. :)
Miss them so much right now. :'(
Because I miss talking to them.
I miss hanging out with them.
I miss talking and sharing stories with them.
I miss going crazy with them.
Because I miss the person I am when I'm with them.
I never felt like I take things too seriously. That I'm too uptight. That I've a big mouth which I can shut up. That sometimes I get too sarcastic. That I always lecture about values and proper atiquettes.
With them, I never thought I had to get in fashion or eat right to loose weight. I can just be myself, and I know they love me for it. :)
Miss them so much right now. :'(
Because I miss talking to them.
I miss hanging out with them.
I miss talking and sharing stories with them.
I miss going crazy with them.
Because I miss the person I am when I'm with them.
Is currently
Reading : Audrey Niffenegger's Her Fearful Symmetry
Drinking : Bliss yogurt drink Apple Peach :)
Watching : Reruns of FRIENDS :)
Waiting to watch : The Adjustment Bureau
Drinking : Bliss yogurt drink Apple Peach :)
Watching : Reruns of FRIENDS :)
Waiting to watch : The Adjustment Bureau
Thursday, June 23, 2011
:)
The only girls who can handle me and love me for me..
so far are..
Dharshaini Grace.
Vivian Tan Bo Yee.
Anna Nicholas.
Patricia Anna.
And I know these are the ones who will babysit my children and my grandchildren at times when I'm busy. :)
so far are..
Dharshaini Grace.
Vivian Tan Bo Yee.
Anna Nicholas.
Patricia Anna.
And I know these are the ones who will babysit my children and my grandchildren at times when I'm busy. :)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
A Game Called Life
Just started watching a series about a woman who finds out she has cancer. Melanoma, stage 4, to be exact. And there are no treatments that can cure her disease.
She has a friendenemy relationship with her condition. A part of her accepts that she is dying and chooses to live life doing everything she wants while another part of her is angry that it is happening to her.
Just watched a few episodes and I'm already in love with it. It's boring if you're that kind of person who's all action and romantic comedy but I find myself learning a lot. To appreciate, to live, to love. Because we are all dying. It's just, her time is running out much faster than the rest of us.
Cathy Jamison: If you were ready to go, did you ever think about just going?
Marlene: Think about it all the time, but I just keep waking up.
Cathy Jamison and how she finds humour and happiness in her life, despite the fact that she has less than a year to live.
:)
Can't wait for the next epi. Love it. :)
She has a friendenemy relationship with her condition. A part of her accepts that she is dying and chooses to live life doing everything she wants while another part of her is angry that it is happening to her.
Just watched a few episodes and I'm already in love with it. It's boring if you're that kind of person who's all action and romantic comedy but I find myself learning a lot. To appreciate, to live, to love. Because we are all dying. It's just, her time is running out much faster than the rest of us.
Cathy Jamison: If you were ready to go, did you ever think about just going?
Marlene: Think about it all the time, but I just keep waking up.
The Big C
Cathy Jamison and how she finds humour and happiness in her life, despite the fact that she has less than a year to live.
:)
Can't wait for the next epi. Love it. :)
There are two kinds of people in this world..
Those who make your life easier — and those who make it harder.
Those whose presence helps you perform better — and those whose presence makes you do worse.
Those concerned about doing the work — and those concerned about getting the credit.
Those who leave you feeling up — and those who leave you feeling down.
Those who simplify — and those who complicate.
Those who takes matters into their own hands — and those who let matters solve themselves.Those who listen when others are talking — and those who wait when others are talking.
Those who give — and those who take.
Those who last — and those who fade.
Which are you?
Sunday, June 19, 2011
CUCMS dilemma
Today morning I headed out to CUCMS to get answers, or at least an explanation as to what is currently going on. Sat down with Dr.Basir and my grandparents and he explained thoroughly. And please keep in mind this is what I was told and I will try to sort this information is the easiest way to comprehend. Here, I'll start from the beginning :
The problem started when the Medical faculty accepted a total number of 236 students for batch 2010 when they were only allowed to take in 150students ( extra 86 students ). When news got out, CUCMS had their license revoked. However, they managed to appeal and got accredited. The batch of medical graduates that CUCMS just produced is recognised.
However, crime and punishment. CUCMS has to pay for the mistake they made. So now, CUCMS have to be accredited EVERY year for ..well, as long as MMC think is necessary. So every year they will come down and survey and then give the green light, or the red light. Also, MMC does not want CUCMS to have an MBBS intake this year, seeing as they were irresponsible and careless the last time. CUCMS is currently appealing for that though.
So now, the question is.. what are we to do next?
Plan A : Wait for CUCMS to get the green light for MBBS intake this year.
1. Will CUCMS get the green light?
Dr.Basir said they are hoping to get a favourable response although there have been indication that that is most likely. Though an indication is not enough, it should be in black & white. Yes, we want to know NOW, CUCMS wants to know NOW however.. it's the response from the MMC that we are waiting for. Without their answer, CUCMS can't tell us anything.
2. When will we get the response?
Dr.Basir said most probably next month. They're trying their best to get an answer A.S.A.P so that we can make the next move.
3. If all is well..
We continue into the medicine faculty in CUCMS provided that our results fits the criteria (I'll touch on this later).
So..what if CUCMS gets the red light instead?
That would be Plan B.
Plan B : We'd be transferred to other respectable ACCREDITED medical institutions.
1. How is that to happen?
CUCMS themselves will arrange for us to be transferred to other accredited universities. However, this is also 'kind of' restricted because other universities would ask of a higher cgpa and also, in our cases, physics. But as promised, CUCMS will do their best to get us into the best colleges for our circumstances.
If we don't want to wait and would rather instead take matters into our own hands
Plan C : We choose to leave CUCMS and head over to other medical institutions.
1. This is something we can do instead of letting everything solved on its own. Research on other medical institutions and move there. Here are the accredited colleges :
-Universiti Malaya
-Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
-Universiti Sains Malaysia
-Universiti Malaysia Sarawak
-Universiti Putra Malaysia
-Penang Medical College
-Universiti Perubatan Antarabangsa
-Universiti Islam Antarabangsa
-Mangalore University/ Manipal Academy of Higher Education
-Royal College of Medicine Perak (MBBS-Malaya Programme)
-Asian Institute of Medicine, Science and Technology
-Universiti Teknologi Mara
-Universiti Malaysia Sabah
-Alliance College of Medical Sciences
-Monash University Sunway Campus
-UCSI University
As you've noticed I took CUCMS out of the list.
Alright, so before I go on, first, what does it mean by 'accredited'.
Accredited, means acknowledged and recognised by the government.
So what if you studied in a non-accredited medical institution?
- You can still practice medicine. However, when you graduated, you have to sit for another exam to be given the licensed to practice medicine. So why worry you ask? Because this test is designed to fail students. It will be very tough and very hard. As you know, there have been many reports on the drastic increase of the doctors in Malaysia and it is alarming as the ratio shows that there are more doctors to patients. So it wouldn't be surprising if many fails this license exam, as the exam itself is designed to control the number of doctors to practice in Malaysia.
Okay, on another note :
Recently, MMC just set a minimum criteria and qualification for entry into the medical programme. And that it is said that there should be a minimum B for all four science subjects : Chemistry, Biology, Physics and Maths. And we all know which subject we're having problem with. Damn you physics haha =='' Okay well, anyways, according to Dr.Basir, everyone in Malaysia is appealing against this, that instead of all FOUR, perhaps a THREE out of four would do. They are appealing because
1. It causes too much constraint and stress on students to achieve high grades on ALL science subjects.
2. There are many students who have already completed their pre-med following the previous requirements. This causes difficulties on entering the medicine faculty.
3. There are many IPTAs & other medical institutions where physics are not one of the courses being offered. What happens there?
If everyone in Malaysia is appealing to the MMC about this, well, most likely it would be granted. Though no promises.
We will be informed (through letter or a phone call) about further changes.. like if CUCMS medical faculty is accredited for our batch or is not, or where we will be placed.
So..
If you're wondering what I'm going to do..
I am going to research about other ACCREDITED medical schools, to find a better one than CUCMS, if not as good, that suits me.
If that fails, I will look for ACCREDITED medical schools with an August intake. I will give CUCMS time but not that much.
But no matter what, I would not go into non-accredited medical schools unless of course, if worst comes to worst.
If you don't find these answers satisfying, well, there is nothing else we can do. Because this is everything they (CUCMS) know.
I hope I explained well. :/ If it's confusing or anything, ask me and I'll try to explain better.
Remember, we're all in this together.
Well, all the best to you guys. :)
The problem started when the Medical faculty accepted a total number of 236 students for batch 2010 when they were only allowed to take in 150students ( extra 86 students ). When news got out, CUCMS had their license revoked. However, they managed to appeal and got accredited. The batch of medical graduates that CUCMS just produced is recognised.
However, crime and punishment. CUCMS has to pay for the mistake they made. So now, CUCMS have to be accredited EVERY year for ..well, as long as MMC think is necessary. So every year they will come down and survey and then give the green light, or the red light. Also, MMC does not want CUCMS to have an MBBS intake this year, seeing as they were irresponsible and careless the last time. CUCMS is currently appealing for that though.
So now, the question is.. what are we to do next?
Plan A : Wait for CUCMS to get the green light for MBBS intake this year.
1. Will CUCMS get the green light?
Dr.Basir said they are hoping to get a favourable response although there have been indication that that is most likely. Though an indication is not enough, it should be in black & white. Yes, we want to know NOW, CUCMS wants to know NOW however.. it's the response from the MMC that we are waiting for. Without their answer, CUCMS can't tell us anything.
2. When will we get the response?
Dr.Basir said most probably next month. They're trying their best to get an answer A.S.A.P so that we can make the next move.
3. If all is well..
We continue into the medicine faculty in CUCMS provided that our results fits the criteria (I'll touch on this later).
So..what if CUCMS gets the red light instead?
That would be Plan B.
Plan B : We'd be transferred to other respectable ACCREDITED medical institutions.
1. How is that to happen?
CUCMS themselves will arrange for us to be transferred to other accredited universities. However, this is also 'kind of' restricted because other universities would ask of a higher cgpa and also, in our cases, physics. But as promised, CUCMS will do their best to get us into the best colleges for our circumstances.
If we don't want to wait and would rather instead take matters into our own hands
Plan C : We choose to leave CUCMS and head over to other medical institutions.
1. This is something we can do instead of letting everything solved on its own. Research on other medical institutions and move there. Here are the accredited colleges :
-Universiti Malaya
-Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
-Universiti Sains Malaysia
-Universiti Malaysia Sarawak
-Universiti Putra Malaysia
-Penang Medical College
-Universiti Perubatan Antarabangsa
-Universiti Islam Antarabangsa
-Mangalore University/ Manipal Academy of Higher Education
-Royal College of Medicine Perak (MBBS-Malaya Programme)
-Asian Institute of Medicine, Science and Technology
-Universiti Teknologi Mara
-Universiti Malaysia Sabah
-Alliance College of Medical Sciences
-Monash University Sunway Campus
-UCSI University
As you've noticed I took CUCMS out of the list.
Alright, so before I go on, first, what does it mean by 'accredited'.
Accredited, means acknowledged and recognised by the government.
So what if you studied in a non-accredited medical institution?
- You can still practice medicine. However, when you graduated, you have to sit for another exam to be given the licensed to practice medicine. So why worry you ask? Because this test is designed to fail students. It will be very tough and very hard. As you know, there have been many reports on the drastic increase of the doctors in Malaysia and it is alarming as the ratio shows that there are more doctors to patients. So it wouldn't be surprising if many fails this license exam, as the exam itself is designed to control the number of doctors to practice in Malaysia.
Okay, on another note :
Recently, MMC just set a minimum criteria and qualification for entry into the medical programme. And that it is said that there should be a minimum B for all four science subjects : Chemistry, Biology, Physics and Maths. And we all know which subject we're having problem with. Damn you physics haha =='' Okay well, anyways, according to Dr.Basir, everyone in Malaysia is appealing against this, that instead of all FOUR, perhaps a THREE out of four would do. They are appealing because
1. It causes too much constraint and stress on students to achieve high grades on ALL science subjects.
2. There are many students who have already completed their pre-med following the previous requirements. This causes difficulties on entering the medicine faculty.
3. There are many IPTAs & other medical institutions where physics are not one of the courses being offered. What happens there?
If everyone in Malaysia is appealing to the MMC about this, well, most likely it would be granted. Though no promises.
We will be informed (through letter or a phone call) about further changes.. like if CUCMS medical faculty is accredited for our batch or is not, or where we will be placed.
So..
If you're wondering what I'm going to do..
I am going to research about other ACCREDITED medical schools, to find a better one than CUCMS, if not as good, that suits me.
If that fails, I will look for ACCREDITED medical schools with an August intake. I will give CUCMS time but not that much.
But no matter what, I would not go into non-accredited medical schools unless of course, if worst comes to worst.
If you don't find these answers satisfying, well, there is nothing else we can do. Because this is everything they (CUCMS) know.
I hope I explained well. :/ If it's confusing or anything, ask me and I'll try to explain better.
Remember, we're all in this together.
Well, all the best to you guys. :)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Attack of the FROGS :(
My weird dreams are back. I used to have them like every night since I can remember but then it stopped for a while, when the holidays started. But yeah, they're back.
Last night I dreamed about Pudu Girl's School. And how much I miss it. :(
And then I dreamed about...about..FROGS! .. :/ And well, have I told you the story when I accidently found a frog in my shoe and then I was phobia of frogs and shoes for more than a year? I wouldn't even TOUCH my shoes. My kakak / Grace had to help me put them on whenever I go out/ at school. Well, until now I still check my shoes. But FROGS??!!! NOOOO WAAAYYYY.. I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE ANOTHER FROG EVER AGAINNNNNN T.T
I still remembered how I held the frog and pulled it out from my shoe.. YUCK YUCK YUCK T.T
Last night I dreamed my roomate (??) loved frogs and she had a few. She brought them with her wherever she goes and the frogs would just stare, and SMILE at me. o.o
Like this :
YUCK YUCK OMG ..I even have trouble looking at the picture..
takkk nakkkk :/
Anyways ..
In my dream, the frogs started hopping at me on MY bed.
I screamed, and I woke up..and realised I was screaming out loud .. ==''
My dad came out of his room and ask me ''what happened?''
Sleepily I said
''FROGS!!! :('' and I slept back. ==''
I remember my heart beating so fast I felt like it would EXPLODE.
I DON'T LIKE FROGS.
AND TOADS.
Me faking a smile :/ ..
:/
Though yes, they're GOD CREATIONS AND I LOVE THEM FROM THAT PERSPECTIVE BUT
I TAKKK NAKKKK :/
Wish I don't dream of them, ever again.
Last night I dreamed about Pudu Girl's School. And how much I miss it. :(
And then I dreamed about...about..FROGS! .. :/ And well, have I told you the story when I accidently found a frog in my shoe and then I was phobia of frogs and shoes for more than a year? I wouldn't even TOUCH my shoes. My kakak / Grace had to help me put them on whenever I go out/ at school. Well, until now I still check my shoes. But FROGS??!!! NOOOO WAAAYYYY.. I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE ANOTHER FROG EVER AGAINNNNNN T.T
I still remembered how I held the frog and pulled it out from my shoe.. YUCK YUCK YUCK T.T
Last night I dreamed my roomate (??) loved frogs and she had a few. She brought them with her wherever she goes and the frogs would just stare, and SMILE at me. o.o
Like this :
YUCK YUCK OMG ..I even have trouble looking at the picture..
takkk nakkkk :/
Anyways ..
In my dream, the frogs started hopping at me on MY bed.
I screamed, and I woke up..and realised I was screaming out loud .. ==''
My dad came out of his room and ask me ''what happened?''
Sleepily I said
''FROGS!!! :('' and I slept back. ==''
I remember my heart beating so fast I felt like it would EXPLODE.
I DON'T LIKE FROGS.
AND TOADS.
Me faking a smile :/ ..:/
Though yes, they're GOD CREATIONS AND I LOVE THEM FROM THAT PERSPECTIVE BUT
I TAKKK NAKKKK :/
Wish I don't dream of them, ever again.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Runaway Bride :P
A few days ago, I went to Mcd with my family and Vi. Upon entering, I noticed this group of college students were staring at me.
Mum : why are they staring at you?
Me : I don't know. Too fat maybe? - being sarcastic. my mum was lecturing me about.. ah nvmd.
Anyways, we sat opposite them and throughout the entire time I was eating, I realised they kept trying to get my attention. This guy, especially. And when I refused to look, I heard his friends go ''She's not looking''. At first I thought I was um..thinking too much but then, I knew I wasn't wrong.
When it was time to go, my dad headed out to the car first and I heard his friends go ''They're leaving! get her number!'' .. When I got up from my seat, that guy got up and started walking towards me.
And guess what I did? I ran out. ==''
Well, not run exactly, I half-walk half-ran. Leaving vi and the rest of my family behind me. I glanced behind and he sorta had his hand up in mid-air asking me to stop but I increased my speed and got into the car.
On the phone, Grace asked if I was insane. Why did I run?
I said I was scared?
She : Scared of what? You were in public. He couldn't have hurt you anyways. You could've just given him your number!
Me : No, not that. I was scared of telling him no.
She then went on to scold me about how he could've been the guy I would marry. =='' Mangkuk grace.
Vi didn't believe me though. She said I saw this in my head. :P haha..
Anyways, I was scared because ..I just realised why actually.
1. I was confused on my decision. Would I give? would I not?
2. If I choose not to, how would I turn him down?
3. If I choose to, what would happen?
I guess I was afraid to make the decision. So I chose the easiest way out.
To not put myself in the situation where I would be force to make the decision.
I chose to run.
Mum : why are they staring at you?
Me : I don't know. Too fat maybe? - being sarcastic. my mum was lecturing me about.. ah nvmd.
Anyways, we sat opposite them and throughout the entire time I was eating, I realised they kept trying to get my attention. This guy, especially. And when I refused to look, I heard his friends go ''She's not looking''. At first I thought I was um..thinking too much but then, I knew I wasn't wrong.
When it was time to go, my dad headed out to the car first and I heard his friends go ''They're leaving! get her number!'' .. When I got up from my seat, that guy got up and started walking towards me.
And guess what I did? I ran out. ==''
Well, not run exactly, I half-walk half-ran. Leaving vi and the rest of my family behind me. I glanced behind and he sorta had his hand up in mid-air asking me to stop but I increased my speed and got into the car.
On the phone, Grace asked if I was insane. Why did I run?
I said I was scared?
She : Scared of what? You were in public. He couldn't have hurt you anyways. You could've just given him your number!
Me : No, not that. I was scared of telling him no.
She then went on to scold me about how he could've been the guy I would marry. =='' Mangkuk grace.
Vi didn't believe me though. She said I saw this in my head. :P haha..
Anyways, I was scared because ..I just realised why actually.
1. I was confused on my decision. Would I give? would I not?
2. If I choose not to, how would I turn him down?
3. If I choose to, what would happen?
I guess I was afraid to make the decision. So I chose the easiest way out.
To not put myself in the situation where I would be force to make the decision.
I chose to run.
Durians ; to eat or not to eat?
I love all fruits.
I may dislike some vegetables, I don't like fish (except if they're cooked Chinese styled) but fruits, I love ALL fruits.
It's like, I can eat fruits foreverrrrr.. :)
I'd go to the grocery and head over to the fruits section. Just stand there and take in their sweet smell. I've done that many times, with my eyes closed. Only to open them to find people starring at me strangely. My mum then said I can star in my own comedy show since I'm so weird.
Anyways, was eating durians a few days ago when I thought to myself, that I love durians. I love the taste and I especially love the smell. :) But then, I remembered that many don't like the fruit because of the smell, that it smells bad. I couldn't understand why. How can one not like durians when they smell so sweet?
I then spent the next few minutes concentrating on DISLIKING the smell. I wanted to see from their point of view, to see how can Durians turn them away. I stared and I smelled.. *yes weird* but after a few minutes (maybe seconds lah..don't tell me I was staring at them so long ==), nothing came to me. I still think durians smelled nice.
But then, later that evening when I came back from the park, I walked into the house and the house smelled bad. I didn't like the smell, and I was trying to figure out what was that smell when I realise, I was smelling the durians! ..
I got so excited. Like, I forced myself to see durians from another point of view, and it worked! ..It just hit me in the face, without myself trying, and for a few minutes I thought durian smelled bad. After hanging out for a while in my house though, the feeling disappeared and my house was sweet-smelling again.
Now when I eat durians, I keep snapping back and forth. For the first few seconds I think it smells great, but then all of a sudden, I'll smell something else.
The point is..I could look at one thing, and see both sides to it. I could see why some like durians while others hate it. And I understand.
Sometimes we can't see why certain people behaves that way or reacts to a certain situation the way they do because we don't see the point of it. We don't see the reason as to what they decide upon. We just stick to our own beliefs and reasoning because it's already been made up in your head.
Like when I love durians.
Even when others explain it to you, or reason it out, you just don't see it and you may dismiss their opinions as ''they're wrong''.
Like when others told me they dislike the fruit.
It's only when you step into their shoes and see from their point of view, you can actually understand their point all along. And maybe, who knows, find out you're wrong.
I forced myself to see the fruit from another's perspective and with willpower, I did. And now I understand.
I hope everyone has that willpower.
Not just for durians, no :P But ..well, for everything.
Since young, my grandpa has always been reminding me ..
''Seek first to understand, then to be understood''.
That is why God gave us two ears and one mouth. ;)
My relationship with durians are now somewhat rather confusing =='' haha.
(yes, I'm that bored at home :P)
I may dislike some vegetables, I don't like fish (except if they're cooked Chinese styled) but fruits, I love ALL fruits.
It's like, I can eat fruits foreverrrrr.. :)
I'd go to the grocery and head over to the fruits section. Just stand there and take in their sweet smell. I've done that many times, with my eyes closed. Only to open them to find people starring at me strangely. My mum then said I can star in my own comedy show since I'm so weird.
Anyways, was eating durians a few days ago when I thought to myself, that I love durians. I love the taste and I especially love the smell. :) But then, I remembered that many don't like the fruit because of the smell, that it smells bad. I couldn't understand why. How can one not like durians when they smell so sweet?
I then spent the next few minutes concentrating on DISLIKING the smell. I wanted to see from their point of view, to see how can Durians turn them away. I stared and I smelled.. *yes weird* but after a few minutes (maybe seconds lah..don't tell me I was staring at them so long ==), nothing came to me. I still think durians smelled nice.
But then, later that evening when I came back from the park, I walked into the house and the house smelled bad. I didn't like the smell, and I was trying to figure out what was that smell when I realise, I was smelling the durians! ..
I got so excited. Like, I forced myself to see durians from another point of view, and it worked! ..It just hit me in the face, without myself trying, and for a few minutes I thought durian smelled bad. After hanging out for a while in my house though, the feeling disappeared and my house was sweet-smelling again.
Now when I eat durians, I keep snapping back and forth. For the first few seconds I think it smells great, but then all of a sudden, I'll smell something else.
The point is..I could look at one thing, and see both sides to it. I could see why some like durians while others hate it. And I understand.
Sometimes we can't see why certain people behaves that way or reacts to a certain situation the way they do because we don't see the point of it. We don't see the reason as to what they decide upon. We just stick to our own beliefs and reasoning because it's already been made up in your head.
Like when I love durians.
Even when others explain it to you, or reason it out, you just don't see it and you may dismiss their opinions as ''they're wrong''.
Like when others told me they dislike the fruit.
It's only when you step into their shoes and see from their point of view, you can actually understand their point all along. And maybe, who knows, find out you're wrong.
I forced myself to see the fruit from another's perspective and with willpower, I did. And now I understand.
I hope everyone has that willpower.
Not just for durians, no :P But ..well, for everything.
Since young, my grandpa has always been reminding me ..
''Seek first to understand, then to be understood''.
That is why God gave us two ears and one mouth. ;)
My relationship with durians are now somewhat rather confusing =='' haha.
(yes, I'm that bored at home :P)
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
One of my favs :)
Jesus is my rock and he rolls my blues away..
Pop shu-bap, pop pop shu-bap..
Jesus is my rock and he rolls my blues away.
And he rolls baby rolls, woo ;)
Anddd he rollllsssss, all night long. :)
Jesus is my rock and he rolls my blues away.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
JUST
Found this. A pic of my room, taken ages ago. Messyness. And kidlike no? I didn't take a picture of my bed cause there's lots of teddies and dolls above it. :/ haha..I came across this in college posted on the board. I thought it was sorta inspiring and motivating. So I took picture of them. Here :) :
:)
On an entirely different note..I came across this facebook like :
It got crowded in heaven so, for one day and one day only, it was decided to only accept people who had a really bad day on the day that they died.
St. Peter was standing at the pearly gates and said to the first man, "Tell me about the day you died."
The man said "Oh, it was awful. I was sure my wife was having an affair, so i came home early to catch her in the act. I searched all over the apartment bu i couldn't find the other man anywhere. So i went out to the balcony, we live on the 25th floor, and found this man hanging over the edge by his fingertips. I went inside, got a hammer and started hitting his hands. He fell, but he landed in some bushes. So, i went back inside and got the refrigerator and pushed it over the balcony and it crushed him. The strain of the act gave me a heart attack, of which i died from."
St. Peter couldn't deny that this was a pretty bad day, and since it was a crime of passion, he allowed the man into heaven. He then asked the next man in the line about the day he died.
"Well sir, it was awful", said the second man. "I was doing aerobics on the balcony of my 26th floor apartment when I twisted my ankle and slipped over the edge. I managed to grab on to the balcony of the apartment below, but some maniac with a hammer came out and started pounding on my fingers. Luckily i landed in some bushes. But then the guy dropped a refrigerator on me!"
St. Peter chuckled, let him into heaven and decided he could really start to enjoy this job. "Tell me about the day you died" he said the the third man in the line.
"Well, picture this, i'm naked hiding inside a refrigerator..."
hahahahahaha :D Okay it's kinda lame but they're all so cute! :) hahahahahahahaha :D
Friday ( 10th June 2011 )
Went out with them last Friday to catch up.. Met with Anna after a long time, since she's busy with STPM and all.
Gosh, I miss her so much. :')
But she couldn't talk much because her cousin -Maybel- was there. Maybel's nice, but Anna doesn't like Maybel to know much about here. They go way back and Maybel's ..well, she's always reporting back to Anna's family. Sorta like a spy. But I get it. I guess being the second best to someone in the family, you'd always want to do your best to get into the right books. I guess that's just what Maybel's doing. She's sweet too. :)
So yeah anyways, Anna's scheduling another get together with Vi and I, so then we'd talk about the more serious stuffs. :)
Didn't do much in midvalley. The fun started on the way home actually. We went to take the 4.30p.m train but it was pack. We missed 3 trains before suddenly, a train arrived though it was announced that the train broke down. Funny thing was, everyone had to get out of that train.. but then people ran in and the train left. =='' Pity those who were initially in the train but could not get back in, haha.. Anyways, we were laughing so hard, it was funny :) When we finally caught the train, -the 4th-, it was already 6pm. The train was so pack, we could not breathe. And the people in there were funny. Some kept complaining, some cracked jokes, it was an interesting journey.
When we got into the cab, we just laughed and laughed. I was so blur from all the rush that I gave weird instructions to the cab driver. Like ''encik, pusing kiri'' and pointed right. =='' Everyone kept laughing.
Anyways, went back to my place and played PICTIONARY :) F.U.N. :)
Then went upstairs to my room to go through all our old letters (I don't throw away these kinda stuffs) ..We had so many letters. Letters we wrote to each other when we had a fight, when we were bored during class, when we had boy trouble, or sad after exams.. Even guys confession love letters. I had Anna's secret admirer's letters (though not so secret :P) while she had mine.. Weird :) Miss the old times, those were the B.E.S.T! :)
Then the day ended :)
And because of this, I was such a horrible friend to have missed out Reev's birthday =='' I don't keep track of dates when there's no school. Realised the date four days later. Sigh, I know I suck. Please don't wish me on MY birthday as a punnishment, kay? :)
Anyways, Happy Birthday Reev. :)
Gosh, I miss her so much. :')
But she couldn't talk much because her cousin -Maybel- was there. Maybel's nice, but Anna doesn't like Maybel to know much about here. They go way back and Maybel's ..well, she's always reporting back to Anna's family. Sorta like a spy. But I get it. I guess being the second best to someone in the family, you'd always want to do your best to get into the right books. I guess that's just what Maybel's doing. She's sweet too. :)
So yeah anyways, Anna's scheduling another get together with Vi and I, so then we'd talk about the more serious stuffs. :)
Didn't do much in midvalley. The fun started on the way home actually. We went to take the 4.30p.m train but it was pack. We missed 3 trains before suddenly, a train arrived though it was announced that the train broke down. Funny thing was, everyone had to get out of that train.. but then people ran in and the train left. =='' Pity those who were initially in the train but could not get back in, haha.. Anyways, we were laughing so hard, it was funny :) When we finally caught the train, -the 4th-, it was already 6pm. The train was so pack, we could not breathe. And the people in there were funny. Some kept complaining, some cracked jokes, it was an interesting journey.
When we got into the cab, we just laughed and laughed. I was so blur from all the rush that I gave weird instructions to the cab driver. Like ''encik, pusing kiri'' and pointed right. =='' Everyone kept laughing.
Anyways, went back to my place and played PICTIONARY :) F.U.N. :)
Then went upstairs to my room to go through all our old letters (I don't throw away these kinda stuffs) ..We had so many letters. Letters we wrote to each other when we had a fight, when we were bored during class, when we had boy trouble, or sad after exams.. Even guys confession love letters. I had Anna's secret admirer's letters (though not so secret :P) while she had mine.. Weird :) Miss the old times, those were the B.E.S.T! :)
Then the day ended :)
And because of this, I was such a horrible friend to have missed out Reev's birthday =='' I don't keep track of dates when there's no school. Realised the date four days later. Sigh, I know I suck. Please don't wish me on MY birthday as a punnishment, kay? :)
Anyways, Happy Birthday Reev. :)
Been through just about everything,
That i could go through,
When it comes to relationships.
Don't know what i was missing
Or why i ain't listen
When i told myself that was it.
But here i go,
Hurt again.
Cause of my curiosity.
Now that it's over,
What else could it be,
Besides a cheat?
I made a promise never to settle,
Why didn't i keep it?
Cause i hated the heart break, crying and cheating
The fooling around.
But I'm not missing you...
I'm not going through motions,
Waiting and hoping you'd call me.
I'm not missing you.
You might've had me open,
But I must be coping because,
I've got lots to do.
I know I'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different;
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missing, I'm not missing you...
It's a shame in way,
Cause i feel that i may not
Ever find the right one for me.
Did i leave him this year,
Right n front of my face.
Will my love ever be?
Why would i go,
on a search again?
When i know what the
end will be.
What good is love
When it keeps on hurting me?
I made a promise never to settle,
Why didn't i keep it?
Cause i hated the heart break, crying and cheating
The fooling around.
But I'm not missing you...
I'm not going through motions,
Waiting and hoping you'd call me.
I'm not missing you.
You might've had me open,
But I must be coping because,
I've got lots to do.
I know I'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different;
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missing, I'm not missing you...
No I can't be with you 'cause I'm scared
Felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed and the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
Bad when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life
But I'm not missing you
That i could go through,
When it comes to relationships.
Don't know what i was missing
Or why i ain't listen
When i told myself that was it.
But here i go,
Hurt again.
Cause of my curiosity.
Now that it's over,
What else could it be,
Besides a cheat?
I made a promise never to settle,
Why didn't i keep it?
Cause i hated the heart break, crying and cheating
The fooling around.
But I'm not missing you...
I'm not going through motions,
Waiting and hoping you'd call me.
I'm not missing you.
You might've had me open,
But I must be coping because,
I've got lots to do.
I know I'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different;
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missing, I'm not missing you...
It's a shame in way,
Cause i feel that i may not
Ever find the right one for me.
Did i leave him this year,
Right n front of my face.
Will my love ever be?
Why would i go,
on a search again?
When i know what the
end will be.
What good is love
When it keeps on hurting me?
I made a promise never to settle,
Why didn't i keep it?
Cause i hated the heart break, crying and cheating
The fooling around.
But I'm not missing you...
I'm not going through motions,
Waiting and hoping you'd call me.
I'm not missing you.
You might've had me open,
But I must be coping because,
I've got lots to do.
I know I'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you go.
But this time is different;
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missing, I'm not missing you...
No I can't be with you 'cause I'm scared
Felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed and the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
Bad when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life
But I'm not missing you
Oh, and I accidently cut my hand today morning. I was holding this basket when a splinter ..entered my palm. =='' It was long and I couldn't pull it off. Asked my kakak to take it out and it hurt like hell. In the shower I noticed I was bleeding. O.o''
And no, that did not make me feel beautiful :P haha
And no, that did not make me feel beautiful :P haha
I wonder
When did my life become a set of lists of other people's wants and ambitions?
I don't remember caring about looks or appearances all those years ago.
I don't remember not giving answers to questions based on what people expect me to reply.
I miss the old me, I think.
The me who'd pick books over clothes any day.
The me who'd sit at the piano, playing and singing, not caring what anyone think.
The me who'd scream and laugh while running around in the park.
Last night I had a weird dream. I dreamed that people were telling me I was not attractive enough and that I need to cut my fingers. I asked them 'wouldn't it be painful?' but they replied 'beauty IS pain'. They then brought me to this room with a table and a big butcher knife on it. I remember hiding behind someone and said ''I don't want to. I don't care if I'm ugly''. I remember feeling like crying but that I was holding my tears because I didn't want anyone to see that I was weak.
Then someone took the knife and said ''Here, it's not painful, I'll show you''. That person then went on and cut her fingers one by one. Slowly, but rythmic. Her eyes never left my face. She was smiling. After she finished, she held up her bloody fingerless hand and said ''See? Don't you want to be beautiful?''.
I looked up at her and I felt like, I wanted to cut my fingers off. So I took the knife and started chopping. One by one. Slowly. Rythmic. Just like she had done. It hurt, at first, but then, I got used to the pain when I reached my fifth finger. Then I held up my hand to show them and they said ''There, you're beautiful now.''
I don't know what does that mean, I always have weird dreams.
Nowadays,
I don't read much. I'd stare at books in bookstores and don't feel anything calling me like how they used to.
I don't play the piano. I'd try. I'd sit there and put my fingers on the keys, but then, I don't feel the spirit. And I'd just close it and walk away.
I miss the old me.
But I'm confused.
Is this growing up?
Or is this something else?
I don't remember caring about looks or appearances all those years ago.
I don't remember not giving answers to questions based on what people expect me to reply.
I miss the old me, I think.
The me who'd pick books over clothes any day.
The me who'd sit at the piano, playing and singing, not caring what anyone think.
The me who'd scream and laugh while running around in the park.
Last night I had a weird dream. I dreamed that people were telling me I was not attractive enough and that I need to cut my fingers. I asked them 'wouldn't it be painful?' but they replied 'beauty IS pain'. They then brought me to this room with a table and a big butcher knife on it. I remember hiding behind someone and said ''I don't want to. I don't care if I'm ugly''. I remember feeling like crying but that I was holding my tears because I didn't want anyone to see that I was weak.
Then someone took the knife and said ''Here, it's not painful, I'll show you''. That person then went on and cut her fingers one by one. Slowly, but rythmic. Her eyes never left my face. She was smiling. After she finished, she held up her bloody fingerless hand and said ''See? Don't you want to be beautiful?''.
I looked up at her and I felt like, I wanted to cut my fingers off. So I took the knife and started chopping. One by one. Slowly. Rythmic. Just like she had done. It hurt, at first, but then, I got used to the pain when I reached my fifth finger. Then I held up my hand to show them and they said ''There, you're beautiful now.''
I don't know what does that mean, I always have weird dreams.
Nowadays,
I don't read much. I'd stare at books in bookstores and don't feel anything calling me like how they used to.
I don't play the piano. I'd try. I'd sit there and put my fingers on the keys, but then, I don't feel the spirit. And I'd just close it and walk away.
I miss the old me.
But I'm confused.
Is this growing up?
Or is this something else?
Monday, June 13, 2011
Found these
While browsing the net. Haha :)
- God made man and rested. God made Earth and rested. God made woman; since then no one has rested.
- Cops came around to my house today, told me that my dog was chasing someone on a bike, i told them to bugger off, my dog does not own a bike.
- *Who's Guilty Here?*
A wife is dreaming in bed, she suddenly wakes up and shouts, "Quick! My husband is home!"
Her husband wakes up and jumps out of the window
- Vodka and ice damages your kidney. Rum and ice damages your liver. Whiskey and ice damages your heart. Damn ice, how much more damage can you do?!
Didn't make me laugh or anything. But it sorta..well, SORTA made me smile. A bit. :) haha..
- God made man and rested. God made Earth and rested. God made woman; since then no one has rested.
- Cops came around to my house today, told me that my dog was chasing someone on a bike, i told them to bugger off, my dog does not own a bike.
- *Who's Guilty Here?*
A wife is dreaming in bed, she suddenly wakes up and shouts, "Quick! My husband is home!"
Her husband wakes up and jumps out of the window
- Vodka and ice damages your kidney. Rum and ice damages your liver. Whiskey and ice damages your heart. Damn ice, how much more damage can you do?!
Didn't make me laugh or anything. But it sorta..well, SORTA made me smile. A bit. :) haha..
Ever had that moment when you're in a debate with someone about a topic which you know 100% that you're right? Eventhough you know that everyone is entitled to their opinion and yes, one has to first understand before trying to be understood, but you just KNOW you're right? It's not because of ego, or arrogance of power or anything of that sort. It's more like you've been there, and you've experienced it and you were on that very same road but you've learned something that the other person is yet to learn?
Yeah, like that. :)
Yeah, like that. :)
:)
I love Honey&Clover.
I think, I've never watch an anime that's so real. It's easy for one to connect with the characters as they go through the same thing in life as we do. And this anime really shows their emotions and explain their views on life.
I always feel so nostalgic whenever I watch this series.
Makes me feel happy.. :)
''When I was little, I didn't understand why ferris wheels existed.
They were just sluggish and went up high. I got bored with it after only one ride.
The roller coaster and the loop slider... I only paid attention to the thrilling rides.
But... I kind of understand now.
Ferris wheels are for slowly cutting across the sky with the person you like and maybe saying things like, "Isn't this a little scary?"''
I think, I've never watch an anime that's so real. It's easy for one to connect with the characters as they go through the same thing in life as we do. And this anime really shows their emotions and explain their views on life.
I always feel so nostalgic whenever I watch this series.
Makes me feel happy.. :)
''When I was little, I didn't understand why ferris wheels existed.
They were just sluggish and went up high. I got bored with it after only one ride.
The roller coaster and the loop slider... I only paid attention to the thrilling rides.
But... I kind of understand now.
Ferris wheels are for slowly cutting across the sky with the person you like and maybe saying things like, "Isn't this a little scary?"''
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Just
Went for a political party talk and am pretty excited to post things but apparently, I can't..says my parents. Anyways, am impressed with ahemm ahemm talk. :) Great talkers. Love how they manage to bring up all the facts and shoot down every fact of the ahemm ahemm..
Tons of quotes but apparently I can't post THEM either.
This sucks =='' haha :D
Teens these days, well, people my age I mean, don't care much about politics. And I'm saying that's wrong. They don't care because they weren't from the time when everything was hard. When it was hard to make a living, when it was hard to live, to have family, to support each other. Back then, the only way people could improve was to vote for the ruling power, and thus improve their lives.
Young citizens these days says politics are rubbish because they don't understand. I know our country politics suck but the LEAST you can do is to be aware, be informed of everything, and most importantly, go and VOTE.
Because you're not only voting for youself, but your your family, your children, their children and your people. Sure you may be migrating one day but as long as you're still in this country, you're a citizen.
But if you're just gonna keep on saying ''I don't care'' then go ahead.
And I'll just call you an 'IGNORANT SPOILED BRAT'.
Seriously, no lie.
Because there are many people suffering out there and you just couldn't care less because
a) you don't care
b) you don't have the TIME to care
c) you're LAZY to care
So yeah.
You're an ignorant SELFISH spoiled brat.
And yeah, honestly,
go get educated about this.
And if you don't want to, then just go live with the poor for one day and experience THEIR life. Maybe then you'd be grateful and would want to make a change.
Not just for yourself but for everyone too.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
Pensive
Aunty Saras and I were talking yesterday and she was telling me of her mother in law (it's ALWAYS the mother in laws eh? o.o'') and how she always blames her for everything. For the way her kids are raised up, the way she cooks, the way she works.. Aunty Saras feels like a failure.
That reminded me of the one of the masses I attended at church. Father talked about how now the altar is no longer the center of the family. Families are now all centered around the television and such. Grandma turned to me and said 'LISTEN!'. The minute she said that, I got angry and decided not to.
It reminded me of my grandpa. Who does not believe in God.
It also reminded me of my dad. Of how hard he works to earn money for the family. How he is always tired and always complaining about not being able to relax. And how my mum would rather him not save up so much and just enjoy life as it is. How they are very unhappy. With everything.
Now there are certain people who would say things like ''If only they'd turn to God'' and ''Money is not the key to happiness''. And then I think, who is it to be blamed? Is there someone? Anyone? Why should we point fingers?
I just think these kinds of things are passed down from generations. That you can't blame anyone because it's not a fault. It's not a fault that people are that way and some are the other way.
Take my dad for example. He came from a poor family in Malacca. His ambition was to be a football player and he was offered to play for the country, cause he was good. But his mum told him ''Education comes first.''. Thus he studied, and became a teacher. He plays football every week but then he hurt his leg and could no longer play anymore. He is now one of the best sejarah teachers in the country. And he works hard because he does not want his children to have the same fate. To have to give up our dreams because we can't afford them.
My mum on the other hand grew up with the silver spoon in her mouth. Sure, she studied hard but it wasn't a hard life. Everything was there for her. She applied for a loan and got into university. And there she met my dad. Who was her teacher, and they fell in love.
My dad works hard because he was born into this world with nothing. My mum takes things easy because she was born into this world with everything.
My grandpa also came from a poor family in Penang. His family was a firm believe in God and decided to leave everything to Him. But my grandpa would hear nothing of it. He wrote letters. With only one suitcase in his hands and a few cents in his pocket, he left Penang and travelled to Kuala Lumpur. From selling fishes, to guard, to police, to air force, to our prime minister's pilot. He worked hard and from there, he got to where he is now. It's because if him my mum had a great life. The rest of his family is still in Penang. Poor and suffering.
There are times when I wished I wasn't who I am.
When I wished I was more like my friends who worried less.
- But I can't. This I take after my dad. Who cares too much. Who is always worrying about everything.
When I wished I was free-spirited and happy go lucky.
- But I'm not. This I take after my grandfather. Who always believed in responsibility, time management and discipline.
When I wished I could pour out emotions and love as easily as others.
- But I can't. And this I take after my mother. She taught me how to build a wall around myself, because that was what she did when my dad was busy working. From her I find it hard to love.
When I wished I fully believed in God and grew up with my life centered around Him.
- But I don't. And this I get from my family. Who grew up without God in their lives.
And I can try to be all those I want to be, and there's always the possibility I succeed. But these characteristics are in my family, passed down from generations. As much as I would like to blame them as to how I turned out, I can't. Because it's not their fault.
It's not anyone's fault. It's just the circumstances.
The world they came into, the life they had growing up, defines who they are.
This applies to everyone.
What I'm saying is that I don't think there's any need to judge and blame others. The basic thing one needs to do is to UNDERSTAND.
The rich may not know how life is without money. The poor may not know how life is with everything. The one without love would not know how beautiful life is with God's love.
And if you are happy with the kind of life you have, then good for you. You're lucky.
Maybe if you'd like, you can lend a hand and offer advice.. Because a helping hand is ALWAYS appreciated.
But there is no need to go pointing fingers at other's mistakes, thinking that if they lived life your way, they could be happy..
Because, it's no one's fault.
It's just life's circumstances.
That reminded me of the one of the masses I attended at church. Father talked about how now the altar is no longer the center of the family. Families are now all centered around the television and such. Grandma turned to me and said 'LISTEN!'. The minute she said that, I got angry and decided not to.
It reminded me of my grandpa. Who does not believe in God.
It also reminded me of my dad. Of how hard he works to earn money for the family. How he is always tired and always complaining about not being able to relax. And how my mum would rather him not save up so much and just enjoy life as it is. How they are very unhappy. With everything.
Now there are certain people who would say things like ''If only they'd turn to God'' and ''Money is not the key to happiness''. And then I think, who is it to be blamed? Is there someone? Anyone? Why should we point fingers?
I just think these kinds of things are passed down from generations. That you can't blame anyone because it's not a fault. It's not a fault that people are that way and some are the other way.
Take my dad for example. He came from a poor family in Malacca. His ambition was to be a football player and he was offered to play for the country, cause he was good. But his mum told him ''Education comes first.''. Thus he studied, and became a teacher. He plays football every week but then he hurt his leg and could no longer play anymore. He is now one of the best sejarah teachers in the country. And he works hard because he does not want his children to have the same fate. To have to give up our dreams because we can't afford them.
My mum on the other hand grew up with the silver spoon in her mouth. Sure, she studied hard but it wasn't a hard life. Everything was there for her. She applied for a loan and got into university. And there she met my dad. Who was her teacher, and they fell in love.
My dad works hard because he was born into this world with nothing. My mum takes things easy because she was born into this world with everything.
My grandpa also came from a poor family in Penang. His family was a firm believe in God and decided to leave everything to Him. But my grandpa would hear nothing of it. He wrote letters. With only one suitcase in his hands and a few cents in his pocket, he left Penang and travelled to Kuala Lumpur. From selling fishes, to guard, to police, to air force, to our prime minister's pilot. He worked hard and from there, he got to where he is now. It's because if him my mum had a great life. The rest of his family is still in Penang. Poor and suffering.
There are times when I wished I wasn't who I am.
When I wished I was more like my friends who worried less.
- But I can't. This I take after my dad. Who cares too much. Who is always worrying about everything.
When I wished I was free-spirited and happy go lucky.
- But I'm not. This I take after my grandfather. Who always believed in responsibility, time management and discipline.
When I wished I could pour out emotions and love as easily as others.
- But I can't. And this I take after my mother. She taught me how to build a wall around myself, because that was what she did when my dad was busy working. From her I find it hard to love.
When I wished I fully believed in God and grew up with my life centered around Him.
- But I don't. And this I get from my family. Who grew up without God in their lives.
And I can try to be all those I want to be, and there's always the possibility I succeed. But these characteristics are in my family, passed down from generations. As much as I would like to blame them as to how I turned out, I can't. Because it's not their fault.
It's not anyone's fault. It's just the circumstances.
The world they came into, the life they had growing up, defines who they are.
This applies to everyone.
What I'm saying is that I don't think there's any need to judge and blame others. The basic thing one needs to do is to UNDERSTAND.
The rich may not know how life is without money. The poor may not know how life is with everything. The one without love would not know how beautiful life is with God's love.
And if you are happy with the kind of life you have, then good for you. You're lucky.
Maybe if you'd like, you can lend a hand and offer advice.. Because a helping hand is ALWAYS appreciated.
But there is no need to go pointing fingers at other's mistakes, thinking that if they lived life your way, they could be happy..
Because, it's no one's fault.
It's just life's circumstances.
Today
Made my first pizza today!!
It was funny. I couldn't hold the dough without it sticking to my fingers.. and when I keep fiddling with it, it doesn't come to the round shape a pizza's suppose to have. And I slapped the pizza all wrong.. and when it was time to toss it up into the air, I sorta tossed it at my manager.. on accident. =='' .. But great that everyone just laughed. In the end, my pizza was not round.. It looked like a cloud. :D .. I thought i was a much nicer shape but no one would hear of it. =/ So there goes the cloud pizza.
Found a great article on names while I was cleaning the windows of Papa John's today. :) I was reading it when some random dude came and ask me if he looked nice today.. =='' ???? Went back in fast. ==''
An aunt of mine is admitted in the hospital, for heart problems. Went and visited her today. I was shocked at how GH was in a bad condition. Can't believed I stayed there for the first 5 years of my life. But then again, the pediatrician ward was much nicer. Anyways, it was not about that they should be first class service or anything, but the LEAST they could do was TRY. Instead of building skyscrapers, could the government give money to the hospitals at least? The beds are broken, the meals are not cooked well, the air's hot..I almost cried just watching them. Aunt M told the entire ward that I was studying to be a doctor and everyone started complaining to me about bad hospital service. :/ I told them '' I'll see what I can do, but please..do wait 5 years''.. haha.. Was not trying to be funny but ..couldn't help it. :/
Found my favourite book rental place!! :) I thought it moved away some place far, but it just moved to behind the block. Saw the small blue sign sticking out. Seriously, anyone who's a reader should go there. You can find any books you want, they have everything. :) The auntie there is nice too. :) Used to rent novels there back when I was a kid. And funny thing, she recognizes me. Guess those who read a lot has good memory eh? :)
Andddd..
On another note, you CLEARLY have your way on coping with things and I have mine. I may be upset, but honestly, I'm not upset with you. Well, not anymore. I've got issues I have to deal with, and most of them, you have caused. Upset, yes. But that's not your problem. I'm sorry, for anything, everything. Come on, you know me. You know I would not hold you back from anything you want to do or have. If that's what makes you happy then go ahead. But I will not pretend to feel anything that I don't feel. Like I said before, and I will say it again, Once I fall, I fall. I can't stop, no matter how much I want to. And believe me, I'm trying. However, I am happy for you. :) So go on, and don't think about me. I don't want you to.
Anyways, all my money's in Cheras so I can't rent the books I want. I don't want to burden my grandparents, so I gotta wait. :/
Heading to Rawang tomorrow for a sleepover at Reev's. Mum and grandma wants to catch up and 'SOCIALISE' or something, haha. Maybe will go bowling, with everybody.
Vi, I miss you so much. Jom spend time giler2 next week kay? :) We'll watch all that movies you want. And you can get me that Japanese ice thingy? that dessert. Oh yeah! I'll go and see if the stores are selling Vaanam yet. Hopefully they have one with subtitles. ==''
And Grace too. She's so busy to spend time with me but free with everyone else. == Priorities priorities. Sigh.. maybe I shouldnt fight with her so often :P .. Looking forward to catching up with Anna, Daniel and Arvind too. :)
Happy weekend. :)
It was funny. I couldn't hold the dough without it sticking to my fingers.. and when I keep fiddling with it, it doesn't come to the round shape a pizza's suppose to have. And I slapped the pizza all wrong.. and when it was time to toss it up into the air, I sorta tossed it at my manager.. on accident. =='' .. But great that everyone just laughed. In the end, my pizza was not round.. It looked like a cloud. :D .. I thought i was a much nicer shape but no one would hear of it. =/ So there goes the cloud pizza.
Found a great article on names while I was cleaning the windows of Papa John's today. :) I was reading it when some random dude came and ask me if he looked nice today.. =='' ???? Went back in fast. ==''
An aunt of mine is admitted in the hospital, for heart problems. Went and visited her today. I was shocked at how GH was in a bad condition. Can't believed I stayed there for the first 5 years of my life. But then again, the pediatrician ward was much nicer. Anyways, it was not about that they should be first class service or anything, but the LEAST they could do was TRY. Instead of building skyscrapers, could the government give money to the hospitals at least? The beds are broken, the meals are not cooked well, the air's hot..I almost cried just watching them. Aunt M told the entire ward that I was studying to be a doctor and everyone started complaining to me about bad hospital service. :/ I told them '' I'll see what I can do, but please..do wait 5 years''.. haha.. Was not trying to be funny but ..couldn't help it. :/
Found my favourite book rental place!! :) I thought it moved away some place far, but it just moved to behind the block. Saw the small blue sign sticking out. Seriously, anyone who's a reader should go there. You can find any books you want, they have everything. :) The auntie there is nice too. :) Used to rent novels there back when I was a kid. And funny thing, she recognizes me. Guess those who read a lot has good memory eh? :)
Andddd..
On another note, you CLEARLY have your way on coping with things and I have mine. I may be upset, but honestly, I'm not upset with you. Well, not anymore. I've got issues I have to deal with, and most of them, you have caused. Upset, yes. But that's not your problem. I'm sorry, for anything, everything. Come on, you know me. You know I would not hold you back from anything you want to do or have. If that's what makes you happy then go ahead. But I will not pretend to feel anything that I don't feel. Like I said before, and I will say it again, Once I fall, I fall. I can't stop, no matter how much I want to. And believe me, I'm trying. However, I am happy for you. :) So go on, and don't think about me. I don't want you to.
Anyways, all my money's in Cheras so I can't rent the books I want. I don't want to burden my grandparents, so I gotta wait. :/
Heading to Rawang tomorrow for a sleepover at Reev's. Mum and grandma wants to catch up and 'SOCIALISE' or something, haha. Maybe will go bowling, with everybody.
Vi, I miss you so much. Jom spend time giler2 next week kay? :) We'll watch all that movies you want. And you can get me that Japanese ice thingy? that dessert. Oh yeah! I'll go and see if the stores are selling Vaanam yet. Hopefully they have one with subtitles. ==''
And Grace too. She's so busy to spend time with me but free with everyone else. == Priorities priorities. Sigh.. maybe I shouldnt fight with her so often :P .. Looking forward to catching up with Anna, Daniel and Arvind too. :)
Happy weekend. :)
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Dedications.
How can one be in love with someone for so many years and one day wake up and realise that he loves another at the same time too ? ..
I can only imagine how my teacher would feel.. especially when she has a child. But instead of feeling sorry for herself, she files for divorce, and is packing up, leaving the country to start life all over again.
That's courage. That's strength. Because, despite the fact that she loves her husband very much, despite what people would think and say about her, she has to do her best for her child. :)
''Yes, I can only imagine the hurt and pain she would feel. But then again, I may have the slightest idea.
My best wishes and prayers goes to her.
All the best teach! :)
I can only imagine how my teacher would feel.. especially when she has a child. But instead of feeling sorry for herself, she files for divorce, and is packing up, leaving the country to start life all over again.
That's courage. That's strength. Because, despite the fact that she loves her husband very much, despite what people would think and say about her, she has to do her best for her child. :)
''Yes, I can only imagine the hurt and pain she would feel. But then again, I may have the slightest idea.
My best wishes and prayers goes to her.
All the best teach! :)
Just.
Lately, I feel everything has been going good? I'm not sure if it's lady luck or me, but yeah.. Work has been going fine. I'm getting better at being a cashier, and nowadays, I don't even have to double check to know if I got the amount right. But I still do, of course =='' Haha.. Getting closer to everyone too. Ferdaus likes advising me, while Zita likes bossing me around. I don't mind either because I consider them seniors, in the working world. :)
Though I don't know why the delivery boys, whenever they talk to me, they put on this weird British accent?? o.o'' As if I've got an accent. =='' I usually ignore them, but today they were speaking like that the entire day. Couldn't stop laughing, haha.. A customer even ask if we all came from the States together with Papa Johns. ==''
So from this I learned that practice makes perfect. I practiced at cashier and I got good at it, now it looks easy. The reports too. So what the heck. :) Oh and also, the delivery boys, suck at British accent ;) hahaha..
Missing a few people. Mum, dad, Arun, vi and college peeps! I had a dream that I started foundation all over again, just that my housemates were different people. This made me realise how much I miss them. My E33AB girls. It's true, living together makes one family. :)
Other than that, things are normal. Been hanging out with the two younger bros, and trying hard to control my anger? O.o'' They're always doing something to get on my nerves. But boys will be boys. == Hanged out with neighbour's kids..a bunch of adorables. :) Wish I had sisters. :P
Oh wait, I do. :)
Basically, that's just it.
So far, so good. <3 :)
Though I don't know why the delivery boys, whenever they talk to me, they put on this weird British accent?? o.o'' As if I've got an accent. =='' I usually ignore them, but today they were speaking like that the entire day. Couldn't stop laughing, haha.. A customer even ask if we all came from the States together with Papa Johns. ==''
So from this I learned that practice makes perfect. I practiced at cashier and I got good at it, now it looks easy. The reports too. So what the heck. :) Oh and also, the delivery boys, suck at British accent ;) hahaha..
Missing a few people. Mum, dad, Arun, vi and college peeps! I had a dream that I started foundation all over again, just that my housemates were different people. This made me realise how much I miss them. My E33AB girls. It's true, living together makes one family. :)
Other than that, things are normal. Been hanging out with the two younger bros, and trying hard to control my anger? O.o'' They're always doing something to get on my nerves. But boys will be boys. == Hanged out with neighbour's kids..a bunch of adorables. :) Wish I had sisters. :P
Oh wait, I do. :)
Basically, that's just it.
So far, so good. <3 :)
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